Depression with Affection

If you, the reader, are wondering what the meaning of the featured image is on this page, I will tell you:  It is a penlight and travel alarm clock that is EDCed by my main character, Owen Sullivan.  The ink pen signifies that he is indeed a writer.

I started writing this in the Summer of 2009, while on lunch breaks at the job of which I was employed.  The rough draft was completed some time in 2009 and I fine tuned the editing very recently.  Over the years, the most significant changes I made were to the names of the characters.  The core of the story remained the same, which is a high school senior who is an aspiring writer and his newly found girlfriend who is struggling just to get by.  The school administration, namely the corrupt school president, does not approve of the young man’s writing and therefore persecutes him.  That is why this story falls into my “Public Displays of Affection” category.  Yes, there is some fornication in this story and I know as a Christian, I should not write about that.  However, this was penned in 2009, when I was a much more immature Christian than I am now, plus I feel that this story teaches an important lesson about corruption in high places.

PS, the featured image is the items that my main character would EDC on his person, as is noted.

Without further ado, here is the story:

On a cold but sunny February afternoon in the city of Melody; Owen Sullivan was walking home. He was a senior attending an extremely strict roman catholic school. Owen’s dream was to be a writer and he would frequently walk around Melody, to get inspiration for his mind and exercise for his body. By his peers, he was considered a wonderful writer. He had written several love stories and many girls were turned on to him. His work made it to the point that some of his male peers were jealous and they began to spread false and disgusting rumors about him. This caused him to be admired but undesired. Many of the girls that were turned on to his work were also afraid of him. In turn, Owen was a very affectionate but lonely person.

As he went on walking; he thought about all this: his loneliness, his dreams, his works, and his school. He attended Seven Hills Catholic High School. Life at school was especially hard on Owen because the teachers and administration knew of his writing talents. They felt angered and even intimidated by his potential influence. Many times the school president had found his works on the Internet severely punished him. This was an attempt to make him conform and break his spirit.

The sun was shining brightly in the winter sky that day, as Owen was wandering around the north side of Melody. While out walking, he came upon a low-income housing complex. There was a beautiful girl, staring down at him from her balcony and sweetly smiling at him. He looked at her and she looked at him. Both were happy at that moment. Time seemed to stand still. Owen was greatly attracted to her and could hardly believe that she was looking at him, much less smiling. The girl waved at Owen and he waved back. Again they stood for an awkward moment until Owen looked at his pocket-watch and was shocked by the time. He realized his parents would be worried and that he needed to get home. Sadly, Owen made his way home. He walked in the door and headed to the loft. Upon entering, he pulled his penlight out of his side pocket and a composition book from his backpack. He began to write down all the inspirations that occurred during the day, which he used as notes for his love stories.

In the meantime, the girl, Ellie Pritchard, began to cry. She was riddled with hurt from what she assumed was rejection. Here she was, very lonely and finally someone pays attention to her. But, then he leaves suddenly. The reason for Ellie Pritchard living in a low-income apartment was that she had been declared disabled. She suffered from severe schizophrenia and received an SSI check each month. She took medication to keep her said illness at bay, but it had caused her to gain weight. This combined with the fact that she was alone in life and struggling to make it, brought on depression in her. Ellie spent the whole night crying, wondering if that boy would ever come back to her.

Meanwhile, Owen was writing in the loft by the light of his penlight about the day’s events. He was also working on fantasies about the girl he saw. He wrote until the batteries in his penlight died. While walking down the stairs from the loft; he looked at his pocket watch. While looking at the time, he thought of that girl. In anguish, he pondered how he might have just thrown away a chance at happiness. Many thoughts were racing through his head such as if that girl and he could have been an item or if she was upset because he walked away. Owen’s night was completely restless; until finally the next morning came. He grabbed his backpack, put new batteries in his penlight, placed his watch in his pocket, and headed off to school.

The day at school proved to be excruciatingly slow. Owen was feeling the urge to go walking, in hopes that he would see the girl again. Finally, 2:53 pm struck and the dismissal bell blared. He grabbed his backpack and once again headed to the north side of the city. He prayed over and over for another chance to see the girl.

Meanwhile, Ellie was sitting up in her bedroom and noticed that it was now afternoon. She too prayed over and over again to see the boy again. Ellie went outside and sat down on the bench in hopes that he might come back. Like clockwork, Owen came through the grounds of the complex. This time she said softly and shyly to him

“Hello, I have seen you here before.”

“Yes, I came here yesterday,” Owen replied as he blushed

Ellie asked, “Why do you come here?”

Owen answered, “It gives me inspiration for my writing.”

“This place? Why?”

“Not just this place but the whole city. Mostly just the motion of walking inspires me.”

There was a brief uneasy silence but then she motioned for him to sit with her.

As she did, Owen asked, “So, what is your name?’

The girl answered “Ellie Pritchard.”

Then said, “And yours?”

He answered her “Owen Sullivan.”

Ellie, feeling more confident, asked “Would you come back tomorrow?”

“Sure, I would like to see you again,” Owen answered as his voice shook slightly. Ellie blushed. Owen continued “I am so sorry I left you yesterday, it’s just I didn’t want to worry my parents.”

Ellie nodded understandingly, then asked, “Do you live around here?”

Owen answered, “Yes, I live in Melody.”

There was a brief silence, then Ellie asked “I think it is awesome that you are a writer. Why don’t you tell me one of your stories?”

Owen replied, “Sure, I would love to share my work with you.”

Immediately he pulled a composition book out of his backpack and began reading. He got to a very sensual part of the story which caused Ellie to tingle and twitch throughout her whole body.

Uncontrollably she lunged over to Owen, threw her arms tightly around his body, and kissed him. She giggled and said, “Let us re-enact this story!”

Owen, filled with a mixture of infatuation and lust, said “Oh, baby! Your wish is my command!”

They began to hold and kiss each other with strong affection. Ellie made several passion marks on Owen’s neck. Owen rubbed Ellie’s face and played with her long strawberry-blond hair. Ellie kissed Owen’s forehead and petted his curly, dirty blonde hair. Owen then rested his head on Ellie’s soft belly and she put her hand in his shirt and rubbed his bare chest.

For the first time in what seemed like forever; Ellie felt happy again. Owen felt completely ecstatic. It was as if he was living out one of his written stories, but it was much more fulfilling than he ever imagined. They continued to caress each other with great affection, all while Owen was still in uniform. Soon, the winter sun was setting.

Owen became filled with anxiety, looked at his pocket watch, and spoke with passionate sadness. “I need to go now, but I promise I will be back tomorrow.”

Ellie spoke sadly and with an affectionate pout said “I wish you didn’t have to go. How old are you anyway?”

Owen replied “I just made 18. And you?”

Ellie answered him with happiness “I’m 20. Hey, since you are 18, you can legally stay with me.”

Owen replied “I would want that too, but the school president would expel me if he found out I was shacking up. Then my parents would have lost a lot of money they paid for my tuition.”

He paused and continued “It would be worth it all for you.”

Ellie smiled and said, “Just consider it.”

Owen nodded his head then kissed her goodbye.

She happily remarked, “I’ll be waiting for you.”

Owen walked home and once again went up into the loft. He wrote again until the batteries in his penlight completely died. He then went to bed and dreamed many beautiful dreams about Ellie. On the other hand, Ellie felt sad, yet hopeful, as she prepared her dinner. She ate dinner, took her medicine, and then went to bed dreaming of Owen. Both woke up in great pleasure and prepared for the day ahead. Ellie had truly fallen for Owen and truly wanted for him to stay with her. Owen had also genuinely fallen for Ellie and wanted to stay with her, but was afraid of repercussions from his school president. He lay in bed sometime between twilight and dawn, wrestling with the idea of moving in with Ellie. Finally, dawn was breaking and Owen made up his mind. He loaded his backpack with several changes of clothes. He also packed his writing tools, composition books, penlight, and pocket watch and set out on his way to school. Owen was now set to go anywhere and do anything his situation would require.

A half-hour later, He walked into class just before the morning bell rang. This day seemed like the slowest day yet. Owen was filled with anxiety and he did not pay much attention to the teachers. The only thing, or person rather, on his mind was Ellie Pritchard. After what seemed like the longest school day ever; the bell finally rang. Owen headed straight for her apartment. Upon arrival, she greeted him lovingly. She grabbed him and kissed his face repeatedly. They sat down on the bench, holding hands.

“I’ve decided to stay with you,” Owen said with great affection.

Ellie was ecstatic as she replied, “You really will?”

“Of course, I will!” Owen replied with assurance.

Ellie held him even tighter and said “And you’ll be my one and only!”

Owen nodded and began to read to her. “I wrote this for you!” He said.

When he finished, there was another uneasy silence.

Ellie felt tingles and twitches throughout her whole body.

Soon, the winds from the north began to increase. They were just enough to make both Ellie and Owen uncomfortable. Both were shivering from the chill in the air and Owen reached for his pocket-watch.

Ellie broke the silence as she offered “Why don’t we go inside.”

Owen simply nodded in agreement and followed her.

As they walked inside, Ellie walked to her portable heater and, bent over and turned it on. The light blue jeans and a white cotton shirt she was clothed in showed off her curves. Owen stared at her with admiration and lust. She then motioned for Owen to sit with her.

He asked “You mean we get to snuggle? It would make me most happy to do so.”

Ellie giggled then said “Sure, that is very sweet of you. I am overjoyed that you want to snuggle with me.”

With that being said, they were covered up in a dark blue blanket. The sunset faded through the window of the apartment, and soon they fell asleep in each other’s arms.

At seven pm they awoke to the gurgling of each other’s stomachs. Ellie fixed a simple meal of canned white beans for both of them. When the food was prepared, they ate on Ellie’s coffee table. After their first dinner together, they sat on that convertible sofa and conversed with each other. All was going great until the subject was Ellie’s illness.

She said “I ran away when I was 18. I went to a shelter and then was committed. The doctors diagnosed me with schizophrenia. After my release, I was set up with this apartment. I’ve been all by myself ever since.” Ellie paused then said “I hope I don’t scare you off by talking about my illness. It is well controlled with my medicine.”

Owen reassuringly replied “It doesn’t bother me at all. I read many times that people with that illness are very kind and creative. You’ve already given me plenty of inspiration with just your touch. I can only imagine what’s in your beautiful mind and soul. You could help me write many amazing things!”

Ellie then asked, “How will your parents react when they find out you have decided to move in with me?” I hope they wouldn’t be too worried and I pray that they will understand and accept me.”

Owen replied, “I will try my best.”

Ellie then said “Of course, if they don’t, you are legal and you can stay with me anyway. I want you to keep me company and love me.” ‘

He spoke to her “Wow, you make me feel overwhelmingly blissful. I have wanted you ever since I first laid eyes upon you.”

Ellie blushed and rubbed her face against his.

She then replied, “I never thought this would happen to me, but I am glad it is.” She paused, and then continued “I never thought I would find that special someone.”

Owen simply smiled and said nothing. Ellie continued, asking him “You truly want us to be together right? I pray your answer is yes.”

Owen smiled and sweetly replied “Of course I do. I can envision us, together, against the world. It sounds wonderful to me. I want to be with you and I hope my parents accept that. If not, I will still stay with you.”

Ellie threw her arms around him with a joyful smile and twinkling eyes. She then asked, “So you really will stay with me tonight?”

Owen replied, “And tomorrow night, and every night until the end of time if you wish.”

With great excitement, Ellie wrapped her legs around Owen, then sucked his mouth in a passionate kiss.

Owen said, “You know one day I will pay both our ways with my writing.” He stood up for just a moment looked at his watch. It indicated 8 pm. He then began to pace around the room.

Ellie cried in distress “Please stay here.”

He rushed himself to her and “Of course I will stay, and forgive me for upsetting you. It’s just I need my uniform washed. I still want to finish school you know.”

Ellie replied, “Sure I can have that done.”

With that, Owen removed his shirt and was feeling quite chilly. He pulled another tee-shirt from his backpack. Ellie gave him a pair of unisex sleeping pants. They then walked out of her room and down to the laundry room, with their hands on each other’s backside. Owen and Ellie set their clothes in a washing machine and turned it on. While waiting for the clothes to wash, they decided to sit down on that same bench where they first talked to each other. Ellie sat up straight while Owen rested his head in her lap. They cuddled affectionately together until two athletes from Owen’s school arrived. They came to the complex to buy prescription pills. When they spotted the couple, both decided to make trouble.

Owen became nervous.

He said “Those are two boys from my school. Austin Dupont and Al Hardy. They make trouble with me all the time. What are they doing here?”

Ellie replied with a whisper “Coming buy pills. There is a pusher who lives in this complex. They meet with him all the time.”

“You don’t say. They could be expelled for that.” Owen replied. He paused then continued “Actually no, forget it. It would get someone like me expelled, but the school president would allow them to do it because of their athletic skills. Not to mention their families are filthy rich.”

“Just keep quiet,” Ellie whispered.

But it was too late. They had been spotted.

Austin said loudly “Look at Owen Sullivan, with his nut case girlfriend.”

Al followed with “That’s probably the best he could do.”

Ellie was reduced to tears when Owen said in anger “Get the hell out of here or I will call the cops!”

Austin mockingly said “Oh look he’ll call the cops. My family knows the police chief they won’t do us anything.” Ellie handed Owen her mobile phone and showed them the digits 911.

Owen then said, “I’m not playing, if you two good for nothing excuses for human beings don’t get out of here right now, I will have you thrown in jail.”

They continued to mock and taunt.

“Wait, you’re both going to catch a disturbing the peace charge for sure. And I know you’re both dirty, so probably a drug possession charge as well.”

They attacked Owen and he dropped Ellie’s phone.

Ellie quickly picked it up, pressed the send button, was connected, and explained the situation to the dispatcher.

Austin and Al continued attacking Owen.

In a short while, a unit from the Melody PD arrived on the scene. At first, the policeman tried to make the two boys leave. They refused and explained their connections.

Owen told the responding officer “Check them for drugs, they came to buy pills.”

Austin cursed the cop lower than a dog and spit at him, to which he was arrested. Pills were found on him. Al also was found to be dirty and punched the officer during the search. Additionally, Owen pressed assault and battery charges on them as well. Al and Austin were eventually detained and dragged off.

After the two troublemakers were taken from the scene, Ellie was still in tears as she spoke with grief, “I’m not good enough for you, I am a nut case.”

Lovingly, Owen wrapped himself around her and kissed her tears off of her face.

He spoke, “I think you are wonderful and I don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. Please let me stay with you.”

In total comfort, she smiled and gently hugged him, then said, “Of course, you can stay with me! I was just afraid you would be turned off to me.”

Owen replied “If anything, I am very turned on to you. You saved me from serious injury by calling the cops. I am in debt to you!”

Another silence came upon them until Ellie said, “I love you, Owen. Do you love me?”

Owen gently replied, kissing her “Ever since I first laid eyes on you, I’ve had feelings for you, but now I can honestly and truthfully say that, yes, I do love you as well, Ellie!”

She smiled sweetly and kissed him with great passion. The temperature had dropped even more, so they decided to go inside.

Both began to physically express their feelings of love towards each other as soon as Ellie closed and locked her door.

She then said, “I want to make love to you, but I’m a virgin, so don’t break my heart.”

Owen replied “So am I. You must know I would never dream of breaking your heart. I want you until my last breath.”

Ellie grabbed Owen and pulled him to her with great strength. They then began their lovemaking. After many hours of cuddling and intimacy; they went down to get their laundry. Upon arriving back in the room Owen checked his watch, which indicated midnight. Momentarily he felt distressed, but then felt the stronger feelings of his love towards Ellie.

Owen set his alarm, then said “Let us sleep now, as it is a school night for me.” Ellie nodded her head in agreement and kissed him. They climbed into her convertible sofa and lovingly fell asleep in each other’s arms the whole night through. 5:30 am came damn too quickly and Owen woke up in Ellie’s arms. He began to kiss her until she woke up.

“Please come back to me today.” She said with a cute smile and puppy dog eyes.

Owen replied, “Not just today, but every day until the end of time.”

He then looked at his watch and said, “I have to go now.”

“Just come back as quickly as you can!”

“I promise you, I will!” Owen replied, then put his penlight in one pocket and watch in the other then kissed her and headed off to school. He made it just in time for the first bell.

As Owen was sitting down in class, daydreaming about Ellie. The school president’s voice suddenly came in over the intercom and said, “Please send Owen Sullivan to my office with his books.”

“He’s on his way,” The teacher replied, and motioned for him to leave the classroom. Owen grabbed his backpack and headed for the office. He was filled with anger because the administration had harassed him many times before. Knowing this was about him and Ellie and the boys that were making trouble with them; he was going to stand up for himself this time.

When he arrived, the president spoke with a fit of very disturbing anger, “My sources are telling me that you are the reason some students were arrested. Start talking-now!”

Owen replied in an irritated voice, ¨Yes, it is true. I had them arrested because they were harassing my girlfriend and me. Then they beat the hell out of me. Not to mention they also bought prescription pills illegally.”

The president backed him into a corner and said angrily, “Those two boys come from families that keep our school functioning financially. They are also fine athletes.”

“Yeah, they probably take those pills because of all the sports injuries they sustain,” Owen remarked.

“Shut your mouth. That is none of your business!” The school president shouted, paused, then continued, “Furthermore, I have witnesses saying that you and that girl were carrying on in a lewd way, while you were in uniform. I can expel you on the spot for that. I will, however, give you another chance and let you graduate, if you agree to drop the charges and break up with that girl. It’s all up to you.”

Owen said in distress, “You don’t understand, I love her.”

The president replied with anger, “Save it for your counselor because I don’t care. Furthermore, you have misrepresented this school and you must be punished.”

“What about Al and Austin? Will anything happen to them? They beat me up you know!”

The president answered, “How dare you question me?! They and their families contribute plenty to this school. What do you contribute? Absolutely nothing! All you do is write those trashy love stories that disrupt the learning process and reflect negatively on this school’s image.”

Owen said, “I may write them and you may not like them, but many people do. For whatever unjustified reason you are obsessed with control.”

“Regardless of what you say or believe, you will break up with that girl and drop the charges if you want to graduate.”

“I can drop the charges, even though that is flagrantly unfair. However, I cannot break up with her. I love her and she loves me. Not to mention she is a schizophrenic. If I did leave her she might harm herself.”

The president then said, “Good, then that would mean one less moocher that my tax dollars have to pay for.”

Back to “Works of Fiction”

Synopsis to “Radiant Affection”

So, to explain the featured image on this page, it is a collection of items that are used by the main character, Logan Baines.  Some he EDCs others he uses for his job as a tractor mechanic.

I had begun writing the story that came to be known as, “Radiant Affection”, back in the earlier parts of 2012. At the time I wrote this synopsis in 2022, I have an idea of where I wanted to go with it and how I want to conclude it, but I just haven’t had the emotional energy required to do so.

My purpose for writing, “Radiant Affection”, was to create a replacement for the original version of, “The Textfile.” I had realized that the original version of that story painted Christians in a negative light, so I wanted to destroy and replace it with something better.

“Radiant Affection” is a love story between a twenty-two-year-old tractor mechanic named Logan Baines and an eighteen-year-old high school senior named Mila Gunther. They had crushed on each other for the previous five years but were unable to be in a [legal] relationship, due to their ages.

Because “Radiant Affection” is one of my “Public Displays of Affection” stories, that means it entails a romantic couple that suffers an oppressive authority that forbids their relationship. In this case, it is Mila’s corrupt catholic school president, Kieth Koresh, and the roman catholic religious system in general.

While there may be a minority of roman catholics that have truly come to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ, I believe that the majority of them are lost and need to be saved. The complete hierarchy of the roman catholic church hinders and hides the true message of the Gospel and teaches other blatant blasphemies. This is why, despite attending catholic school from pre-school to high school, I can no longer endorse the roman catholic church with a clear conscience. This reason is also one of the reasons why I wrote, “Radiant Affection” and some of my other “Public Displays of Affections” stories in the first place. In “Radiant Affection”, I will point out some of the hypocrisy, lies, blasphemies, and other sins committed by the roman catholic church, while at the same time, trying to tell a beautiful romance story.

Without further ado, I present to you the synopsis:

The story begins on the morning of February 9, 2006, at Seven Hills Roman Catholic High School. Mila Gunther, a shy, self-conscious and pleasantly plump eighth-grader is sitting in her Mathematics Class. Her teacher also teaches Advanced Math to seniors. Suddenly, Logan Baines, a skinny, intelligent, and in Mila’s eyes very sweet and handsome, senior, walks into the classroom to retrieve his assignments. Logan is running a high fever and is leaving school for the day. At the sight of Logan, Mila becomes very giddy and starts smiling at him. Logan notices and smiles back at her. Because of her excitement, Mila is unaware of her leg movements and accidentally flashes Logan. Logan saw underneath Mila’s uniform skirt and blushed brightly. Both are virgins and Logan has a reverence for any decent girl and Mila was no exception. He was nervous and anxious, yet passionately attracted to what he had just seen. They become fixated on each others’ gaze. The teacher then told Logan that he may leave now and even questioned whether or not he was running a fever. Before this, Mila and Logan had seen each other in the halls multiple times. Logan was the only boy who would smile at her and open doors for her. Because of her weight, no other boy paid any attention to her, so she thought tremendously highly of Logan.

The day dragged on for Mila.

Upon arriving home, she went up to her room and wrote many love stories. The hero of all these stories was, of course, Logan Baines. The character that she based herself upon was Logan’s lover but remained nameless.

The next day was Friday, February 10, 2006, and Mila walked all around the school looking for Logan. Finally, she saw him sitting in the library, reading a science magazine. She logged on to the computer nearest him and continued writing even more of her fantasies about him. Now and then she would look up from her writing and stare at Logan. When she finally caught his attention, the bell rang. She winked at Logan, to which he blushed again. Despite her weight, Logan thought she was absolutely beautiful. He desired her tremendously but knew at present that they couldn’t be a couple, due to the statutes on the books. From that point on, every time they saw each other at school, both were filled with great infatuation. Mila’s infatuation soon grew into an obsession and she continued to post those stories online.

On the evening of Thursday, April 27, 2006, Logan came across Mila’s webpage. He was shocked, but would consistently read the material. Logan never once thought that Mila was the author. Rather he thought it was the work of one of the cruel girls in his senior class.

On the morning of Saturday, May 20, 2006, the graduating ceremony was held for Logan’s class. Mila snuck in and stayed at the very top bleachers. When Logan’s name was called out, Mila fought back tears, wondering if she would ever see him again. After the ceremony, Mila went home and started writing yet again. It became her heart’s desire that she and Logan would somehow, someday be together.

Throughout the Summer of 2006, Logan worked various part-time jobs, while Mila focused on her writing. Both also tremendously desired each other and remained virgins. No one else seemed to measure up, for either of them.

In the Fall of 2006, Logan started trade school and his concentration was Diesel Power Equipment Technology. He was a model student and was able to pick up the trade with great ease.

When Logan graduated from trade school, he joined a missions trip to Eastern Europe. Knowing that wheat was grown there in abundance, he thought it was an opportunity to gain experience and have something for his career and resume`. While working there, he met a missionary pastor named Michael Clarkson.

On the evening of Wednesday, February 25, 2009, Logan was finishing up his day’s work in Eastern Europe and headed to Pastor Michael’s Bible Study.

During this Bible Study, the roman catholic church was exposed as not being of God

The scriptures referenced were:
Romans 3:23
Luke 1:47
Mark 7:7-8
1 Timothy 4:1-3
Revelation 17

Some had walked out, but Logan’s attention to Pastor Michael was undivided.

At the conclusion, Logan approached Pastor Michael privately stating that he was raised in catholicism and now knows that it is false. He pleads with Pastor Michael on what he must do to make it right.

Pastor Michael presents the True Gospel to Logan and Logan surrenders to it, thus becoming a Christian.

Immediately, Logan became Born Again.

Pastor Michael instructed Logan on how he must share this truth with everyone he meets.

Several catholic priests had Pastor Michael Clarkson banned from missionary work on the grounds of teaching hate.

Logan’s skills were highly valued, so he continued working in Eastern Europe. Many of the local girls tried to catch his eye, but every time, he could only think of Mila and turned every one of them down.

In the Fall of 2009, Mila had grown into a beautiful young lady. He parents had since divorced and she took thyroid treatments which resulted in weight loss. Now many boys had desired her, but she remembered how none of them would even give her the time of day when she was overweight. Whenever one of those boys made a pass at her she politely refused them. However, she continued writing those fantasies about Logan Baines online. She revealed her secret to a few, but they all eventually thought of her as delusional.

On Christmas Eve, Thursday, December 24, 2009, Logan became homesick and took the last flight to the States home. All during the Christmas Holidays, Logan visited with family and friends. When normal business operations resumed, Logan applied for a job at a local tractor repair shop and was hired on the spot. Subsequently, he purchased a condominium and spent his evenings in the local library reading on his laptop. He realized that the secret webpage was still active. Those stories brought back memories of high school which in turn brought back memories of Mila Gunther. He realized that he still had feelings for her, even after all that. So Logan fervently prayed for a chance to see Mila again…

On Thursday, February 4, 2010, Logan had just clocked out of his work and drove to the local library, so he could read on his laptop. He grabbed his EDC bag with his laptop and walked to the second floor, plugged in and connected to the Internet. After looking at his email, Myspace and Facebook, he read the weather report, then noticed that a new story had been published on the secret web page.

At the same time, Mila had also driven to the library and walked to the teen section computers, and uploaded her latest fantasy. She then walked upstairs to begin her schoolwork.

Logan was just about to start reading the new fantasy when the stairwell door suddenly opened and in walked a girl in her uniform skirt. The girl reminded Logan of Mila and his eyes were fixated on her. After a few moments of staring, he realized that it was indeed Mila, just thinner and grown-up. Logan stood up and watched Mila in awestruck admiration.

Mila noticed and smiled sweetly. She did a double-take and realized that the young man staring at her was indeed Logan Baines, but with a more masculine look.

Mila exclaimed with excitement, “It’s him!” She then ran up to him and said, “I know you, you’re Logan Baines!”

Nervously but passionately, Logan replied, “Oh Mila, I cannot believe you remember me!”

They then tightly embraced!

Mila then humbly replied, “Well, you sure are hard to forget.” They awkwardly stared into each others’ eyes, smiling then Mila confessed how she had strong feelings for him when they went to school together and that she still does. She also stated how she thinks that he felt something for her as well because he would always smile and blush.

Logan tells her that it is true. He went on to say that he would have sought her out back then but was afraid of the law and wanted to spare her the humiliating scandal.

Mila replies that she is eighteen now she can be his girlfriend and they can do whatever they want.

Logan replies how he would be honored to have her and that he has a deep reverence for her body and soul and then became at a loss for words.

Mila tells him how those are the sweetest words anyone has ever spoken to her and the fact that they came out of his mouth fills her heart with ecstasy and giddiness.

She then pecks him on the cheek.

Their lips then lock

A city policeman who was working a security detail in the library shouted for them to knock it off or get out.

Mila then suggests that Logan come to her house and continues that her mom is either drunk or full of pills and that her dad left a year ago.

Logan asks if she has a car or does she want him to drive her.

Mila replies that her dad bought her a car just before he left her mom.

Logan then follows Mila home.

Upon arrival, Mila’s mom was sleeping on the sofa with the television tuned to some drama show.

Mila brings Logan up to her room.

Logan sat on Mila’s computer chair and Mila sat on her bed with her legs up.

Once again, Logan could see underneath Mila’s skirt.

Logan blushed until his face was a burning red.

Mila giggled and asked teasingly if Logan liked what he saw.

Logan tried to answer, but couldn’t as he continued to stare under Mila’s skirt.

Mila giggled even more and said that Logan can have her if he wants her and that she will be his first. She then asked Logan with distress if he will be her first.

Logan caught his breath and said that he will indeed be her first and that he has known no other nor does he want any other.

Mila then commands Logan to take her.

Logan states that he can’t because he is a child of God and fornication is wrong.

Mila says how he is hot when he talks about God and how women are turned on by that.

Logan blushed and then bowed his head and silently prayed.

Mila asked Loagan what was wrong.

Logan replied to Mila that he is very attracted to her and she is the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and the only girl he has ever wanted.

Mila once again suggests that he take her then.

Logan states how he would if doing so wouldn’t offend the God Whom he loves. He went on to say how he is afraid God would punish him and cause them to break up if they fornicated. He then plainly told Mila that he doesn’t ever want to lose her!

Mila replied that she doesn’t ever want to lose him either. She then said how they don’t have to have sex and that he just showed her how sweet he is and that she always loved that about him.

Logan thanked Mila for being patient with him.

Mila asked Logan what would he want to do.

Logan replied how he wants to just hold her next to him and innocently snuggle so they can make up for the years when they were apart and finally get to know each other.

Mila asked if she ever turned him on when they were younger.

Logan told her about the time when she accidentally flashed him while he was running a high fever and retrieving his assignments. He went on to say how he liked her back then and figured she liked him too, but he felt so conflicted with great reverence, yet great lust.

Mila told him how she remembered that day as well and how he shouldn’t have felt conflicted and that it was proof that they were meant to be even back then. She went on to say that she could not believe he liked her even though she was so fat back then and how no other boys paid attention to her except you. She went on to say how after she lost weight many boys liked her but none of them measured up to you. She then finally confessed that she writes stories about him online but keeps her identity secret and how she did so ever since that day in class.

Logan replied how he read all those stories but had no clue it was her. He went on to say how he was turned on but never responded because he assumed it was someone trying to play a cruel prank.

Mila placed her face into Logan’s chest and sobbed saying it was her all along and that she poured her heart into it.

Logan then told her as he petted her hair that he thought they were all beautiful and he is even more touched now knowing that she was the one who wrote them.

Mila then pulled a lanyard with a flash drive from under her shirt and said she keeps them as text documents so they can all be close to her heart.

Logan kissed her and said that if he will have her, she can keep him close to her heart always.

They then exchange those three words.

Subsequently, they fall asleep in each others’ arms.

On Friday, February 5, 2010, Logan and Mila woke to the beeping of Logan’s watch alarm.

Logan kissed her and said, “Time to wake up, beautiful.”

Mila replied, “Wow, I thought it was only a dream.”

Logan told her how it is reality and better than anything dreams can provide.

They each visited the bathroom.

Mila then bathed and dressed.

After walking out of the bathroom, she teasingly lifted her skirt in front of Logan.

They then embraced and exchanged kisses with each one more passionate than the last.

They then ate a breakfast of banana nut muffins and skim milk in the dining room while Mila’s mom was still passed out cold.

For a spell they sat and held hands, smiling and admiring each other.

Finally, Mila said that she needs to go to school.

They eventually exchanged those three words then left.

After arriving from school, Mila had a beautiful smile radiating from her face, hence the title of the story. Her giddiness could also be felt by everyone whom she passed. She sat at the library computer writing her current fantasy until the bell rang.

As she was sitting in her first-period math class, the school president called the teacher over the intercom and told her to send Mila Gunther to his office.

The teacher motioned for Mila to leave the classroom.

Mila walked down to the office wondering why she was called.

In a grave, confrontational anger, Kieth Koresh began to question Mila about carrying on in a lewd way whilst wearing her school uniform.

Mila replied that all she did was kiss Logan Baines and that so many others get away with far worse.

Kieth Koresh went on to say how several civic leaders and local business owners were having a meeting in the library and heard everything you and Logan said to each other. He went on to say how that disgusting incident is the impression everyone in the community will have of the school. Kieth Koresh then said that he will only give her two Saturday School assignments, but he commanded her to break up with Logan Baines as part of her punishment and if they don’t break up, she will indeed be expelled.

Mila cries and says that she cannot break up with him because they love each other deeply and have been in love for four years.

Kieth Koresh says that he doesn’t care and to save it for her counselor. He then tells her to get back to class and not step out of line.

When school let out Mila called Logan and explained the situation to him.

Logan replied how that gosh durn Kieth Koresh has gone too far this time. He then sheepishly asked Mila if she still wanted him.

Mila says how she is not about to give up on their relationship after all this, but they are going to have to keep it covert.

Logan said how he will text her his address and that Kieth Koresh might know where she lives but doesn’t know where he lives.

Mila says how moving in with Logan would be all of her stories come true!

Logan then says how he gets off of work at half-past four and to meet him at his condo at five.

They then exchange those three little words and hang up.

Logan worked diligently until quitting time while Mila got ready and packed. Logan then cleaned himself and dressed, as he planned to take Mila out on a date.

At five o’clock Mila arrived at Logan’s place.

Logan greeted her then offered to take her to eat out and shopping.

Mila replied how it cannot be anywhere local in case they are seen together and word gets back to Kieth Koresh.

I will state that the main setting for this story, I would imagine takes place in the Houma, Louisiana area.

They decide to go out several cities over.

After the long drive, they come upon a mall. Logan and Mila

Therefore, the mall they are shopping at would be a combination of Clearview Mall, Esplanade Mall, and Lakeside Mall, all of which are located in the suburbs of New Orleans.

First, they eat at what is the equivalent of a Sbarro, then a Cafe` Du Monde.

Afterward, Logan purchases Mila an engagement ring (unknown to her) some gifts, and finally some sunglasses and a scarf to hide her identity whilst with him in public.

Logan then purchases her a Mini Maglite for her purse, since he always carried one since working in Eastern Europe because of the intermittent electricity.

He states that they should now go home because he has a surprise for her.

They then walk to Logan’s truck and drive home in the cold.

Logan purchases some fuel from a truck stop in a town based off of Raceland, Louisiana.

After filling up they drive straight to his condominium.

Logan walks Mila to his bedroom, then pulls the ring out of his coat pocket and proposes.

Mila all too happily agrees and then they fall asleep in each others’ arms.

On Saturday, February 6, 2010, Mila and Logan wake up in each others’ arms.

They eat breakfast together, to which Mila expresses her concern about gaining weight from eating oatmeal and maple syrup.

Logan replies how it wouldn’t matter to him whether she gained weight or not because he would still love and revere her.

Mila says how she was right to create all those stories because Logan is so sweet to tell her that.

Logan replies how he is in love with her heart not just her body.

Mila tells Logan to not be offended but she won’t wear Logan’s ring to Saturday School, because she doesn’t want to get it dirty but she definitely will be wearing it Monday morning.

Mila says how she will miss him whilst at Saturday school and that he cannot drive her there or pick her up from there because Kieth Koresh will expel her if he sees them together.

Logan then asks if he could read all of her stories on her flash drive.

Mila agrees then she copies them to his laptop.

Mila goes to Saturday School while Logan reads.

One of Mila’s enemies, Ashley Janus, points out how Mila is wearing men’s pants and how they must belong to Logan Baines. Mila is beautiful and Ashley is an eyesore, so she is jealous of the thought that Mila is with someone like Logan Baines.

Mila lies and says how she bought them at GoodWill.

Janus then shouts how Mila shops at GoodWill.

All the rich students laugh.

Kieth Koresh then wants to know if those pants do indeed belong to Logan Baines, to which Mila lies again and says how she bought them at GoodWill because she doesn’t want to ruin her clothes doing dirty work.

Kieth Koresh says for Mila to watch her attitude and that she is picking up trash because she acted like trash.

After the trash was picked up, they cleaned the locker rooms and then went to the library to study.

After Saturday School, Mila left and Kieth Koresh attempted to follow her.

Mila called Logan who instructed Mila to drive to the police station, to which he drove off.

Mila then drove to Logan’s condo.

Logan greeted her and told her to get out of those dirty, wet clothes before she gets sick.

He hands her a turtle neck sweater and sweat pants to warm her up.

They then go cuddle.

Mila attempts to make a sexual advance at Logan once again but he says he can’t for the same reason he previously declined.

Mila says that they are getting married though.

Logan says how he still wants to marry her but wants their relationship to be right in God’s eyes.

Mila asks why does that matter.

Logan replies that he has eternal life and wants her to have it as well.

Mila says how she wants eternal life, so they can spend eternity together.

Logan corrects her and says how she should want to spend eternity with God and that he (Logan) will be hers for as long as they both live, but if she turns God down, he will pray for her.

Mila tells Logan that she loves him.

Logan replies that he loves her too, but God loves her more.

They soon take a nap.

Mila tosses and turns, eventually waking Logan up.

Logan asks her what’s the matter.

Mila says how she heard in school all her life that the alternative to eternal life with God is hell and she doesn’t want to go there.

So, Logan presents the Gospel to Mila.

She eventually surrenders to it, stating that they need to marry as soon as possible.

Logan points out that her strong desire to marry him means that she is being convicted by The Holy Ghost.

They reverently cuddled in Logan’s bed until lunchtime.

After they both felt hunger pangs, Logan ordered them Chinese takeout.

After the food was delivered, Logan tipped the delivery man, then they went into the dining room and ate.

Mila suggests that they say grace, to which Logan leads the prayer.

They eat, then Mila says how she wants to be intimate with Logan but doesn’t want to offend God either.

Logan says they both should pray for an escape route from temptation.

Suddenly there was a knock at the door.

Mila goes hide in the bedroom, explaining to Logan that she doesn’t want to be seen at his place and word gets back to Kieth Koresh.

Logan tells her he understands then answers the door.

A younger busty woman is at Logan’s door.

Logan asks if he can help her.

She states that her boyfriend and herself are moving into the unit above them and if they could borrow a few things.

Logan asks what does she need.

To which she replies dishes and tools for hanging pictures and assembling furniture.

Logan agrees to get those things for her.

The young woman proceeds to step into Logan’s unit.

Logan reprimands her and sternly says that he doesn’t want her entering his property unless her boyfriend is present with her. Logan goes on to say how he is in a relationship with a young lady whom he deeply loves and reveres and he does want to be in a situation where one would even think he is cheating on her.

The young woman says she’ll go back and get her boyfriend in a few minutes, then left.

Mila came out from her hiding spot and told Logan how what he said and did was very noble.

Logan told Mila that she means everything to him and he cannot picture himself with anyone else, therefore he walks the chalk line for her.

They began to affectionately kiss each other until the doorbell rang again.

Mila went back to the bedroom.

Logan answered the door and the young woman was standing there with her middle-aged boyfriend.

They introduced themselves.

The middle-aged man said he was Walter Gunther, (Mila’s dad.)

The young lady then introduced herself as Fannie Jane Giddens.

Logan asked them exactly what they needed.

Walter said that he needed a couple of screwdrivers and a hammer.

Fannie then said that she also needed some dishes.

Logan then tells Walter that he is sorry if he seemed rude to Fannie, but he has a girlfriend whom he tremendously loves and reveres and he refuses to be alone with anyone of the opposite sex.

Walter replies how that’s not a problem as long as Logan doesn’t preach to him about having a younger woman.

Logan replies that he is twenty-two and his girlfriend is eighteen, so he can somewhat relate.

Logan then hands his new neighbors the borrowed supplies.

Fannie says how she is making some Southern Fried Chicken, to which Walters tells Logan to come over and bring his girlfriend.

Logan agreed with considerable reluctance.

Mila came out of hiding with tears in her eyes.

Logan asked her what’s the matter.

Mila replies how that man is her dad and he is now with a much younger woman.

Logan tells her that he is so sorry and asks Mila how is he able to afford to send Mila to catholic school, buy her a car, divorce her mom buy a condominium, and have a young girlfriend.

Mila replies that he is an attorney.

Logan replies how his mom is a librarian and his dad is a history professor and they struggled to educate him.

Mila then says how she doesn’t want to eat dinner with her dad and his new playmate and she doesn’t want him going either.

Logan replies how that is fine by him and is relieved because Fannie Jane Giddens is so nasty that she makes him uncomfortable.

Mila asks what will they do for dinner.

Logan replies how he can go to the West Side Grocer buy something and cook it for her.

Mila replies that she wants it to be something that is not too fattening because she was chubby until her junior year and is afraid that now she will gain it all back since she is in a stable relationship.

Logan replied how he thinks she was beautiful back then and that she is beautiful now. He went on to say that no matter how big or small she gets he will want her because of her inner beauty as well as her outer.

They then exchange those three words.

Mila expresses to Logan how if only making love to him wouldn’t offend God so much.

Logan then suggests that if Mila is concerned about her weight, he will cook something healthy and asks her if she would like steamed green beans and seared chicken breasts.

Mila says how that would be perfect and wishes they were married.

Logan kisses her then says that making groceries is their escape route from temptation.

Mila asks if she has to answer the door should anyone knock.

Logan tells her no and to not worry about it.

They once again exchange those three words then Logan leaves.

He drives to The West Side Grocer, purchases all the food and spices he needs, then sees Kieth Korest in the checkout lane with beer and whiskey on the conveyor belt.

Instantly, Logan pulls out his smartphone and snaps of picture of that.

Kieth Koresh bellows, “Logan Baines, what do you think you are doing?”

Logan replies, “I think I should ask you the same question.”

Kieth Koresh then says how he is a grown adult and can alcohol if he so chooses. He further states how he needs to drink after dealing with some of the students he has to deal with.

Logan asks him what would his students think if they saw him purchasing alcohol, yet suspend or expel them for doing the same. They would lose what little respect they have for him and now he has pictures as proof.

Kieth Koresh suggests to Logan that he quit now because he is messing with forces more powerful than he thinks.

Logan tells Kieth Koresh that he sticks his nose where it doesn’t belong and that he stalks his students.

Kieth Koresh angrily replies that it is his job to make his school look respectable to the community.

Logan then quotes Matthew 23:27 and says Jesus Christ, Someone Whom Kieth Koresh claims to follow said that and it perfectly describes what he and his school are truly like.

Kieth Koresh tells Logan that he can be his worst nightmare if he continues this subversive behavior, that he will be his worst nightmare due to his connections.

Logan warns that he will go to the police because of those threats.

Kieth Koresh says that the police will just laugh at him and stop the subversive behavior or this will get very ugly for him, then leaves the store.

The two cashiers, who were previously expelled for drinking at a party, encouraged Logan to make the pictures go viral and how they are witnesses to the threats made, should something happen to Logan.

Logan sent the picture to Mila

Logan then went home and was greeted by Fannie Jane, saying dinner is almost ready.

Logan replied how his girlfriend wanted something healthier.

Logan goes inside then he and Mila prepare dinner.

Afterward, Logan served himself and Mila, said grace then ate.

Mila was giggling as she asked Logan about the picture he took.

Logan explained, to which Mila said how Kieth Koresh is a hypocrite.

Logan said how Kieth Koresh caught him taking the picture and confronted him.

Mila became nervous and Logan asked if he did wrong.

Mila said he didn’t do wrong but now Kieth Koresh will look for more reasons to expel her.

Mila went on to say how her parents will take her car from her if she gets expelled.

Logan says how he will buy a car for her and she could post those pictures on her webpage if that happens.

Mila once again remarks about the temptations.

Logan replies that he feels the same way but doesn’t ever want to lose her.

They finished eating and cleared the table, placing the dishes in the dishwasher.

They then sat on the living room sofa together.

Logan said how he read all of Mila’s stories and they were the most beautiful stories he ever read.

Mila reminded Logan how he is the inspiration for them. and if he thinks they are beautiful then she accomplished exactly what she wanted.

Logan tells Mila to pursue a career in writing and goes on to say how he will pay her way, so she can focus on being creative.

Mila asked Logan if he would do that for her.

Logan replies that he would since they are getting married, but said not to glamorize fornication or any other sins in her writing anymore.

Mila agreed.

Logan asked her what does she want to do.

Mila suggested watching a movie.

Logan said he doesn’t have cable or DVDs so Mila said they could watch YouTube.

Logan asks if she would want to watch Pastor Michael Clarkson and explains that he is the preacher who led him to Christ back in Eastern Europe.

Mila agrees.

Logan then says how he will show Pastor Michael’s sermons exposing the roman catholic church and how it will explain why people like Kieth Koresh are the way they are.

Mila agrees to watch it.

The total length of the videos was two hours so, at their conclusion, Logan and Mila walked to the bedroom and fell asleep in each others’ arms.

On Sunday, February 7, 2010, Logan and Mila woke to the beeping of Logan’s watch alarm.

They shared a soft, sweet kiss, then each visited the bathroom, one after the other.

Logan then made some oatmeal and coffee for himself and Mila.

Mila walked into the kitchen and suggested that they should be in church because it is Sunday, but not a catholic mass.

Logan replied how he would love to take her to church but it would have to be one where word of them still being together would not get back to Kieth Koresh.

He began describing all of the good churches that are in the area and finally decides to attend one located a few miles to the northeast of them, known as Second Chances Outreach.

Mila said how she will go to her mom’s house and get a change of clothing.

Logan told her to keep him posted and they exchanged those three words.

Mila stepped out and walked to her car with a heightened situational awareness. When she confirmed that no suspicious persons were nearby, she left and drove to her mom’s house, parked in the driveway, and unlocked the door.

Mila’s mother shouted, “Who is there?” in an angry drunken stupor.

Mila replied, “It’s just me, mom.”

Her mom asked her where had she been.

Mila replied how she has a boyfriend now and spent the past two nights at his condominium.

Her mom then confronted her about the school calling her about kissing him in public whilst wearing her uniform.

Mila fully admitted to what she was accused of, then said how that may be wrong to a heartless person like Kieth Koresh, but she had been in love with her boyfriend since eighth grade. She goes on to say how a football player can lift a girl’s skirt in the middle of the school hallway and nothing happens to him, but she shares a consensual kiss from the sweetest guy ever and not even on school property, yet almost gets expelled.

Her mother asks why hasn’t heard about the boyfriend before.

Mila explained how for years it was only a fantasy that they would be together. She went on to say that he is four years her senior and couldn’t legally date him. But now she is eighteen and saw him in the public library last Thursday and confessed my feelings for him and he miraculously felt the same way and she couldn’t help but kiss him.

Mila’s mom said how he might just be trying to get in her panties.

Mila replied how she brought him home last Thursday while she was passed out on the couch. She went on to say how she threw herself at Logan but he declined because he is a Christian and she is one now as well, but they do [innocently] snuggle together every night since. Mila went on to show the engagement ring to her mom.

Her mom admits that Logan seems like someone wonderful.

Mila tells her mom that she needs to let him know that she safely arrived and how she was just coming to get a change of clothes for church.

She texted Logan how she arrived safely and is talking to her mom. Logan replied that he’s glad she’s safe. Mila then texted that she’ll get her clothes and come back in a little bit. They then texted those three little words to each other.

Mila selected her clothes, then came back downstairs and saw her mom taking a sip of wine. She confronted her mom that it was Seven on a Sunday morning and already she is drinking.

Her mom accused her of judging.

Mila said how the booze and the pills were a factor in the divorce.

Mila’s mom said how it was much deeper than that she turned to prescription pills and later wine as well because her husband never paid any attention to her. She told Mila that her boyfriend must be a hard worker if he can afford a ring like that but not to let him put his work before her. She then asks Mila what is his name.

Mila replies, “Logan Baines.”

Mila’s mom comments how that is a storybook name and asks what is his job.

Mila replies that he is a tractor mechanic.

Mila’s mom figures that Logan is twenty-two, the age she was when she married her ex-husband.

Mila asked when did it start getting rocky.

Her mom replied when Mila was starting high school.

Mila replied how he was under pressure because of him being the single breadwinner and having all those expenses, including her thyroid treatment. Mila went on to say that even at her heaviest in eighth grade, Logan would smile at her every time he saw her and he would blush and she thought he was so cute. Mila then told her mom how after she lost the weight many boys paid attention to her but none of them measured up to Logan.

Mila’s mom says she wants to meet Logan and make sure he is as wonderful as she says he is.

Mila says maybe after church today.

Mila then instructed her mom not to tell anyone that she and Logan are still together because Kieth Koresh’s terms for her to stay enrolled at school was that she break up with Logan. But instead of breaking up, she keeps it covert.

Mila’s mom stated how Kieth Koresh is a tyrant and a hypocrite and her lips are buttoned.

Mila then headed back to Logan and texted him.

When Logan stepped out of the shower, he replied for her to be careful, then shaved.

A minute later she knocked on the door and Logan let her in.

Mila commented how Logan smelled sexy, to which he replied it’s his Aqua Velva.

Mila told Logan how her mom wants to meet him after church and Logan said he would be honored.

Mila begs him not to get the wrong idea, to which Logan says he loves her and no family member of hers would change that.

Mila replies that she loves him too, then goes shower.

Logan waited and listened to the radio, but then decided to read his Bible.

He chose the chapter of Romans so he could prepare himself material to give to Mila since she was a new convert.

When he came across the 13th Chapter, he felt convicted, because of his desires to thwart Kieth Koresh’s authority, even though he could discern the wickedness of the roman catholic church. Logan prayed and was reminded how God will fight his battles as per Exodus 14:14. Therefore Logan decided not to blast that picture of Kieth Koresh purchasing alcohol online.

Moments later, Mila stepped out of the bathroom and told Logan she was ready.

She asked if they should take her car or his truck.

Logan replied that they should take his truck and for her to wear her scarf and sunglasses.

With that Logan grabbed his keys and EDC bag, then they stepped into his truck and headed for church.

Upon arrival, they were greeted by an usher named Marley Broderick. He instructed them to find a seat and that they have a gift bag for them after the service.

The pastor came on stage and introduced himself as Oakley Pechette and instructed the congregation that if anyone needs prayer or just someone to talk to, to see him after the service.

The praise and worship subsequently began.

After the song service and before the message, a lady walked up to Mila, identifying herself as Sister Tori, Brother Marley’s wife, and asked to have a word with her.

Mila agreed.

Sister Tori escorted Mila to the back room and asked her to take off her sunglasses.

She then apologized, saying she wanted to make sure the young man she’s with isn’t abusing her.

Mila explained how it’s nothing like that, explained about not being allowed to be with her boyfriend because of her catholic school president.

She then asked Mila if her boyfriend pressures her for sex, to which she said how she was the one that pressures him, but he is afraid God would punish them for fornication by splitting them up.

Sister Tori asked Mila if she was a Christian, to which she replied, her boyfriend led her to Christ yesterday and it was her idea to start coming here.

Sister Tori then asked Mila where was her boyfriend going to church before.

Mila replied how he just got back Stateside last Christmas but was doing mission work in Eastern Europe.

Sister Tori finally asked Mila how long has she known him, to which Mila replied for four years but they only became a couple recently and she told the story of how they were reunited and how when she was younger and overweight he was still very sweet to her.

Sister Tori then said how it seems like Mila has a wonderful boyfriend and she seems like a sweet young lady and how they would be happy if she and Logan joined. Sister Tori then eventually said how Mila and Logan will eventually have to get married. since they are living together.

Mila showed Sister Tori the ring.

To which Sister Tori said Mila does have a good man.

Mila finally said how she is so thankful to God for giving him to her, even though she wasn’t yet a Christian and God used him to lead her to Christ.

Sister Tori said that is a powerful testimony and for her to write it down and share it, then told her to go sit with her boyfriend.

They subsequently exchanged phone numbers.

Logan was intently listening when Mila walked back to him as Pastor Oakley was preaching on submitting to and praying for those in authority, which confirmed what he saw earlier that day in the Bible.

Mila listened as well and then felt distressed thinking that she isn’t being submissive to authority by covertly being in a relationship with Logan Baines.

She confessed these mental troubles to Logan, who suggested they talk to Pastor Oakley.

Pastor Oakley was shaking hands with everyone after the service.

Logan asked if they could talk to him.

Pastor Oakley replied, “Absolutely. Come to my office.”

After they were seated in the office, Mila opened up on how she had just become a Christian and it was the young man right here (Logan) who led her to Christ the day before. She went on to say how she feels very troubled about submitting to those in authority over her, explaining that her catholic school president is demanding that she and Logan break up as a punishment for kissing him in public while in uniform. She then says that she only pretended to break up with Logan, because she wanted to be with him for the past four years but couldn’t until she turned eighteen.

Pastor Oakley then looked at Logan and asked how he felt.

Logan straight up replied that he loves her and doesn’t ever want to lose her. He went on to say how the school president is obsessed with control and that the roman catholic church, in general, gets off on human suffering. Logan then stated that he’s convinced on how the 17th Chapter of Revelation is indeed describing the roman catholic church. Logan finally said that he had feelings for Mila for the past four years but couldn’t legally date her until recently. He backed up that statement by saying that he did missionary work in Eastern Europe for the past year and a half and many foreign women tried to catch his eyes, but he only ever wanted the young lady seated next to him (Mila.) Finally, Logan stated that when they met again in the public library and Mila told him her feelings, he was overjoyed, because his feelings are mutual, he has never known any woman or girl and wants no other woman or girl, and that he is willing to wait for marriage because he is frankly scared that God would cause them to split up as a punishment for fornication. He concluded that he loves Mila and wants her by his side for life.

Mila then asked in distress if she had to break up with Logan.

Pastor Oakley pointed out to Mila how Logan led her to Christ. He loves her. He is committed to her to the point of marriage. They have had feelings for the past four years. And neither of them wanted anyone else. He told them that he thinks God put them together for a reason and He will bless the relationship. Pastor Oakley also contended with the possibility of Revelation 17 describing the roman catholic church because there are many things in The Word that they are in direct violation of. He also stated his doubts about their school president being of God. Pastor Oakley paused and then said for Mila and Logan not to go out in public together and don’t tell anyone except for family and church members that they are still a couple. He instructed Mila to just go to school, keep her head low and stay quiet. He asked Mila when is her graduation.

Mila replied in May.

Pastor Oakley then explained that they only have to do this for a few months and how they wanted to be together for a long time but just be patient and use this time to grow together in The Lord.

Mila asked if she could stay with Logan because her dad is living with a younger woman and her mom is constantly drunk, but Logan owns a condominium and lives quietly.

Pastor Oakley says that Biblically it is not all right, but we are all guilty sinners in a fallen world and that is why Jesus went to the Cross. But given the situation, it would be better to be with Logan than around drunkenness and/or adultery. He then insisted to forego any sexual relations until they are married and that it will require much praying, reading The Word, listening for God’s voice, and quickly recognizing escape routes from the temptations that will arise. He finally said to make sure that no one from the school can find out that they are living together, to keep as low a profile as possible, and stay off the RADAR.

Logan and Mila thanked Pastor Oakley and he invited them to join the church to which Logan and Mila nodded in agreement.

He then asked if Logana and Mila set a wedding date.

Mila explained it would have to be sometime after graduation.

Pastor Oakley suggested not to wait too long, because of their cohabitation and mutual commitment.

Logan asked Pastor Oakley if he would perform the ceremony.

Pastor Oakley replied that he would be honored, but they need to continue coming to church.

Mila said she loves it here and it is so much better than a catholic mass.

Pastor Oakley then asked Logan for his thoughts.

Logan replied that he’s been back Stateside since Christmas and has been meaning to find a home church but got sidetracked securing employment, buying a condominium, and working but he loves this church as well. Logan went on to say that it is amazing how, while he was waiting for Mila to get ready he was reading from the same passage in Romans that was preached today and was heavily convicted, because of his revenge plots on Kieth Koresh, but God reminded him of Exodus 14:14 how He will fight his battles.

Pastor Oakley then asked Logan how he got saved?

Logan told the story of how he went on a missions trip as a newly graduated diesel power equipment technician, only to gain experience and have something impressive on his resume`, but was invited to a Bible study on what would have been Ash Wednesday 2009. A pastor by the name of Michael Clarkson presented an expose` on the roman catholic church and Logan believed it. He then realized that he needed to get it right with God, so after the class, he met privately with the pastor-teacher was led to Christ, and surrendered that very moment. Several catholic priests had Pastor Clarkson banished from missionary work shortly afterward, but he still watches his videos on YouTube all the time.

Pastor Oakley then stated how he will look up Pastor Michael Clarkson, then they exchanged names and contact information.

Finally, Pastor Oakley prayed over them, especially for their protection, from spiritual wickedness and carnal attacks from those in high places but also for them to live quietly and peaceably among all, for them to marry as soon as able, for them to have many years together to serve God and for them to be unequivocally faithful to each other and to treat each other with patience, kindness, reverence, and respect.

Logan thanked Pastor Oakley and commented that it was a powerful prayer.

Mila thanked him as well and interjected that it was so much better than she ever heard a [catholic] priest pray.

Pastor Oakley stated that it was his pleasure and asked what their plans were for later that day.

Mila stated how they are Logan is going to meet her mom and she hopes and prays for her approval.

Pastor Oakley asked what about Mila’s dad.

Mila replied that Logan met him already, but her dad doesn’t realize who Logan is to her.

Logan added that he hopes and prays both of her parents approve of him

Pastor Oakley advised Logan to allow his light of Christ to shine to them and show that he loves and respects Mila and there shouldn’t be an issue. He then said that it was nice meeting them and he hopes they can come back Wednesday Evening.

Assuredly Mila and Logan stated that they would be there.

Pastor Oakley said how that was wonderful and now he has to lock up and they have a family to visit and thanked them for coming as he walked them out of the church.

Logan then drove Mila to her mom’s house, thus beginning an unwritten gap in this story. It will require a tremendous amount of emotional energy to get this part into some text.

There is then a two-month and a couple-week gap until the next piece, where Logan meets Mila’s grandparents.

On Sunday, April 25, 2010, Mila and Logan were leaving after their church service. Mila was driving Logn to meet her maternal grandparents.

Lightning flared, thunder rolled and a cold rain began to fall.

Mila rolled up her windows and stated to Logan how she hopes her grandparents like him and she is a little nervous.

Logan replied how she will make it known how much he loves her.

Mila smiled and they began to hold hands.

Halfway to their destination, Logan’s phone alerted them to a Severe Thunderstorm Warning and a Tornado Watch.

Logan told Mila to turn on her car radio and tune in the news station.

A meteorologist stated how a Severe Thunderstorm had formed and for listeners to get to safety because a tornado could form at any time.

They approached an overpass, to which Mila asked if they should park there until the weather passes.

Logan advises her not to because a tornado’s winds grow stronger in the columns and debris will hit harder.

Mila asked Logan where should they go and Logan replied to just get to her grandparents’ house as quickly as possible.

Logan then leads them in prayer, petitioning for God to protect them and everyone else from the dangerous weather and to bless their engagement, bless their relationship and allow them to marry. He finally asked God to protect them from their enemies and to be with them as they travel to Mila’s grandparents.

Mila said to Logan that she trusts him. Logan tells her she should trust God more. Mila then replies that she certainly does.

They pulled into the driveway just as the rains increeased.

Mila and Logan walked into the door and proudly introduced Logan Baines to her grandparents.

A bolt of powerful lightning struck and knocked off the current. Logan pulled a Mini Maglite from his pocket and said that ever since he worked in Eastern Europe he carried a flashlight on him.

Mila’s Paw Paw said, “Very smart, young man!”

Logan went to turn his Mini Maglite on but the bulb flashed and burned out.

Mila’s Paw Paw interjected asking why young people buy that trash., then retrieved a vintage 6 Volt lantern (quite possibly an Eveready Commander) from his utility closet and illuminated the room.

Logan subsequently dismantled his flashlight and removed a spare bulb from the tail cap and installed it into the head socket. Logan then turned his Mini Maglite on and Mila’s Paw Paw said how he stands corrected.

Mila then pulled her Mini Maglite out of her purse and said how Logan bought one for her as well, then turned it on. Her engagement ring sparkled by the light of the three flashlights.

Mila’s Maw Maw stated that her ring was pretty and wanted to know if Logan bought it for her.

Mila replied that he sure did and that is actually why they are visiting and went on to say how they have been engaged since February 5th and she should have told everyone much sooner.

Mila’s Maw Maw asked if she was sure she wanted to get married and how long has she known Logan.

Mila replied that it has been four years and love at first sight and that she was an eighth grader and he was senior. Logan graduated, became a tractor mechanic and worked in Eastern Europe but never forgot her. She then explained how they met by chance in the library last February and have been together ever since.

Mila’s Paw Paw remarked to Logan, “So you’re a tractor mechanic?”

Logan replied, “Yes, sir!” with a wide grin.

Her Paw Paw said that now he has someone who can always fix his old tractor. To which his wife gave him a dirty look.

Logan said that he would be very happy to do so and that he would like to see his old tractor.

Milas’s Paw Paw commented how it was made in Eastern Europe, maybe where he was working.

Mila’s Maw Maw then asked, “In all seriousness; why haven’t you told us about your engagement sooner?”

Mila replied that they have to keep it covert and went on to say the story of how they kissed in public while wearing her school uniform and word got back to Kieth Koresh who threatened to expel her if she didn’t break up with Logan and instead of breaking up, they keep it covert.

Mila’s Paw Paw then told his wife how he doesn’t think they need to make any more contributions to Mila’s school.

She answered him that he’s right but Mila shouldn’t have been kissing Logan in public either, then asked if they set a date.

Mila said that it will be definitely after graduation and that she graduates on May 23 and she hopes they are coming.

Her Maw Maw said of course they will come and her Paw Paw said he will make it their business to be there.

The power came back on and Mila’s Paw Paw said now he can cook them dinner (which means lunch to country folk) and how they are both welcome to stay.

Logan and Mila nodded in agreement.

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Synopsis to “Dystopian Affection”

On the morning of February 9, 2003, I was dreaming a dream that would have a tremendous impact on my life.

I believe it was that dream that was one of the catalysts which caused me to decide to take up writing.

The dream took place in the Greater New Orleans area and it appeared to be some time in the dystopian future.

I think I can credit that dream to two factors:

  1. I had frequented the New Orleans area more than usual.
  2. The high school I was attending assigned a great deal of dystopian fiction for us to read. (Not complaining at all.)

I had just made sixteen at the time and in the dream, I was with an uknown teenaged girl, who had become my lover.

We were trying to run away, likely to get out of this dystopian civilization and be more free.

However, drugs were planted on us (and the penalty for drug posession was death and apparently without due process.)

We were subsequently arrested and held in seperate cells, awaiting execution.

I was miraculously able to summon superhuman strength and broke the handcuffs off of me and off of my lover.

The building then collapsed and we escaped.

I borrowed a line from the song, “The Space Between” by Dave Matthews and told my lover, “take my hand, cause we’re walking out of here!”

A female cop then performs our wedding on a street corner, then we begin walking out of the city.

Suddenly my lover collapses in my arms.

She is dead.

I am able to get in contact with her family.

They come in a Blue, single cab 2001 Chevrolet Silverado and lay her body in the bed of it.

I ride with her but end up taking my life and waking up.

Over eight years later, I had the idea to turn this dream into a story, which this piece will be a synopsis thereof.

The story begins on a Monday Morning with eighteen year old Josiah Adler, playing on the school library computers before class begins. He is playing video games until the librarian demands that he do something more productive. He notices another student, eighteen year old Kaela Blum, who suggests that they read together. They are also mutually crushing on each other. She presents to him the works of a blogger who was a New Orleans resident prior to the Second Civil War. To avoid military service, he fled the city and wound up on the West Coast. His blog is targeted to the citizens of Nazi Orleans (which is one of the fragmented American City-States that were formed at the conclusion of the Second Civil War) and consists of current Orleans Parish and Jefferson Parish between the Mississippi River and Lake Ponchitrain. As its name suggests, it is controlled by a Neo Nazi styled government. This blogger consistently condemns the practices of this new government and writes about bygone times. As they read the bloggers work, Josiah asks Kaela to imagine if they lived in those bygone times and fell in love. Kaela replied she could but also she could even see it happening in the present, to which she subsequently kisses him. They decide to meet together again at lunch time. The morning bell rings and they share a hug.

Josiah’s first class is communications and it teaches how industrial workers communicate on a system known as Tuff Talk, civillians use Pocket Packet and Screen Link, and government workers use Tac Talk. The teachers gave the details but Josiah was more interested in what he and Kaela would do at lunch. Then there was math, then science and then citizenship class and the lesson of the day was obeying the NOPD blindly. It went on to teach how marriages are arranged by a supercomputer known as the LoveMatc1933. Josiah became depressed because he knew that he couldn’t marry Kaela because of this. The next class was English, which he and Kaela had together. They got in trouble for talking and were forced to reenact the first kiss scene from Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet and share a kiss at the conclusion. The whole class applauds, but the teacher pops them in the mouth, then lectures the class that falling in love is detrimental to society. Kaela rebuffs, commenting that love is wonderful and should be expressed by everyone. The teacher threatens Kaela that she will call the S. R. O. on her if she questions her or the City doctrines again. Part of that scene was inspired by The Twilight Saga by Stephanie Meyer, I won’t lie.

Then comes the lunch period and Kaela and Josiah find a secluded area of the campus to spend the period. Kaela cradles Josiah’s head in her lap and they begin to talk.

She asks Josiah where he works during the weekends, to which he replies that he pushes shopping carts for a grocer on Stealth Bomber Highway. She points out that the grocer used to be known as Schwegmann’s and Stealth Bomber Highway was formerly known as Airline Highway. She goes on to explain how she works as a kitchen aid at a teaching hospital and that in bygone times anyone could get medical attention regardless of ability to pay.

He then tells her what he learned about the supercomputer in citizenship class and how he has feelings for her.

She tells him that she feels the same way and that since they feel that way they can defect from the city and other refugees will come to their assistance.

She goes on to say how there is a railroad interlocking tower across the river and out of the city’s jurisdiction where they can stay until a refugee train takes them to the West Coast.

Josiah expresses his opinion about being caught to which Kaela replies it is better to die in freedom than to live in oppression.

She eventually convinces him to run away with her, to which they begin to make plans.

The bell rang and the rest of the day dragged on.

When the bell rang, Josiah asked Kaela if he could walk her home and meet her family.

She happily agrees and goes on to say that her parents and sister are also followers of the blogger.

They walk to her home.

Kaela’s older sister Casey greets them and briefly grills Josiah, but then realizes that he is of pure intentions, then explains that she has to go to work.

Kaela asks her to drive them across the river on Saturday night, so they can do whatever they please.

Casey grills Josiah further, but agrees to bring them.

Kaela’s parents Mark and Katherine Blum soon arrive home and she introduces them to Josiah.

They go on to say how they disagree with the city government’s practices, but that he hacked the LoveMatic1933 in order for it to match them together.

They then prepare dinner as Josiah and Kaela do their homework and spend time late into the night until Josiah realizes his mom might be worried. He messages her through the Pocket Packet and tells her he is all right and about to come home.

When he arrives home, his mom is working and he eats a quick meal, showers then goes to bed.

The next day in citizenship class the teacher is instructing the students on how a free press hindered the operations of the city, so it was done away with. A fellow student was then struck for not paying attention.

Then came English and the teacher was explaining how Juliet ought to have married Paris as her family commanded and how nowadays weddings are carried out much more efficiently.

At lunch Kaela and Josiah go to their secluded location and she reveals to him that she is sick but her parents insurance won’t cover the treatments because it is a pre-existing condition. She goes on to say that there are cysts on her ovaries and they keep growing and any kind of physical trauma can cause her to hemorrhage. She goes on to say that she can be treated for free on the West Coast, to which Josiah further fomented his commitment to running away with her. They spend the rest of the lunch period holding each other in a semi peaceful silence as those thoughts raced through Josiah’s mind.

They headed back to class after the bell rang. The rest of the day, Josiah was riddled with anxiety of the health and welfare of Kaela.

They met in the hallway after the dismissal bell and shared to kiss to which their English teacher slapped them.

Kaela told Josiah to message her on the Screen Link later in the night.

Josiah went home and completed his homework.

He then messaged Kaela.

She messaged that she was sorry she got them slapped but not sorry for kissing him and went on to say that there are no consequences to public displays of affection on the West Coast.

They then began to vide chat.

Josiah was wearing a tee shirt and school pants. Kaela was wearing an oversized tee shirt and panty.

Josiah is aroused, but then overcome with anxiety and Kaela asks him about it because she can see the expression on his face.

Josiah says how he is worried about her sickness and doesn’t want her to die.

Kaela replies that if she must die she wants it to be in his arms.

Josiah said how he couldn’t go on without her.

They on on to plan their escape from the city.

Their English teacher who could not see their messages but still knew they were communicating reprimanded them.

Josiah messaged the teacher and said that Kaela might be dying, to which the teacher replied how she better do it quicker so they don’t have to spend money to euthanize her.

Josiah screen shot those messages, then went to sleep.

The next day in citizenship class, the teacher was explaining how the criminal justice procedures of the past were inefficient and how those former civil liberties were wasteful. Rights to not being detained indefinitely, bail and to not be tortured used to exist, but now they don’t. Josiah became immensly angry at how broken this system truly was.

He was still angry come English class and put his head down in protest. The teacher lashed him with a strap.

Kaela cried for her not to hurt him.

The teacher called the S. R. O. over the Tac Talk.

In a short spell he stormed into the room, began yelling at Josiah and Kaela, then popped them in the mouth. He raised his hat to the teacher to which she saluted him.

At lunch Josiah and Kaela went to their secluded area and he begged her to stay off of everyone’s RADAR so she doesn’t incur injury. Reluctantly, Kaela agreed.

Kaela then motioned Josiah to lay in her lap to which he, happily did.

Seconds later she flipped her skirt over his head and held him under their for about a minute saying it is a preview of Saturday night.

She then demanded a kiss to which they became lost in the moment of virginal foreplay until the bell rang.

That evening they messaged each other lovingly not realizing that the NOPD was monitoring their communications.

The next day in citizenship class, the teacher was explaining how disability and free health care for the disabled and low income were wasteful ideas and now anyone declared disabled is put to death. Josiah was even more angry at learning this and but kept his cool knowing he would soon be out of the sewerage hole known as Nazi Orleans.

In English, they were assigned to write an essay on why falling in love is troublesome and obsolete.

Kaela messaged Josiah and said how they should write the opposite instead, since they will be leaving the city anyway.

At lunch period, they cuddled in the grass. Kaela told Josiah to come to her house that evening and they will write their essays.

At the end of the day, they went to Kaela’s home and wrote that pure love brings happiness and how happy workers are more productive. They continued that a worker who loves his or her spouse will want to be a good provider, therefore a productive worker. Their final point was that a couple in love will raise children in an ideal environment and that those children will be productive workers instead of troubled citizens. Finally they said that love is not obsolete and the doctrines of the fascist hell hole of Nazi Orleans are dead wrong.

It was now late in the evening, so Josiah kissed Kaela good night and tucked her in bed then went home.

The next morning Kaela messaged Josiah and asked if he wanted to watch her get ready.

Josiah happily agreed.

They began to video chat and Kaela lifted her nightgown revealing her panty. She then further lifted it and showed him her breasts, then dressed in on camera for him.

When they arrived at school, they went to the secluded location.

Kaela lay on top of Josiah then she sat on his chest to which he could clearly see up her skirt. He put his arms around her and pulled her closer to him, until she was sitting on his face and all went dark. They stayed in that position until the morning bell rang.

In citizenship class the teacher was ranting and raving how Nazi Orleans is the highest power. The students were given an allegiance card to sign over the weekened. Some signed it right away. Josiah planned to burn his. The teacher then allowed the remainder of the period to be free, to which Josiah went to sleep.

In English the teacher began to rant and rave about the blogger and how he is actually one of her former students. She went on to say that he is a coward and a terrorist, who helps traitors and cowards. Finally she said anyone caught reading his work will be fined and delayed in graduation.

After the last class of the day, Josiah and Kaela went to her family’s house.

Her sister Casey was getting ready for work, to which Kaela reminded her to bring them across the river Saturday evening.

She basically asks if they are defecting to which they admit they are.

Josiah then says he wants to make sure Kaela gets medical attention and if she dies he wants to die as well.

Casey then goes to work, agreeing to bring them.

Josiah and Kaela are about to deflower each other when Kaela’s parents arrive.

They stay up talking until Josiah realizes he needs to go home and pack.

The next morning, Josiah packs a bag then places it in his work assigned locker. He then diligently pushes shopping carts until his shift is over.

He cashes his paycheck and clocks out.

Casey pulls up with Kaela in a blue pickup truck, then drives them across the River without incident, then goes home.

They arrive in the old Avondale railroad yard and are given supplies for their journey by other defectors.

Subsequently, they go into the interlocking tower and fall asleep together.

At nightfall they become intimate and Josiah is startled by the blood, to which Kaela reassures him that it was normal.

After much lovemaking, they fall asleep in a sea of blankets.

On Sunday morning they woke up and secured their belongings preparing to board the train.

There was a knock at the door and the knocker claimed to be the train conductor.

No sooner was the door opened, the NOPD SWAT team headed by the S. R. O. came in and extradicted them.

They had also massacred all of the other defectors seeking refuge in the train yard.

Kaela and Josiah are bound, placed in a wagon and taken back to the city.

Kaela said how the city might take away their freedom but cannot take their love away.

Josiah replied how the city may destroy their bodies but cannot destroy what is between them.

They are housed in seperate cells of the police station.

Their English teacher says how she read their essays and will see to it that they are charged with sedition.

The S. R. O. begins to interrogate Kaela and hooks up a stun gun to her genitals when she doesn’t comply.

After she is incapacitated he attempts to rape her, but Josiah yells that he falsely has his gun and will shoot.

A female cop enters, catching the S. R. O. in the act and shoots him dead.

She then unbinds Josiah and Kaela and explains that she read their essays and they opened her eyes and how she is quitting the force.

Kaela asks her to perform their marriage ceremony as her final duty to which she agrees.

Their marriage is performed on a street corner where a church was formerly located.

She then began to walk Josiah and Kaela out of the city until Kaela began bleeding profusely and collapsed.

The female officer checks Kaela for a pulse and announces that she is dead and they need to notify her family.

Josiah takes his broken Pocket Packet and removes the memory card, to which the female officer places in her Tac Talk device.

Casey comes in her truck and Kaela’s body is laid in the bed. Josiah lays next to her body.

The next day a memorial is held for Kaela.

At some point later, Josiah writes the whole account saves it onto memory cards places them on Kaela’s grave, then blows his brains out with a revolver, concluding the story…

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