Character Guide-An Online Romance

Ezra Lee Tousaint-Main Character aged 37.

Sadie Claire MacBride-Other Main Character redneck SSBBW aged 31.

Milo James MacBride-Sadie’s Dad deceased.

Georgia Faye Dalton MacBride-Sadie’s Mom aged 53.

Reverend Murray Paul Stevens-Sadie’s Pastor and retired firefighter aged 75.

Mrs. Linda Anne Kempf Stevens-Pastor Murray’s wife aged 71.

Dally James MacBride-Sadie’s Paternal Uncle aged 65.

Sophia Natayla “Sophie” Chernenkov MacBride-Sadie’s Paternal Aunt by Marriage aged 57.

Alyssa Jean MacBride-Sadie’s pregnant cousin and always in competition with her aged 29.

Nicky Joe Derringer-Alyssa’s Boyfriend and baby Dad constantly in trouble with the law but well connected aged 26.

James Henry MacBride-Sadie’s Paternal Grandpa aged 87.

Matilda Jane Alden MacBride-Sadie’s Paternal Grandma also was an SSBBW deceased.

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The Next Day-An Online Romance

It was Noon when Ezra’s phone rang.

He saw Sadie’s information on the screen and hurriedly answered, “Hello.”

“Hey, you!” Sadie replied.

“Oh, it’s so nice to hear your voice again.”

“You’re so sweet!”

“Thanks. That means a lot coming from you.”

“Well, I got a somewhat good report from my doctors. They want me to continue with my high blood pressure treatments as usual. It hasn’t gotten better but it hasn’t gotten worse either.”

“Praise God! You know, I want you to live because I want you by my side forever! I’m well aware of how it was your Dad’s high blood pressure that killed him.”

“His Mom as well.”

“Then, please, Sadie, you need to be careful! I never want to lose you!”

“Just pray for me then, but as far as I can see you never will lose me!”

“Now my Mom has just pulled up into the Dairy Queen parking lot and we’re going eat, but I will call you as soon as I am home and we can spend some more time together if you wish.”

“Sure that would be wonderful. Y’all just be careful everywhere y’all go.”

“We will. What are you going to eat for lunch?”

“Some seared chicken breasts and some steamed carrots along with some steamed green beans. I made them all for dinner last night.”

“I didn’t know you could cook.”

“Well, I have been living alone for the better part of my adult life and now being diabetic, I have to prepare healthy meals for myself.”

“I should eat healthy like that more often, but the food stamps only go so far.”

“I understand totally.”

“Now we’re about to order, so I will call you later.”

“Okay.”

“All right, bye Ezra.”

“Bye Sadie.”

Ezra walked into his kitchen and turned his countertop scanner on. Seconds later he intercepted a notice to mariners from the Coast Guard. He then took out the meat and vegetables from his refrigerator then warmed them up in his microwave oven.

After his meal was ready, he placed it on the table then said grace and ate, while listening to his scanner.

In the meantime, Sadie and her Mom each ordered a 1/3 Pound Cheeseburger and a Banana Shake. They as well took their food to a table said grace and then ate.

“Do you think Ezra will be different from the others?” Sadie’s Mother asked her.

“I sure hope so. He knows how much I weigh and he still wants me. And he just got finished telling me how he wants me by his side forever,” Sadie replied.

Her Mother smiled slightly, then said, “I hope he is telling the truth. I don’t like seeing you with a broken heart all the time.”

“He does seem genuine.”

“Well, you know Pastor Murray prays for you as do I.”

“Ezra said how he wants to meet me during Thanksgiving week.”

“Well, that will give y’all some more time to talk.”

“Well, if he is as sweet as he is now, I can’t wait to meet him.”

“Does he work?”

“No, he gets disability.”

“Is he okay?”

“Yes. He is schizophrenic and diabetic, but both are well under control.”

“Speaking of that, I know we always eat out after your doctor’s appointments, but you too could become diabetic if you’re not careful. Then you would have to battle your blood sugar in addition to your blood pressure. And you will gain more weight if you and Ezra get into a more stable relationship.”

“I know. I know. I’m just glad that Ezra told me how he likes big women.”

“Well, I know you must be happy but don’t use that as an excuse to not lose weight.”

“He did say how he wants me to live and if I have to lose weight to live longer, I think he would understand.”

“Sounds like you’re falling for him.”

“I am, most definitely.”

“How old is he?”

“Thirty-seven.”

“So he’s six years older than you?”

“Yes, is that all right?”

“It’s fine. Your Daddy was eight years older than me and you know how much we loved each other.”

“Yes, Daddy was amazing and taken so soon.”

“All the more reason for you to pay attention to your health very carefully.” She paused, then said, “Speaking of that, we need to pick up your medications so, finish eating.”

Sadie nodded then finished off her cheeseburger than gulped down her banana shake.

They then cleared the table and left.

Sadie’s Mother drove through the drive up at the local Walgreen’s. Sadie then gave her information and paid with her debit card then was handed a three month supply of blood pressure medication.

They then drove home.

Sadie’s mother unlocked the door to their trailer and Sadie went walk to her room to call Ezra.

He had just finished washing the dishes when his phone rang.

“Hey, baby.” He answered.

“Hey.”

“Are you back home?”

“Yes. I am relaxing in my room.”

“Thank God you’ve made it home safely!”

“My Mom says I should watch my weight because I could also get diabetes.”

“If you want, I could share some healthy recipes with you.”

“If I lost weight, would you still want me, though? I mean I know how much you like big girls.”

“Of course I would still want you. Even if you did lose some weight there’s a part of you that I hope will always be big!”

“Well, my breasts and my butt will get smaller if I lose weight.”

“I was talking about your heart though!”

“You’re sweet!”

“I know I came on to you because you’re a big lady, but if you’re as wonderful as I think you are, I could want you in any size. Besides, as I said before, I want you to live!”

“You’re making my eyes wet!”

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be, you did nothing wrong. It’s just no one has ever been so sweet to me. I’ll confess that you’re making another part of me wet as well, but it would be a sin to describe which part!”

“Have you ever been with a man like that before?”

“I was molested when I was six, but other than that, no.” She paused then asked, “What about you?”

“When I was in my twenties, I was in a relationship with a woman who treated me terribly, yet always wanted to have sex. She deflowered me. But as weird as this sounds, I didn’t want to lay with her anymore because she treated me so badly, so she cheated on me and I left her in my very early thirties. Then I had a very innocent relationship with a young lady, but it didn’t work out.”

“As cute and sweet as you are, I’m surprised that you’ve only been with one other in that way.”

“I’m just so sorry you were molested. I wish there was a way I could take that pain from you. What happened to the guy that hurt you?”

“My Daddy shot him, leaving him a paraplegic. He’s now in a prison hospice for the rest of his life.”

“I guess he got his just desserts, then.”

“But, am I pure enough for you, now that you know this?”

“Of course you are! And anyway, you could say that my past is more extensive than yours. All in all, you’re a wonderful and beautiful young lady of whom I am tremendously honored to call mine!”

“You make me very happy and I admit I am falling for you!”

“I feel the same way. I just cannot believe that the young lady of my dreams wants me!”

“Well, it’s because you’re so sweet!”

“Thank you.” Ezra paused, then continued, “Does any of your family know about me?”

“My Mom does.”

“What does she think?”

“She’s slightly leery, but only because so many others have rejected me.”

“Well if there’s a way I can relieve that anxiety of hers, name it.”

“Just keep talking to me and keep being sweet to me.”

“Rest assured, I will.”

“Now, I have to go potty real badly, but call me later this evening so we can talk some more.”

“What time?”

“Say around Eight P.M.”

“All right, I sure will.”

“Okay bye.”

“Bye.”

Sadie went to relieve herself in the bathroom.

After she was done, she went back to her room and took a nap.

Meanwhile, Ezra drove to New Orleans and spent the rest of the day watching marine traffic.

He took several pictures of the boats, ships, and barges passing on the Mississippi River and sent them to Sadie.

She had replied how they looked so neat, though she was half asleep.

At 6:00 PM, Ezra drove back to his apartment and checked his blood sugar. It was slightly low, so he drank a can of Wild Cherry Pepsi, then prepared a dinner of a fried pork chop, steamed yellow squash, and steamed broccoli florets.

Likewise, Sadie woke up and her Mom was preparing a meal of hamburger steaks along with green peas and mashed potatoes.

After everyone was done eating, the table was cleared and the dishes were washed, Ezra called Sadie. It was now getting on Eight P.M.

“Hey, you!” Sadie answered.

“Hey,” Ezra replied.

“I’m sorry I didn’t talk more but I was half sleeping when you sent me those pictures. But they were really neat.”

“Well, thank you. Watching marine traffic may seem boring to most, but it’s fun for me and it keeps me out of trouble.”

“Well, you have to have hobbies.”

“Speaking of that, what do you do for fun?”

“Well, I cannot drive, so I am pretty much a homebody, but as I said on my dating profile, I like to play games on my phone and tablet.”

“Nothing wrong with that. I’m glad you’re able to do something.”

“There’s also this blogger I read. He writes the most beautiful love stories. Maybe one day we can read his work together.”

“I wish I could write, but I would love to do that with you.”

“I also wish I could write.”

“What are his stories like?”

“Well, let me put it this way, we’ll have to be careful when we read them together, otherwise we may be tempted to commit a certain sin.”

“They’re that good?”

“Yes, they always bring out those feelings in me. It’s just I was never able to share them with anyone because I was always ghosted.”

“I was ghosted quite a bit as well, so I know what you’re going through.”

“But now we have each other, right?”

“Oh, yes! Most definitely! And I am so happy about that!”

“Me too!”

“I cannot wait to come to see you!”

“Neither can I!”

“Where would I sleep though?”

“In my arms, of course?”

“How would your Mom feel about that?”

“She would be fine as long as you treat me right and commit to me.” Sadie paused, then continued, “Anyway, I pay the bills around here.”

“Well, my intentions are indeed to treat you right and nothing would make me happier than to commit to you!”

“I’m falling for you even more!”

“As am I!”

“So, what heritage are you, anyway?”

“Redneck and Cherokee. What about you?”

“French and a little bit Irish.”

“Like Cajun French?”

“No. Parisian French!”

“Well, my family might tease you, but I think French men are so sophisticated and I hear they make wonderful lovers.”

“Now I am blushing!”

“I bet it’s so cute though!”

“When you say you’re redneck, do you know which European Countries, like more specific than just Anglo Saxon?”

“Scotch-Irish and maybe a little Welsh.”

“So we both have Irish, then.”

“Apparently.”

“The only Irish trait of mine that I know of is that I loved drinking Whiskey in my younger days, but cannot have it now because of this diabetes.”

“What races were your two exes?”

“The one I was with for during my twenties was Mexican, Italian, and Black. The one I was with while in my very early thirties was Cajun, Houmas, which is a Native American tribe in Louisiana and she was also partially Black.”

“The man who molested me was Black, but from Puerto Rico.”

“Would your family reject me because of the women I dated prior to finding you?”

“I doubt it. Once they see how wonderful you treat me and how happy you make me, they’ll want me to keep you!” Sadie paused, then continued, “But don’t advertise it either.”

“I understand, completely.”

There was a knock on Sadie’s bedroom door.

It was her mother and she said, “Alyssa and Nicky Joe are coming to visit tomorrow, so you might want to get some rest tonight.”

Ezra heard Sadie’s Mother and said, “Do I have to let you go for now?”

“No, we can talk a little while longer.” She paused and said, “I’m not looking forward to it. My cousin Alyssa is always in competition with me. She’s pregnant for her methhead boyfriend and they’re both coming tomorrow.”

“Sounds like fun,” Ezra said sarcastically, then continued, “In all seriousness, I need to do laundry tomorrow anyway.”

“I know right. It’s just Alyssa who was always skinny and she always had a boyfriend while I had none. But I cannot wait to show you off to her, because you’re so much classier and cuter than her boyfriend ever will be and you treat me like a queen.”

“Does that mean I get to shower you with affection in front of her?”

“Well, if you did, I would like it a lot and it would score you some extra points with me!” Sadie said as she giggled.

“Just know that I would do it anyway because I am that much crazy about you.”

“I am falling for you hard and fast, so please don’t break my heart!”

“I am falling for you equally hard and equally fast and I pray that you don’t break my heart either!”

“I never will! I know a good thing when I see it!”

“And I likewise know how wonderful you are and just so you know, I want you by my side forever!”

“I’ll take that to bed with me since I do have to get up early tomorrow.”

“Do you want me to say the good night tidings?”

“You can if you want.”

“Then I want you to know how much I long to give you hugs and kisses good night. And I want you to equally know how I long to keep you in my arms throughout the night. But my prayer is that The Good Lord watches over us until we talk again and my prayer is also that you will be by my side forever!”

“Yes, those are my desires as well. I cannot wait to see you and I cannot wait to read those blogs with you!”

“Well you have pleasant dreams and peaceful slumber and I will tell you good night.”

“Good Night.”

Sadie then changed into a nightgown, then turned on her fan and went to sleep.

Ezra stayed up for a few more hours, listening to his scanners then went to sleep as well…

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Pilot-An Online Romance

On a muggy late October night in South Louisiana, Ezra Lee Toussaint was sitting on his sofa scrolling past profiles of ladies on a dating site. He lived outside of New Orleans, Louisiana, and couldn’t seem to find any ladies that interested him nearby. So he increased the distance parameter on the app and continued searching.

Ezra was a disabled thirty-seven-year-old. He stayed in a one-bedroom apartment and of course lived off of a government pension from Social Security Disability. The reasons for his disability were that he was schizophrenic and later became diabetic, due to side effects from his medication.

Around the age of thirty-four he had lost a lot of weight, but still needed to take his schizophrenic medication as well as monitor his blood sugar and take insulin shots for the rest of his life.

Because of the cost of his medications and supplies as well as their side effects in addition to the debilitating mental effects of Schizophrenia, he decided it would be much more practical to draw disability and keep his medical benefits instead of being at the mercy of employer-sponsored health insurance.

He spent his waking hours working on his 1985 Jeep Comanche pickup truck, riding around at night, listening to his scanners, watching videos, or reading online.

He had all the time to do whatever he chose, whenever he chose, but his life was incomplete. He was missing the love of a good woman.

There was a good woman in his life about five years prior, but she called it quits on him out of the blue.

He spent a good while getting over that relationship, but then he decided to get on several dating sites and put himself on the market.

On this night he wasn’t having much success with the app.

It seemed that the only women who wanted him were well below his standards and the ones that met his standards all eventually ghosted him.

Ezra was getting ready to give up on these apps and find an alternative way to meet women when he saw her profile.

Her name was Sadie, she was 31 years old and from rural Marshall County, Alabama.

He studied her profile extensively and realized that she fit his standards exactly.

She was an SSBBW with a very pretty face, long flowing reddish-blonde hair, sparkling blue eyes, and the most beautiful curves.

On her profile she stated how she is indeed a big lady and if any potential mate of hers cannot deal with that, then just not waste their time and don’t even contact her. She stated how she wanted a man that would treat her like a queen, hold her by her waist, kiss her just because, and love her for her. She also stated how she is an excellent cook and despite her size, she’s the one to take and meet your family. Her profile then stated how she never smokes, or uses drugs and only drinks alcohol on special occasions. As her interests, she posted that they include hanging out with her family, riding around at night, swimming, playing games on her phone or tablet, and cuddling but only with the right man. She finally said how she is on disability because of her weight, but that means she can take care of herself financially and doesn’t want any man’s money, but rather his time, loyalty, affection, and love. Her height was listed as five feet.

Even though he wasn’t actually in her presence, Ezra felt immensely giddy as his heart skipped several beats.

For a few minutes he simply stared with great admiration at her pictures.

During those minutes, Ezra was going through in his head how he would write the perfect message for her, “Hey. I don’t know how to begin this, but let me first say that I am very picky about whom I would date. However, you seem to exceed my standards by far, and not only that I think you are beautiful and sweet. I want to get to know you more and if you are the right one for me, I would indeed treat you like a queen, hold you by that sexy waist of yours, shower your beautiful face with kisses just because and yes I could love you for you and let me say that you are indeed very lovable. I’m already crazy about you and if you would only know how giddy I feel just by looking at your profile, maybe you would somehow like me too. I know I am in Louisiana and you’re in Alabama, but gosh durn it, it wouldn’t matter to me how close or far you were, for you I would find a way to make it work. There aren’t any worthwhile women where I am, but you, well…you are more than worthwhile, you seem so perfect for me! I look forward to corresponding with you, so please give me a chance!”

Ezra sighed as he tapped the send button.

He then set his phone down and walked into the kitchen and took his medication.

Afterwards, he tested his blood sugar and saw that it was low, so he drank a cold can of Wild Cherry Pepsi.

He then turned on his scanner and listened as two towboat captains were coordinating their movements on the Intracoastal Waterway. He listened intently until he heard his phone go off.

A chat head appeared with Sadie’s picture.

Ezra took a deep breath then began to read the message.

“Hey. I’m really touched by what you told me. I also read your profile and you seem like a decent guy and yes I would be open to you getting to know me. I want to get to know you as well. I also think you’re really cute! It’s quite okay that you’re all the way in Louisiana because there are no worthwhile young men around here who are willing to pay attention to me, but I’m glad you are. You made me blush a whole lot when you told me that my waist is sexy. And yes, I am really happy that you are that you’re willing to make this work. Maybe you are the young man of whom I have been praying about. I hope you are serious about loving me for me because I am bigger than I appear in my pictures. I do weigh a little over four hundred pounds. When most guys find out exactly how big I am they ghost me. You seem really sweet, so I hope you are somehow different. I hope you would still want me now that you know my true weight and I promise you that I have an even bigger heart. Please write me back and let me know how you feel.”

Ezra’s heart swelled with joy that the young lady whom he was already catching feelings for was mutually interested in him. He knew he had to make it clear to Sadie exactly how much he was attracted to her. So, carefully, he typed back, “I’m so sorry all those other guys ghosted you but it’s their loss not yours. I hope it is also my gain and I apologize if that sounded wrong. There is something I want you to know and I pray you don’t think I am a pervert, but here goes: I am exclusively attracted to bigger women. There is just something about them that drives me wild but in a very good way. And if she has a pretty face like yours, I’m even more attracted. A skinny woman doesn’t have that effect on me. And a skinny woman wouldn’t ever make me happy but someone your size would make me the happiest man there is! I meant what I said when I told you how I think you’re beautiful and sweet. I won’t ever ghost you, but I will honor you and cherish you if you indeed let me! Please don’t ever ghost me either though. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and you have such a sweet and pure heart, that I want you even more now. I just hope this continues.”

A minute passed, then Ezra’s phone alerted him to another incoming message from Sadie. It read, “Oh, I don’t think you’re a pervert because you’re attracted to bigger women. Actually, I’m glad you are because you’re really cute and sweet and if you didn’t like bigger women you probably wouldn’t be talking to me right now, so it’s quite all right. Don’t be so hard on yourself. I know you’re falling for me and I will admit that I am falling for you as well, but I have to make sure you are right for me. I am indeed attracted to you physically and I think you are really sweet as well, but I need to know most of all that you are a Christian and that you are a humble gentleman. I’m almost sure that you are are the latter, but I need to make sure that you are also the former. If you indeed are, then you will have the keys to my heart. But I must know. Let me close by saying that I hope you are because I really do like you and I could see you making me happy. Please let me know.”

“Why don’t I call you and explain it to you? It would be easier to say it verbally than to write it all down.”

“Sure. I bet you have a cute voice.”

They then exchanged phone numbers.

Ezra then called Sadie.

“Hey you!” She answered.

“Hi,” Ezra said.

“Well tell me all you need to say.”

“Okay, here goes: I am indeed a Christian and have been since my teen years. There is something else you must know about me and that is I get disability. First I got it for being schizophrenic, which I got saved while I was recovering from my first mental breakdown. A family member presented The Gospel to me and I surrendered to it. Most of my family is Catholic, except for this family member, and I always noticed how he was closer to God than the rest of them, so I hung on to his every word. It was the best choice I ever made when I got saved! The medication I take for schizophrenia caused me to eventually become diabetic. I was heavy from my twenties until my early thirties then at age thirty-four, I lost the weight, mostly from strict dieting because of my diabetes. I allow the Lord to direct my paths and I acknowledge Him every step of the way. I would also be in a lot of trouble without Him. If you ever meet me, you will see that I carry a SwissGear backpack and a small Igloo cooler everywhere I go. I carry my medication and diabetic supplies, as well as a few cool personal gadgets in my backpack, and I have a few cans of soft drink as well as my insulin in the cooler.”

“I can tell that for sure that you are a Christian and I am immensely happy about that fact! I’m so sorry about your disabilities, but maybe they make you humble, or at least I think they do. Could you tell me about the other stuff you carry in your backpack? I hope it is all legal stuff.”

Ezra replied, “Well, some of the stuff I carry may not be legal in New York or California, but it is perfectly legal in the rural South. I have my tablet with its charger, a scanner radio also with its charger, a Leatherman multi-tool, a Swiss Army Knife, three different tactical flashlights one of them has a USB-C charger the other two run on disposable batteries, my Bible, two flash drives, a power bank, and a scientific calculator.”

“That’s neat. But why do you have three flashlights?”

“Well one is for general purpose lighting. The other has a regular white light but also a red light for use at night such as fishing or looking for worms or just looking around in a car while riding and not disturb the driver. The third one is for self-defense, it is very bright and has a strobe feature that can disorient an attacker then I can hit him in the head with the flashlight while he is disoriented. There’s a lot of crime in Louisiana and my psychiatrist won’t clear me for a concealed weapon permit, so I had to improvise. As you can see I like to be prepared.”

“My Daddy carried a Leatherman on him everywhere he went, but he willed it to me when he passed away.”

“What did he die of?”

“He was big like me and couldn’t get his blood pressure under control, so four, almost five years ago, the Sunday just after Black Friday, he was out hunting with the new rifle he had just purchased and had a stroke out in the woods. We have a scanner too and heard EMT’s talking about him on it. He died hours later at the hospital.”

“I’m so sorry and he seems like he would have been a good man.”

“Oh he was. Maybe he would have liked you.”

“What was he hunting for?”

“Wild hogs. He wanted to roast one for Christmas Dinner but had to work up until Christmas, so this was his only time off, until Christmas Eve.”

“Oh, that sounds delicious. What was his job?”

“He worked at a gun store and he loved to hunt in his free time.”

“If scanners upset you, I won’t play mine in front of you. I know it must be traumatic to hear one go off.”

“Well, that’s very sweet and thoughtful of you, but it doesn’t bother me.”

“What do you listen to on yours, anyway?”

“Mostly boat traffic. If that isn’t too active, I listen to the fire departments.”

“And why do you carry that Leatherman and Swiss Army Knife?”

“Just so I can help myself or others should the need arrive. It seems I am always using them to fix something at my church. I see them more as tools than weapons, and I do enjoy helping others.”

“Now you sound like my Daddy, but I like it.”

“I know you know that I am a Christian. I hope you think I am also a humble gentleman.”

“Yes. I do, but I just had to make sure you were first.”

“Yay.”

“You seem happy.”

“Well, the young lady of my dreams thinks I am a gentleman I would say that makes me happy!”

“So, since I am the young lady of your dreams, why don’t you make me yours?”

“How do you want me to do that?”

“Ask me, silly.”

“Okay, I need to know your full name first, so I can do this right.”

“It is Sadie Claire MacBride. What’s yours?”

“Ezra Lee Toussaint.”

“That’s a neat name.”

“Thanks.”

“Okay, are you going to ask me?”

“Yes: Sadie Claire MacBride, will you be my girlfriend? I don’t have much to offer you, but I do promise to give you my time, my loyalty, and my affections!”

“Of course I will, and you’ve just made me a very happy lady, Ezra Lee Toussaint! I hope and pray that this is just the beginning!”

“It is just the beginning and I hope and pray that you are the one because I cannot picture anyone better!”

“I hope you are the one as well and I cannot wait to meet you in person!”

“How about we try to Thanksgiving week. I’ll save some money from when I paid on November 3rd.”

“Sure. But I’m too fat to drive myself so you’re going to have to come to me.”

“That’s fine. And don’t be so hard on yourself because I think you’re the most beautiful lady ever! Anyway, I have a 1985 Jeep Comanche, but it runs just as well as any truck made today. And I will gladly come to see you.”

“You’re so sweet and I think you’re the cutest man I’ve ever seen!”

“Thank you!”

“Hey, what time is it?”

Ezra looked at his G-Shock, then answered, “10:44.”

“I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning, so I need to get some sleep. I too have high blood pressure because of my weight. It’s under control, thanks to the medications, but I need routine monitoring.”

“You do get disability as well, or at least your profile says so.”

“Yes, I get my Daddy’s survivor’s benefits. I use them to pay me and my Momma’s bills and the utilities. The trailer and the land are paid for, thank God!”

“Yes. Thank God indeed.” Ezra paused then continued, “There is something I want to tell you tonight, and every night before we go to sleep.”

“What is it?”

“Good Night Tidings.”

“Okay.”

“Here goes: I wish I was in your presence to lovingly give you good night hugs and a kisses goodnight, then gently tuck you into your bed. But I also pray that The Good Lord watches over both of us tonight and every night as we sleep. Finally I pray that we are together forever, because I only want you and no one else. Now, you get you some rest and I will take my medication.”

“That was very sweet and just know that I desire and pray for those very things as well!” Sadie paused then continued, “I will text you good morning and I will call you when I am out of my appointment. If you want we can spend some time then.”

“Okay. I will be waiting. I’ll probably watching boats tomorrow, but I’ll make time for you.”

“I know you will.”

“Okay, good night.”

“Good night.”

Ezra took his medicine then went to bed happier than ever.

Likewise Sadie went to bed filled with more joy than ever.

They dreamed about each other all night long…

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iAffection Part Five

PART FIVE (FRIDAY):

The next morning, Ethan woke up to his grandparents brewing a coffee and chicory blend.

He slowly opened his eyes and removed his blankets, then stepped off the convertible sofa.

His grandpa was cutting up French bread and spreading some butter on it.

His grandmother was frying eggs and slices of chopped ham.

Ethan walked to the table where he was soon handed a plate.

“This breakfast should hold you up!” Ethan’s grandmother said.

“Eat up, Ethan,” His grandpa added in.

The three ate and then his grandpa said, “Since our retirement pension benefits were deposited two days ago, and all the bills are paid, I’m taking us to eat out for lunch!”

“Where at?” Ethan asked.

“The cafe` at The Downtown Grocer.” His grandpa replied.

“Tessa’s mother eats there a lot!”

“Try to stay on her good side, Ethan whatever you do!”

“Hey, how well I know, but good advice!”

Ethan’s grandmother gave them both a dirty look.

Ethan finished eating then drank down his coffee, chicory, and milk blend then his grandparents placed the dishes and cookware in the dishwasher and started it.

Afterward, his grandparents went into the living room and watched the news.

Ethan went into the bathroom and activated the mail client app on his iPod Touch.

He began writing a message to Tessa, “Hey. My grandpa is taking me and my grandma to eat at The Downtown Grocer cafe` later today.”

“Awesome. My mom and I just arrived at the hospital clinic and we are about to check in,” Tessa replied.

“Okay. I hope and pray for you to have good results.”

“You and me both! Now I have to sign in at the desk.”

“Okay, I have to start getting ready anyway, but just know that I love you and I want you by my side forever!”

“I love you too and you know I will be!”

Ethan got dressed and then sat in the living room with his grandparents as they switched between the cable news channels, adding their colorful commentary.

A few hours later they were all getting hungry, so they decided it was time to leave.

All three used the bathroom one after the other and then got into the car and drove downtown to go eat.

Ethan’s grandpa parked in the handicapped spot of the parking garage then they walked into The Downtown Grocer.

All three ordered a plate lunch.

Ethan ordered white beans with fried catfish and drank a Cherry Coke.

His grandmother ordered a shrimp po’boy and unsweetened iced tea.

And his grandpa ordered a platter consisting of field peas over rice, tomatoes okra and corn, and grilled redfish as the main entree and he drank an Orange Fanta with that.

As they were about to eat, fate aligned even more to Ethan and Tessa’s side when Tessa and her mother also walked into The Downtown Grocer Cafe`.

Ethan told his grandparents with excitement, “Tessa and her mom are here; I’ll introduce them to y’all”

He then walked up to Tessa and her Mom and hugged both of them.

“I was hoping I would see you here, that’s why I picked it. My mom and I always eat out somewhere after a doctor’s appointment.”

“What did the doctor say?”

“Everything is normal, I just gained a couple of pounds, but my doctor wants me on birth control more than ever now.”

“Well you could get as big as this building and I would still love you and yes I would still want you by my side forever!”

Tessa grabbed Ethan and stole a kiss from him, then replied, “I know I’ve found someone wonderful and I love you too and you can count on it that I will be by your side forever!”

Ethan’s grandparents were watching the whole time.

He walked Tessa over to them and introduced them to her while her mother ordered.

“She sure is pretty, Ethan, you have good taste!” His grandpa said.

Tessa blushed and said, “Thank you!”

“How did you and Ethan meet?” His grandmother asked her.

“Well, I just started at this school. I was given a voucher because my grades were so good. I was even skipped ahead one year. I sat near Ethan in English class, he passed me a note and the rest is history.”

“Now, if you’re that smart continue with it. I know you love Ethan but your schooling is also important.”

“Yes ma’am, I sure will!”

Tessa’s mother then left the counter with no food and said, “I’m sorry Tessa, but we won’t be eating out today. My card was declined.”

Ethan’s grandpa introduced himself and his wife to Tessa’s mom then said, “I’ll pay for your meal. It’s the least I could do. I mean your daughter makes my grandson very happy and brings out the best in him.” He paused then said, “I also completely disagree with the way the school is handling their situation and I’ve decided not to give them any more contributions!”

“Oh, thank you, Mister. I must admit that your grandson is very good to my daughter and he also makes her very happy.”

Ethan’s grandpa told the cashier, “Fill the order, it’s on me.”

He then paid the order.

Tessa and her mom were then handed four pieces of fried chicken, with a large potato salad and a large coleslaw. They were also given each a cup of Dr. Pepper.

All of them put two tables together and dined in fellowship.

All seemed happy, except for Ethan’s grandmother who had a look of discontent on her face and didn’t say much.

After the meal was over, Tessa’s mom picked up her leftovers to bring home and said, “Well, I’ve got to bring you home then I have to get back to work, but it was nice meeting all of you. Ethan, maybe you can come by this weekend and meet the rest of the family.”

“Thank you. I’d like that a lot!” Ethan replied.

Tessa’s mother then looked at Ethan’s grandpa and said, “Thank you for everything you have truly been a big help!”

“Well, I try, but we need to get home too before this weather gets even colder.”

Ethan and Tessa shared a sweet but respectful kiss, then they all went their ways.

As they were riding back home, Ethan asked his grandparents, “Well, what did you think of Tessa?”

“I think she is pretty and sweet and smart. You’ve got yourself a good one, there!” His grandpa said.

Ethan said, “What do you think, grandma?”

“Well, I saw Tessa and her mother eating meat on a Friday, if they’re even Catholic, which I doubt, they’re certainly not good Catholics.”

“Honey, for Christ sakes don’t start that garbage!” Ethan’s grandpa interjected.

“Well, Ethan asked me what I thought and I’m being honest with him.”

“Well if the entire Catholic Church is as corrupt as my school, I don’t want anything to do with it anyway!” Ethan said.

Ethan’s grandmother turned to him with a look of extreme anger on her face, as she said, “If you give up on your faith, you will pay for it for eternity, Ethan!”

“He’s right though, honey. Our church is very corrupt.”

“I don’t care how corrupt y’all claim it is, it caused me to live my life right!”

“Yes, under constant fear of damnation though!” Ethan interjected.

“Shut your mouth, young man!” Ethan’s grandma shouted with anger.

Ethan quickly stifled.

Ethan’s grandpa said, “Honey. Ethan is right, you know. Us lay people are commanded to toe the line but those priests do God awful things to children.”

“Well, my catholic religion has caused me to do good. I certainly wasn’t fornicating at age seventeen like Ethan is doing.”

“Only because you hadn’t met me yet. After all, I was at war fighting for my country. And just so you know the Constitution of the country I fought for allows each person the right to choose their religion.”

“I bet Tessa’s family has no religion whatsoever, though.” She paused then continued, “And what if you got her pregnant, Ethan? You might have ruined your life now.”

“Not so. She takes birth control pills.”

Ethan’s grandma became even angrier then said, “Now I know for a fact that they have no religion. Every Pope has condemned anyone who uses birth control since it was invented.”

Ethan’s grandpa became very concerned, then asked, “Did you use protection? Because if she’s on birth control, who knows what other guys she has laid down with before you. She might have given you something that not even Ajax can clean off.”

“No, but we were both virgins.”

“This is going to be a blunt question, but did she bleed when you penetrated her?”

“Yes. Quite a bit.”

“Then you need to marry her and honor her for the rest of your life!”

Ethan’s grandma then added, “And you better try and make her become a catholic.”

“Whatever her choice, I’ll stand by her. I’m not so sure if even I want to be a catholic anymore, after the way my school has treated me.”

“I cannot believe what I am hearing out of my own flesh and blood.”

“It’s his Constitutional right.”

“Then I am also guaranteed freedom of speech which means I can tell his parents what he is doing behind their backs.”

“Would you really be that cruel?”

“It’s for his own good.”

“No, it’s not. You’re just prejudiced against anyone who is not a catholic. I see how happy they are together and you know his parents will keep them apart and then they will both be damaged goods to any future partners of theirs. Let them be together and marry as soon as they are legally able.”

“But they need to finish their education.”

“They still can. Many of my Army buddies went to college while supporting their families after the war. Furthermore, Ethan and Tessa have access to birth control pills that will prevent any unwanted pregnancies as well.”

“Now you too, honey? If my parents were alive to hear you talking in favor of birth control like you are, they would have deeply regretted letting you marry me.”

“I don’t think so, I lifted you out of poverty.”

“Of course, you would say that, but just know that money is the root of all evil. Furthermore, it is very hard for a rich person to go to Heaven.”

“Well, let me remind you then, that the roman catholic church is the richest organization in the world. But here’s the hypocrisy of it all Rome wants to keep the average catholic family in total poverty by commanding them to bear more children than they can support and then giving all their extra money to the church. They just want to promote human suffering if you ask me.”

“Suffering in this life will bring rewards in the next.”

“Then why did you even marry me? Because through my hard work, I spared you from a lot of suffering, at least financially. So, I guess God will take away your rewards somehow because I gave you a decent life?”

“You did give me a wonderful life and I am forever grateful to you for that. But I lived right all my life, so I will have a lot of rewards!”

“Then if you are grateful to me, I would like some peace and quiet. That means don’t tell Ethan’s parents about this either!”

“All right, honey, have it your way. I will comply with your request but I am not happy about it.”

With that, they pulled into the complex parking lot, parked the car, and walked into the building.

Soon they were in their unit and Ethan walked into the bathroom with his iPod Touch.

Ethan checked his email app and saw he had one message from Tessa. It read, “Hey. I’m so glad we were able to see each other today and my Mom is very thankful that your Grandpa bought us lunch. Do you, by any chance, know the names of those two boys that battered me? My Mom wants to call the police and press charges on them. Write me back as soon as you get this message. I love you!”

“Hey, sorry, I’m just getting back to my grandparents’ condo now. Those boys’ names are Micah Messer and Fisher Aycock. When I get back to my parents’ house I can look them up in the student directory and give you their addresses as well. And just so you know, I love you too!”

“Thank you. I will tell my Mom and she will shortly be calling the police.”

“I sincerely hope justice is served, but I’m very much aware of just how corrupt everything is.”

“I know. They probably have connections and will get just a slap on the wrist, if that even.”

“I know this: I want to marry you!”

“I want to marry you as well. Hopefully, you can meet my family this weekend.”

“I hope so too, but I would have to convince my parents to let me come.”

“Couldn’t you take the bus?”

“I would have to sneak out and then the cops would be called on me.”

“Your family seems very uptight.”

“Oh, if only you knew.”

“That bad?”

“Well, my grandma came unglued because she saw you and your mom eating meat today.”

“What’s wrong with that?”

“Oh, it’s some silly old catholic rule that says how it is a mortal sin to eat meat on Friday.”

“That’s why she was so quiet, then.”

“Bingo.”

“My grandpa likes you and your mom though.”

“I wasn’t raised catholic. My Dad was a Christian, but we stopped going to church after he passed away.”

“Well if you haven’t figured it out already, the catholic religion is very flawed.”

“I see how corrupt it is.”

“Speaking of that, we return to school Monday. We’re going to have to keep our relationship low key because they will be looking for reasons to write us up.”

“We can always meet up after school and on weekends, especially once you’re no longer grounded.”

“Yes. And hopefully, I can get my driver’s license, soon, but I have to convince my parents that I’m responsible enough.”

“I’m not old enough to get my license, yet, but even if I was, my Mom couldn’t afford to insure me.”

“Even though your grades are so good?”

“We don’t have the money, not even for a discounted rate. Speaking of good grades I have to catch up on my homework.”

“Yes. I have to do mine as well.”

“We will also need to do a lot of extra credit assignments to make up for the credit we lost while being suspended.”

“I know. I’m going to hate that, but it was worth it for you!”

“You’re so sweet. I love you so much!”

“I love you too and I want you by my side forever.”

“I will be!”

Both Ethan and Tessa began their homework assignments.

Ethan tried to work diligently, tuning out the cable news channels his grandma was watching.

His workload was very heavy, but little by little he eventually got it done.

Meanwhile, Tessa’s Mother called the police to report the battering that was done to her daughter.

In time an officer arrived at her house and she took down all the information. Tessa then gave a recorded statement.

Afterward, the officer said, “Those two boys will likely be booked, but I cannot promise that the charges will stick.”

Tessa then began her homework and studied diligently until dinner time.

She and her mother then each ate a Baquet frozen dinner together, which they heated in the gas oven, then they adjusted the antennas, then turned on the television set and converter box and watched some prime time dramas together.

Ethan’s Dad then came to pick him up from his grandparents’ condominium.

He drove Ethan back to the house in total silence.

Ethan continued the last of his homework, then ate a frozen pizza for dinner, late in the evening.

Finally, he went to his bedroom and locked the door.

He then connected through his next-door neighbor’s WiFi, logged into the email client, and then wrote a message to Tessa, “Hey. I’m back at my parents’ house. I don’t think that they know about our secret communications, but the door is locked, just in case.”

“That’s a very good thing because I miss you already. I’m getting ready for bed right now, but we could talk for a little while.”

“I’m getting ready for bed as well, but I wish you were in my arms.”

“You and me both.”

“I wonder if we will be able to be together at school, next Monday as long as we don’t show any physical affection.”

“Other couples get away with so much more, so maybe. If not, as you said, we can be together after school and on weekends.”

“Yes, money talks. So does athletic ability, unfortunately. The cop who came to my house said that those two boys will indeed be booked but she cannot promise that the charges will stick.”

“That is so unfair, but, even if they get away with it, we still have each other. Also what goes around comes around.”

“I hope we will always have each other. By the way, my mom still wants you to meet my family tomorrow if you’re parents are okay with you coming.”

“We will be together, as long as I can help it. And I would be honored to meet your family! It’s just I have to convince my parents to let me come!”

“My uncles might grill you, though.”

“Well, I will just have to make it crystal clear to them how much I am committed to you!”

“Oh, once they see that, they will take you in as one of their own!”

“I’m getting sleepy, but I’m going to mentally take you to bed with me!”

“And I’m going to imagine you next to me all night long!”

“Oh, how I long to be next to you, so close to you that I can hear your heart beating! I equally long to shower your whole body with kisses, until you fall asleep in my arms. And not only that, I desire to keep you in my arms throughout the night, both tonight and every night following, then wake up to your beautiful face right in front of mine. But until then, and I know I say it a lot but I love you and I want you by my side forever!”

“That was so beautiful, you really should pursue a career in writing! And just so you know, I love you too and I will be by your side forever!”

“I only pray that somehow we will see each other tomorrow.”

“Yes, I cannot wait.”

“Okay, until I will tell you good night and that I love you!”

“Good night and I love you too!”

Both Ethan and Tessa fell asleep soon after, longing to be in each others’ presence.

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iAffection Part Four

PART FOUR (THURSDAY):

The next morning Ethan told his grandparents, “I am going to play on the grounds again if that’s all right.”

“What about breakfast? We have oatmeal and hot syrup,” His grandma asked.

“I’m not hungry,” Ethan answered.

His grandpa replied, “Sure, just remember to wear your coat to protect you from this cold weather.”

With that, Ethan walked out of the building, and down to the bus stop then boarded the next bus. The ride lasted about 45 minutes with all of the stops until finally he was dropped off and walked the final block.

Tessa lived in the suburbs west of the City in an old house that was very much in need of repair. He walked in front of the house and Tessa was waiting on the porch. She motioned for him to enter the gate of the hurricane fence. Ethan did so, looking at her and smiling lovingly. He walked up the steps of her front porch, where she met him and took him by the hand as they walked in. The house had two bedrooms, a living room a kitchen, a dining area, and one and a half bathrooms. It was very cold as the previous day, so they both made a be line for Tessa’s bed.

On their way to her bed, Tessa raised the thermostat of floor furnace to 80 degrees, then commented “Finally, we have some real alone time.”

They walked to her bedroom and were immediately taken control by their raging hormones.

Wildly they began to kiss each other as Tessa said “I won’t make you do anything you would regret. Still, if you want me, you will be my first.”

Ethan replied “I do want you, and only you! By the way, you will be my first as well. I want you, both now and forever and I will regret nothing.”

They teasingly undressed each other, then went into each others’ arms as they fell into Tessa’s bed making passionate love, both a little shy at first. After mutually feeling the climax, they cuddled in bed for a short spell then got dressed and afterward ate a meal of tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches.

Ethan looked around the kitchen and dining area and saw several take out bags from The Downtown Grocer Cafe` as well as their daily menu on the refrigerator.

As they were eating Ethan said awkwardly, “If I got you pregnant my parents would go nuclear on me.”

Tessa replied, “Don’t worry about that, I’m on birth control, you know, for just in case. It was my mom’s idea.”

Ethan breathed a sigh of relief.

Tessa then said “I know, I know, that would be the last thing I would want. I would be expelled from school then.”

Ethan replied, “That stupid school president would probably expel us if he knew what we just did. It would be well worth it though.”

Tessa asked, “What would you like to do now?”

“Cuddle with you some more,” Ethan answered.

They went back to bed and fell asleep together until Tessa’s mother came in. She knocked on the bedroom door while they were still sleeping in bed. Tessa woke up. Ethan jumped and went into a panic as he began to shake profusely.

“Just a minute,” Tessa nervously said.

Tessa opened the door and her mother walked in as she said “You must be Ethan Mays. I’ve heard so much about you.”

She then looked at both of them sternly and said “I can just about guess what you two were doing in there.” Both Ethan and Tessa blushed brightly. Tessa’s mother paused then said, “Since you both were intimate, I expect both of you to commit to each other and only each other.” She then looked at Ethan and said, “And all I ask is that you treat Tessa with reverence, respect, love and, kindness because she deserves nothing less.” Tessa’s mother paused and then said, “If you don’t Tessa has uncles who can deal with you.”

Ethan grew even more nervous.

Tessa added in “It’s all right Ethan, you are not in any trouble and you never will be as long as you do what my mom just said.”

He looked at the time on his iPod Touch and realized he needed to be back at his grandparents’ condo.

Once again, he began to shake with panic.

“What’s wrong, Ethan?” Tessa asked.

Ethan replied, “I need to be back at my grandparents’ condo before all hell breaks loose.”

Tessa’s mother offered to drive him back to which he agreed.

Upon exiting the car, Ethan kissed Tessa to which he said “I love you Tessa and I want you by my side forever!”

She replied, “I love you too Ethan, and I will be! I’ll let you know the plans for tomorrow, but I do have a doctor’s appointment.”

They simply kissed once more.

Ethan thanked Tessa’s mother for the ride then walked into his grandparents’ condo to which his grandmother asked “Where have you been? You weren’t on the grounds.”

Ethan decided to be honest and replied, “I spent the day with Tessa at her house. Please don’t tell my parents.”

His grandmother sternly said, “Well, I can about imagine what you and she were doing there.”

Ethan’s grandpa came to his defense and said, “Honey, they love each other and Ethan deserves at least some privacy at his age.”

“Too much privacy results in delinquency, honey,” His grandmother replied.

His grandpa pleaded with her, “Now you know I would have done the same thing if I was ever separated from you. We were young once. Can’t you understand?”

She replied, “I just don’t like going behind his parents.”

His grandpa corrected her, saying, “Even if they are wrong though? You know they are wrong, right, honey?”

“Yes, they are wrong, and the whole situation is wrong!” She admitted, then said, “Ethan you better marry this girl as soon as you finish college.”

Ethan replied, “I’ll marry her even sooner than that! She is so sweet.”

With seriousness, his grandma replied, “You need to be sweet to her as well.”

“Of course I will,” Ethan said with assurance.

“Why don’t we eat supper?” Ethan’s grandpa said.

“Yes, I’m very hungry,” Ethan said, then blushed afterward.

Ethan’s grandparents looked at each other, as if to confirm their suspicions, then began preparing a dinner of turnip stew and fried smoked sausages on the side.

Ethan went into the bathroom and messaged Tessa, “I love you more than ever and I want you to know that I want you by my side forever!”

A few minutes passed, but then Tessa replied, “I love you too and I will be!”

Ethan then typed, “I have a few free minutes until dinner is ready.”

“Okay. My mom ordered Asian takeout and we are waiting for it to arrive.”

Ethan then said, “Not just because of what happened today, but especially because of it, I want you to know that I am completely committed to you and you only and my goal for our relationship is indeed to treat you with reverence, respect, love, and kindness. I don’t want anyone else and there isn’t a woman or girl on this planet that can take me away from you! I just hope you feel the same way.”

Tessa replied, “I do feel the same way, Ethan. You make me happier than ever!”

Ethan then said, “You know my grandparents found out we spent the day together and I think they know what we did.”

“How did they react?” Tessa asked.

Ethan replied, “My grandpa doesn’t mind and my grandma was ticked at first but then she said how I better marry you as soon as I finish college.”

“How do you feel about what your grandma said?” Tessa asked.

“Honestly I’d marry you right now if we were old enough!” Ethan replied.

“I would too. You’ve made me the happiest girl there is!” Tessa proclaimed.

There was a knock on the door and Ethan’s grandpa said, “I have to use the tur-let again. Dinner is almost ready.”

“My grandpa has to use the bathroom so I have to go now. I love you and I want you by my side forever!” Ethan messaged her.

“Okay. Enjoy your dinner. I love you too and I will be!” Tessa replied…

Ethan went into the kitchen and ate dinner with his grandparents.

There was much tension in the air and very awkward silence as they ate.

Afterward, Ethan’s grandparents went into the living room and watch the cable news channels in total silence.

Finally, they went to sleep.

As soon as they closed the bedroom door, Ethan pulled out his iPod Touch and logged into the email client.

There was just one message, “Hey Ethan, I cannot wait to talk again. Message me when you are able. I love you!”

Ethan quickly typed a reply message, “I’m available now, Tessa, and I love you too!”

Tessa instantly answered, “We can talk for a little while, but I have to get some sleep tonight because tomorrow I see my doctor.”

“What for? Are you okay?” Ethan inquired.

“Yes, I’m okay. My weight and my blood levels just need monitoring because of these birth control pills. They could make me gain more weight. I hope you would still want me if that happened.”

Quickly and with much assuredness, Ethan replied, “Of course I would still want you! Yes, I think you are beautiful just as you are, but to me, your size isn’t an issue. Your soul is beautiful and that is what I am in love with most of all.”

Tessa then replied, “Would you still be attracted to me though?”

Ethan frantically typed the words in hopes to comfort and assure Tessa of his love for her, “Yes I definitely would. I’m weird and I’m not like most guys. I never wanted to lay down with a girl just because I thought she was hot. I’ve always wanted to lay down with a girl who treats me right and loves me for me, with all my flaws included. That’s why I gave myself to you and that is why I want you forever. Besides, I think your chubbiness makes you sexy as hell! I’m almost sure you want me for me and not my status as a rich kid.”

Tessa replied, “I want you because you have a very pure and equally kind heart. And I want you more than ever now!”

Ethan then said, “I know my parents and grandparents want me to finish high school and college, but I want to marry you as soon as you are legally able. That would mean when I am twenty and you are eighteen.”

“Yes. I would want that too! You’re making me the happiest girl ever!”

Ethan then said, “Well you know, I do love you!”

Tessa replied, “I love you too!”

“And you also know, I’m sure, that I want you by my side forever!”

“Yes, I know. And I will be!”

There was a silence as both were getting sleepy.

Ethan then asked, “Is it all right if we sign off for the evening? I’m getting tired.”

Tessa replied, “Yes that’s fine. I just wanted to let you know that these pills could make me keep gaining weight and I was worried you would break up with me. I needed to tell you that because I wanted to make sure you would still want me. Now that I know that I can sleep easy.”

Ethan then said, “You can know this with certainty that I want you, no matter what. You can take it to the bank and cash it!”

Tessa replied with happiness, “I know.”

Ethan then said, “Don’t ever forget it, either!”

“Oh, how I wish I was in your arms right now, Ethan!” Tessa proclaimed.

“Me too!” Ethan replied.

“Well, we both need our sleep. So let’s say good night,” Tessa typed out.

Ethan then decided to write a message of good night tidings to her, “I cannot wait until the time when we can say good night and still be in each others’ arms all night long. This is me giving you a good night kiss and tucking you in! This is me wishing I was cuddling with you throughout the night. And most importantly, this is me wishing I was there to wake up and see your beautiful face, not just tomorrow morning but every morning after that for the rest of my life! I love you and I want you by my side forever! Good night, Tessa.”

Tessa then replied, “That was so sweet! You could be a writer, you know! And by the way, I love you too and I will be! Good night Ethan!”

Both fell asleep in a state of bliss.

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iAffection Part Three

PART THREE (WEDNESDAY):
The next morning Ethan woke up to the preparation of breakfast. He got up, fixed the convertible sofa, and walked to the table as a breakfast of grits and pork sizzlers were being set upon it.

Over the course of breakfast, Ethan asked his grandparents “Could I go on the grounds of the complex and get some exercise?”

His grandpa replied, “Sure, hey, you should be active.”

Ethan nodded, got dressed, and grabbed his hidden iPod Touch. He then walked out the door, through the corridor, and rode an elevator down to the lobby where he walked out to the grounds. Even outside, he could still pick up the WiFi signal.

He messaged Tessa, “I am waiting for you outside the grounds of the complex. I love you and I cannot wait to see you.”

Tessa replied, “I’m on my way and I love you too.”

A half-hour passed by when finally the city bus stopped in front of the complex and out stepped Tessa. Ethan’s eyes were fixated on her like they were the day he first met her. They simply walked up to each other and hugged in the raw January weather.

They held each other for a short while when Ethan said, “Best we go where no one tied with the school can see us.”

Tessa nodded in agreement.

They walked back to the grounds and sat on a bench holding hands as Tessa said, “I cannot believe they suspended us for something so innocent.”

Ethan replied, “Money talks.”

Tessa said, “I missed you so much, Ethan.”

He replied, “And I missed you too; but if all goes well, we’ll be able to be alone together without the school people bothering us for the next few days. We are beating those control freaks at their own game.”

Tessa smiled and nestled her face into Ethan’s chest.

Far into the day they laughed and talked to each other while sitting on the bench, until the hour of noon. Hunger pains were setting in for both of them, so Tessa reached into her backpack, and they ate Hot ‘N’ Spicy Cheeze It crackers from a sealed bag in Tessa’s backpack and drank tomato soup from a Thermos. Afterward, they each drank a can of Wild Cherry Pepsi.

After eating their lunch, Ethan asked Tessa, “Could I push you on the swing?”

She nodded with happiness.

Ethan continued to swing Tessa until the temperature began to drop. The cold was setting in and they had nowhere to go, but stand by the brick wall, which fenced in the complex for privacy and security purposes. They stood there shivering and laughing in the bleakness. Ethan leaned over to kiss Tessa, to which she responded with open arms.

She passionately kissed Ethan all over his face, then grabbed his coat and pulled him towards her as she said, “I don’t want this moment to ever end.”

Ethan replied, “Neither do I, Tessa.”

Tessa then said, “Take me into your arms, and don’t let go.”

They held each other and spun around in circles.

He held her in his arms by her waist and then wrapped his legs around hers as they sat down.

The temperature was now near freezing. Despite the bitter, biting cold, they stayed there until the alarm clock application on Tessa’s cell phone went off.

Sadly Tessa said, “I am so sorry Ethan but I have to catch the bus to go back home. Will you walk me to the bus stop?”

Calmly Ethan nodded and he escorted her to the bus stop. The city bus pulled up and stoped. Ethan and Tessa kissed each other a loving goodbye, then Tessa boarded the bus. As the bus took Tessa away, Ethan went inside and laid down on the convertible sofa. He covered up in a thick blanket. Meanwhile, Tessa was riding the bus back to her mother’s house. Upon arrival, she also went inside and covered up in a thick blanket on her bed and fell into a deep sleep, dreaming of Ethan.

The hour of seven pm was near and Ethan’s grandparents’ were putting dinner on the table. it consisted of baked chicken, shell pasta covered with cheddar, and steamed broccoli. The three ate in silence. Ethan tried his best to hide the smile on his face.

At the same time, Tessa’s mother walked into the bedroom where she was sleeping and began to talk to her, “How was your day today, Tessa?”

Tessa replied, “I had a great day.”

“What all happened today?” Her mother asked.

And then there was a silence, to which her mother asked “Is something wrong?”

Tessa then replied, “Nothing is wrong.”

“Then what is going on?” Her mother asked.

Tessa replied, “All right I will tell you, but don’t freak out.” She paused then continued, “I spent the day with Ethan. He keeps in touch with me through the Internet. He purchased an iPod Touch and uses the WiFi feature on it. He sends emails that are forwarded to my phone. Today we met at his grandparent’s condo.”

Her mother was momentarily shocked, but then asked, “And what did you two do?”

Tessa replied, “We ate the lunch I prepared. We swung on the swings, we danced around in circles, holding each other, then we cuddled in each others’ arms on the grounds.”

Her mother then said “Well, Ethan does seem sweet, but try not to be seen with him in public. You know that could get in more trouble with school officials.”

Tessa then asked, “So you are cool about Ethan?”

“I guess,” Her mother replied, and continued “From what you tell me about him, I guess he sounds like a good person and he makes you happier than I’ve seen you in years.”

“Could I see him again, tomorrow?”

“You may, but just remember what I said about being seen in public,” Her mom cautiously said, then continued, “Now I have some spaghetti, garlic bread, and a salad for us.”

“Yay!” Tessa said as she was quite hungry.

Tessa and her mother happily ate dinner together.

At the condo, there was an awkward silence as they continued eating. Fortunately, Ethan’s grandparents did not question him of what went on during the day. The meal was soon over and Ethan went hide in the bathroom to message Tessa, “I had a wonderful time with you today and I only hope for more days such as this. I long for the day when we can be together all the time!”

Her phone buzzed and beeped, which woke her up and she messaged him back, “I missed you after I had to board the bus today, and I still miss you. I would move stars and planets to be cuddling with you right now.”

Ethan replied, “I miss you too, and this is misery not having you here with me.”

Tessa replied, “Well I have some good news, my mom knows that we were together today and she was completely fine about it. She also said that we can hang out tomorrow as long as we’re not seen in public, that way the school officials won’t find out.” Tessa messaged Ethan again “Do you still have any money left over?”

Ethan replied, “Yes, why?”

Tessa messaged him back, “I was thinking you could come to my house. Could you take the bus there? I want to cuddle with you.”

Ethan then replied, “That sounds awesome, we can be out of the cold, and still be together.”

With anxiety, Tessa then texted, “Please don’t judge me because of the condition of the house. I’m very poor!”

Ethan replied, “Of course not Tessa, I love you too much to worry about stuff like that!”

A great relief came over her and she then replied, “Well I can’t wait for you to come then. I’ll see you tomorrow and I love you, Ethan.”

She also texted him her address.

Ethan messaged her, “I love you too and I want to you by my side forever!”

“I will be!” Tessa replied with much assurance.

Soon, both of them were asleep.

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iAffection Part Two

PART TWO (TUESDAY):
Morning came, both got ready and sent each other their affectionate good morning texts, along with plans on where to meet before the first bell.

Upon arrival; they walked the grounds hand in hand, as Tessa looked Ethan, then asked “You were serious about what you said to me, last night, right?”

Gently he hugged her and gave her a long loving kiss as he said “Of course I was, you have made me so happy.”

Tessa simply hugged him; then rested her head against his chest, as she spoke “I don’t ever want to lose you!”

Ethan replied, “Most definitely, you won’t!”

Both had truly genuine feelings for each other but were afraid of heartbreak to happen. However, the soon upcoming series of events would prove the validity of the feelings they held for each other.

A duty teacher saw them together and started to hand down the school’s fascist roman catholic policies on them.

“Separate Immediately!” The teacher commanded, angrily, then continued, “This holy school is no place for that kind of behavior. If it happens again, I will see to it that you both get a suspension. Now, both of you get out of here.”

Both sulked going in separate directions. It was no sooner than Tessa had been separated from Ethan when Fisher Aycock and Micah Messer were eying on her. They were maliciously planning to embarrass her.

One said to the other, “Look it’s that fat and nerdy girl who was forced to sit by us.”

The other one said, “I have an idea.”

He whispered then, they surrounded her. Fisher grabbed her breasts and Micah lifted her skirt. She slapped both of them and they let her go. Mortified she ran away in tears. The same teacher that had unjustly separated her from Ethan, also witnessed her getting harassed and did nothing. The highly corrupt administration had instructed teachers not to discipline students with financial and athletic influence. Unfortunately, these two boys had both. Rather, the teacher followed Tessa from a distance, watching her. She knew she would be seeking out Ethan.

In secrecy, that hateful duty teacher watched as Tessa told Ethan of the event that just unfolded. Ethan simply held her and kissed her gently on the forehead, then asked her, “Are you all right?”

She replied, “Yes, I will be now that you are holding me.” Tessa paused for a second then continued, “I want to always be holding you close to me.”

Ethan looked into her eyes and said “You will be if I have anything to do about it.”

She clung to him silently as he spoke “If we get caught like this we will get suspended.”

“If we did, it would be more than worth it,” Ethan replied, then continued, “My parents would take my phone away from me, but we could keep in touch on-line. I can text you my email address and I can email your phone through the email to SMS gateway.”

“Just keep holding on to me me, Ethan, don’t ever let go!” Tessa softly said.

“I will never let go,” Ethan replied as he kissed her.

They lovingly continued to hold each other when that wretched duty teacher came out of the hiding place and said with a fit of authoritarian anger, “Did I not just tell you two that this holy school is no place for that kind of behavior?”

Boldly, Ethan answered, “Do you not realize what just happened to Tessa? I was only trying to comfort her.”

“SILENCE!” The teacher shouted, then continued, “Considered both of yourselves suspended. You both may not return to school until further notice.”

Ethan and Tessa were separately escorted into the disciplinary office, then were held in separate empty rooms until the buses came.

The teacher came to Ethan and said, “Oh and just so you know, I will have the school president instruct your parents to ground you from the Internet as well as the phone.”

Ethan’s heart sank as all of his communications links to Tessa would be jammed. It just so happened, however, that Ethan had received plenty of cash for Christmas. He kept the cash in a locked box in his bedroom. Ethan also knew how ignorant to technology his parents were. He then fabricated the plan to covertly purchase an iPod Touch and use the WiFi feature. Ethan knew he could connect to several gateways throughout the city. He knew this could be done completely undetected by his parents or school staff. When the day was over and the dismissal bell rang, they boarded the buses. Both were filled with anxiety about how their parents would react.

Upon arrival at his parents’ house, Ethan called Tessa and said, “Hey, my cell phone and netbook will probably be taken from me. I do have an idea on how we can keep in touch.”

“How is that?” She asked.

“I can secretly buy an iPod touch, and use the WiFi feature. I am sure there are some WiFi access points in the City that I can use, to communicate with you.” Ethan paused then asked, “How will your mom react?”

Tessa replied, “I don’t know. She is glad I found you, but she is still leary and won’t like the fact that you got us suspended.”

Ethan then told Tessa, “Tell her exactly what happened. Tell her that I was holding you to comfort you because of what those two jocks did.”

Tessa replied, asking, “I will try, but I have a question. How can you afford an iPod touch?”

“That’s easy; I can use the money I got for Christmas. It’s all cash, so no one will ever see the purchase on any statement,” Ethan answered with assurance.

“That’s a wonderful plan, Ethan.” Tessa replied then continued “When will you buy your iPod?”

“As soon as I can get a ride to a store like Target.”

“Just be my one and only,” Tessa said with her heart on her sleeve.

“I always will. I promise you that and I wish I was there to seal that promise with a sweet kiss on your soft lips,” Ethan said with happiness. He heard footsteps so he quickly said, “Someone is coming. I have to go. Just know with certainty that I want you by my side forever!”

“I will be, as long as I can help it!” Tessa replied with sincerity.

They hung up immediately after saying their loving goodbyes. Thinking quickly, Ethan text-messaged his email address to her phone and instructed her to send a text message to it from her phone.

The footsteps Ethan heard were of his mother as she approached him and said, “I just got off the phone with your school president.” Her anger was escalating as she continued, “He told me you and some girl were carrying on inappropriately.” She paused again then continued, “Give me your cell phone and your netbook. You will not get them back until further notice. You should know that public displays of affection are not allowed.”

Ethan replied “That is not how it went down. I bet that corrupt school president didn’t say how she was sexually harassed by two jocks and I was simply comforting her.”

His mother angrier and said “Oh shut your mouth. How dare you call the school president corrupt. Why are you always acting seditiously?”

“I’m simply telling the truth. Anyone at my school who is rich or an athlete and especially both gets away with anything and everything. Those two rich jocks were grabbing her breasts and lifting her skirt. All I did was hold her and kiss her.”

“Regardless; you are hot a hero and you blatantly broke the rules and now you will be grounded.”

“I know I’m not a hero, but I think I have the right to comfort her, I mean she is my girlfriend.”

“You don’t need a girlfriend. You need to focus on your schooling. Speaking of that, I want you to study during your undeserved vacation.” Ethan sulked, then walked away from her.

Ethan knew now what had to be done; he needed to purchase that iPod touch. He went up to his bedroom scheming a plan to get to a store and covertly make the purchase.

As Ethan was sitting on the bed, his dad walked into the room and asked, “You want to tell me what is going on at school.”

Rolling his eyes, Ethan explained the situation in full.

Understandingly his dad replied, “Well, there is nothing wrong with you having a relationship. I also understand that you were trying to comfort her, which is very noble. However, you broke the school rule of no physical affection and you got suspended. Your mom and I have decided that you will spend your suspension at your grandparents’. You will do as they say and I expect you to spend your time wisely. Now pack your stuff and I will drive you there.”

Ethan nodded in agreement. He placed several changes of clothes, his cash, and a few small possessions in his backpack. His dad then walked him to the car.

Meanwhile, Tessa’s mom walked to her bedroom. Tessa explained the situation to her to which resulted in mixed emotions.

Her mom said “Tessa, I want you to be careful with him. He might be trying to get in your panties and then leave you. Just because you’re on birth control doesn’t mean you can’t get hurt.”

Tessa replied, “Ethan is not like that at all, I am almost sure he is innocent and not just a player.”

Her mother then said, “Well, make sure of that before you do anything you might regret.” She paused, then continued “What about those two boys that were harassing you? Were they dealt with?”

Tessa replied “Nope.” She paused then continued “They are rich and they are athletes, so they get away with anything and everything.”

Her mom said with anger, “I would love to kick their butts.”

Tessa replied, “Well, then you would have to face a judge, with whom they probably have connections.”

Her mom replied, “You’re right. I know you are probably well aware of it, but that’s just more proof that life is unfair. However, as long as we have each other; that is what matters.”

“What about Ethan?” Tessa asked.

Her mom replied, “We’ll see.”

With that; they ate the plate dinners of Salisbury steaks, mashed potatoes, green beans, and each a pistolette that her mom had purchased from The Downtown Grocer Cafe`.

Ethan and his dad rode to the condominium complex, where he noticed a sign that read “FREE WiFi.” He smiled and realized that fate seemed to be on his side. He walked up to their room where they welcomed him in. Ethan explained the situation exactly as he told his dad.

His grandpa said, “Hey, I think someone is in love.”

His grandma added, “I just don’t understand the school system these days.”

His grandpa then asked, “Whatever happened to those good for nothing punks who battered her?”

Ethan replied, “Nothing happened at all. Don’t you know if someone at my school is rich or an athlete, the rules don’t apply to them.”

His grandpa remarked, “Well I don’t think we need to make any more donations to that school.” He paused, then continued, “But I know where I am going; to the Super Target. I need to go make some groceries.”

His dad said, “Well I better get going too.” He paused, looking at Ethan and then said, “Remember what I told you.”

Ethan simply nodded in agreement.

After his dad left, Ethan asked, “Grandpa, could I ride with you?”

He knew this was his chance to purchase the iPod touch.

His grandpa replied “Well sure, I don’t see why you should be punished, to begin with. This will be our little secret.”

Ethan’s grandma gave them both a dirty look and with that, they left.

When they arrived; Ethan asked, “Can I check out the electronics department, while you go make groceries?”

“Sure,” His grandpa replied and continued “Just meet me back by the car in half an hour.”

Ethan nodded and with that, he walked to the electronics section.

He looked at the glass counter and said to the clerk “One iPod Touch please.”

The clerk reached under the glass counter pulled it out and scanned it.

He then quoted the price, “That will be $245.20.”

Ethan pulled out $250 handed it to the clerk and said “Keep the change.” The clerk printed out a receipt and handed him the iPod.

Ethan put the receipt and the iPod in his coat pocket and walked out the door to the car. He stood around looking at the bleak sky until his grandpa arrived with the groceries and drove them back to the condo.

As Ethan’s grandparent’s prepared dinner; Ethan hid in the bathroom to set up his new device. He connected through the building’s WiFi system and then downloaded an email client app.

Ethan checked his email and saw the message from Tessa’s phone. It read, “Hey Ethan. I miss you already.”

He replied, “I miss you too, but the good news is now I’ve got my iPod Touch if you haven’t already guessed. Now we can keep in contact wherever I have access to WiFi.”

Within seconds the message was forwarded to her phone and she replied to him, “That is wonderful.”

Ethan asked her, “How did your mom react to the whole situation?”

“She is furious at the school for how they are handling the situation. She is even angrier at those boys. She wants to press charges on them.” Tessa continued “And she is still leery of you but wants to meet you. How did your parents react?”

Ethan answered, “My mom was highly ticked off, but my dad was almost completely cool about it. I was grounded from my phone and netbook, but neither of them knows that I am talking to you now.”

Tessa asked, “Well, how are you getting WiFi access?”

Ethan typed back, “I’ve been banished to my grandparent’s condo, and there is free WiFi throughout the whole building. I can keep the iPod touch in my pocket where it will be covert.”

Tessa typed back, “You are so sneaky, but I think it’s cute. Not to mention it shows how devoted you are to me. I am so turned on right now.”

Ethan’s heart skipped a beat as he typed back to her, “You are worth every bit of this drama and more. Just know, that I want you; come hell or high water.”

Tessa replied, “I wish you could be in my arms right now, Ethan.”

He replied, “I don’t know exactly when that will be but you are worth the wait.”

Tessa, flushed with happiness typed in reply, “I think I love you, Ethan. I’ve always wanted someone special; now I have found you. And just for the record, you are much more than special! How do you feel?”

Ethan instantly replied, “It was love at first sight. I’ve had feelings for you since I first laid eyes upon you. I would have told you sooner but I was afraid of scaring you off. Yes, I do love you too, Tessa.”

She then replied with happiness that their feelings were mutual, “You don’t scare me off at all.”

There was a knock at the bathroom door and Ethan shouted, “Occupied.”

His grandfather replied, “Hey, hurry up I have to use the tur-let.”

Quickly Ethan typed to Tessa, “I have to go now, but I’ll be back later.”

Hiding the iPod touch in his coat pocket he walked into the living room where his grandma was switching between the cable news channels.

He sat down on the convertible sofa when his grandmother asked, “Would you like to sleep there tonight?” Ethan nodded and his grandmother continued, “You can watch TV or listen to the music on low while your grandfather and I sleep.” Ethan nodded trying to hide his happiness as he realized fate continued to be on his side.

In a short spell dinner consisting of smothered cabbage with bacon over rice was cooked and then served. When dinner was over, the dishes and cookware were put in the dishwasher. Ethan’s grandparents went back to watching television. A local news report was showing how a group of thugs had robbed and beaten a tourist.

Ethan’s grandpa commented, “They should make an example of that trash and hang them from that old bridge over the freight canal.”

Quickly and covertly, Ethan messaged Tessa through his iPod touch, “As soon as my grandparents fall asleep; I will be able to talk to you again.”

A few seconds went by when Tessa replied, “All right I cannot wait until then.”

Ethan waited anxiously for his grandparents to go to bed.

Finally, eleven pm struck and Ethan’s grandfather said, “Well your grandmother and I are going to bed. Roll out the convertible sofa and get some sleep.”

His grandmother added in, “That’s right, you need to keep a structured schedule.”

Indeed fate was on Ethan’s side, as his grandparents went to their bedroom to sleep.

Ethan lay there typing on his iPod Touch, under the covers, “Hey, we can talk now,” He then typed another message, “I am so sorry that I made you wait so long, it is just I did not want to arouse suspicion from my grandparents.”

A few minutes passed by until Ethan received a reply from Tessa, “I think of you constantly, you are the love of my life, Ethan. I cannot wait until we can be together all the time. I hope it won’t be much longer until I am in your arms. But until then feel free to message me anytime you possibly can, I will understand.”

Lovingly and nervously Ethan replied, “Wow, no one has ever been that patient with me.”

Tessa replied, “Well; no one has ever so kind to me as you have.”

Ethan then typed, “Tessa, I want you to know that I love you and I wish I could express that feeling to you physically. I want to hold you, kiss you, and touch you all with deep affections.”

Tessa typed back to Ethan, “I know, I know. I want you to do those things and more.”

There was a pause then, they simultaneously wrote, “I love you” to each other.

Both were filled with bliss when they read each other’s messages.

There was a brief silence, then Tessa asked “What are you doing tomorrow?”

Ethan then replied, “I haven’t planned anything as I have to stay at my grandparents’ condo.”

Tessa then asked, “Could I come over there? Would they allow me there?”

She sent another message, “I want to see you again.”

Ethan answered, “I want to see you too Tessa. The only thing is that I doubt my grandparents would let us stay together at their place, even though they disagree with the whole situation.”

Sadly Tessa replied, “Right, I understand :-(”

They began to once again express their affections to each other for a short spell. Then, suddenly, an idea hit Ethan like a high-speed train.

He quickly typed, “There is a playground on the grounds of the complex. We could hang out there all day tomorrow. Is there any way you can get there?”

The wheels of fate were turning even more in their favor when Tessa said “I live near the city bus route, and I also have a bus pass. I can leave early in the morning, my mom also leaves for work even earlier. Send me the address of the complex and I will program into my phone’s navigation system.”

Ethan sent the address and she typed back, “This is so awesome.”

Tessa replied, “Well let us get some sleep so we can be together tomorrow. I hope to be holding you in my dreams tonight and I love you, Ethan.”

Ethan replied, “I love you too, and I am longing for tomorrow.”

Before signing off, Tessa typed, “I pray that our dreams of each other will keep us warm all night through.”

They both went to sleep even happier and more in love.

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iAffection Part One

PART ONE (MONDAY):

January 2009.

On a cold and dreary winter morning, the second semester was beginning at Pope Innocent IV Roman Catholic High School. Junior Ethan Mays was sitting in complete boredom. He was covertly reading text messages on his cell phone, while the assignments and instructions were being handed out. The messages consisted of freeze warnings. Ethan was a tall and pale seventeen-year-old, with wavy blonde hair. Most of the time, he was a kind and genuine person. He came from a well off family and had almost everything he wanted-except the love of a girl. This was due to him not desiring one of those rich spoiled girls, as he wanted someone sweet and genuine. Yet, somehow, he did not attract the less fortunate either, because all of them assumed him to be “too privileged.”

Until now:

Suddenly the door to the classroom opened and in stepped a very beautiful girl. Ethan’s eyes were fixated on her immediately. As she walked into the room and was assigned the seat in front of Ethan. This seemed as if it was part of fate’s course, and Ethan was ready to take the opportunity.

The teacher spoke, very cut and dry, announced “Class, we have a new student.” The teacher paused, then continued “Her name is Tessa Behling.” The teacher paused, looked at the girl, and spoke “I expect there to be no problems from you, young lady.”

All was quiet, Ethan simply admired her. The teacher went back to instructions as Tessa took her seat. She stood medium height, had chestnut-colored hair with glasses, and was also pale, like Ethan. She was fifteen years old and very smart. She was so smart that she was skipped a grade ahead. For the most part like Ethan, Tessa was also a kind and genuine person but came from an unfortunate upbringing. She never knew her dad, because he was killed in a freak accident on the job when she was a newborn and her mother worked under the table as a cleaning lady to keep them fed, clothed and sheltered because the survivor’s benefits weren’t enough to live on. Tessa attended this roman catholic school because of a government voucher, as she was very poor. Unbeknownst to school officials, she was given birth control pills through Medicaid. Her mother knew very well that a teenage pregnancy would put a greater strain on their lives. Tessa took her pills faithfully, even though she was still a virgin. Those pills caused her to become pleasantly plump. Even though she was able to have sex without consequence, she still wanted to wait for someone special to come along. Tessa wanted someone kind and devoted to her. That was what she dreamed of. He also had to be someone who would give her much physical affection, but more importantly, someone who would make her feel happy and special.

Little did she realize how soon she would find him:

As the class went on; Ethan found himself strongly attracted to her. Purposely he dropped his ink pen on the floor next to her desk. Tessa picked it up, then handed it to him. When their eyes met face to face, there was an instant spark of mutual attraction.

Ethan simply said, “Thank you.” And then, he winked at her. She smiled back at him from ear to ear. Ethan then thought to himself “She is new here and she seems so sweet. If I try to win her affection, maybe she won’t think of me as a rich and naive spoiled brat.” He couldn’t concentrate. He decided to write a note to her. Carefully he selected the words “Hey, I think you are very beautiful. Please don’t think I am trying to get under your skirt or anything like that. I just would like to get to know you better and I don’t want to scare you off. If you give me a chance, it would make me so happy and I would try my utmost to make you happy as well. PS. My name is Ethan Mays.” He also wrote his phone number down on the paper and handed it to her.

After reading the note Tessa’s eyes lit up as she thought to herself, “Could he possibly be someone special I’ve been waiting for?” She covertly programmed his number into her phone and then decided to reply to his note with “That is very sweet of you. And, yes, I would most definitely like that. You don’t scare me off at all. No one has been so good to me in a long while. Most people harass me about my weight. If you are as sweet as I think you are, I will be more than willing to give you a chance to know me.” She then passed the note back to Ethan, enclosed with her name and her phone number.” Covertly Ethan also programmed her number into his phone. They both hid their phones but continued to exchange their notes. Tessa drew a heart on the paper and wrote “Ethan+Tessa” She handed it to him.

He then drew, “4EVER” in the heart underneath their names. Afterward, he wrote, “How do you feel about that?” Then handed it to her.

Tessa replied, “I am on cloud 9.” The teacher was walking around the classroom in their direction and they quickly hid the notes, but it was too late. They were caught. Immediately the teacher moved Tessa to sit by two jocks; Micah Messer and Fisher Aycock. Both were star athletes and both came from rich contributing families. Needless to say, they got away with anything and everything.

After the class was over, Ethan and Tessa met in the hall. “I am sorry I got us in trouble,” Ethan said, then continued “I did not want that to happen. Now you have to sit by those two jerks.”

Tessa replied, “It is more than worth it. If you would have never passed me that note, we would probably not be talking to each other right now.”

The tardy bell rang so they gently hugged each other and both headed off to class.

As they were walking their separate ways, Tessa said, “Call me tonight!”

Ethan nodded with a wink and a smile. The day went on with them having no other classes together. Both were sad because of being separated but remained cheerful that they had found each other. Slowly the school-day went by. Finally, the dismissal bell rang. They both rushed off the school campus and headed home to call each other. Upon arriving home; Ethan retrieved his cell phone, walked into the backyard, and placed a call to Tessa.

She recognized the number on her screen instantly and answered, “Hey Ethan, I am so happy you remembered to call me.”

Ethan replied, “How could I forget?”

Affectionately they began to flirt on the phone until Ethan finally said “You make me feel so alive and so happy. I just…”

“Go on,” Tessa replied with hopeful and anticipative anxiety.

Ethan continued “I hope that I am not repelling you but…”

Tessa said “No you’re not, keep going,”

Ethan then eventually worked up the courage and said “All right I will put it like this: I think you and I could and should be a couple!”

Tessa was very touched and her heart was fluttering as she said, “Well why don’t you ask me?”

Ethan replied “All right, Tessa Behling, please be mine. Let’s make it official. Will you be my girlfriend!”

Tessa then replied, with ecstasy, “Of course I will because I can tell you have a very good heart! I cannot wait to see you at school tomorrow.”

Both of their hearts were relieved as they finally got what they wanted; to be together. They talked into the night over the phone, with complete infatuation towards each other; until they both went to sleep happier than before.

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An Excerpt from “An Online Romance”

On a muggy late October night in South Louisiana, Ezra Lee Toussaint was sitting on his sofa scrolling past profiles of ladies on a dating site. He lived outside of New Orleans, Louisiana, and couldn’t seem to find any ladies that interested him nearby. So he increased the distance parameter on the app and continued searching.

Ezra was a disabled thirty-seven-year-old. He stayed in a one-bedroom apartment and of course lived off of a government pension from Social Security Disability. The reasons for his disability were that he was schizophrenic and later became diabetic, due to side effects from his medication.

Around the age of thirty-four he had lost a lot of weight, but still needed to take his schizophrenic medication as well as monitor his blood sugar and take insulin shots for the rest of his life.

Because of the cost of his medications and supplies as well as their side effects in addition to the debilitating mental effects of Schizophrenia, he decided it would be much more practical to draw disability and keep his medical benefits instead of being at the mercy of employer-sponsored health insurance.

He spent his waking hours working on his 1985 Jeep Comanche pickup truck, riding around at night, listening to his scanners, watching videos, or reading online.

He had all the time to do whatever he chose, whenever he chose, but his life was incomplete. He was missing the love of a good woman.

There was a good woman in his life about five years prior, but she called it quits on him out of the blue.

He spent a good while getting over that relationship, but then he decided to get on several dating sites and put himself on the market.

On this night he wasn’t having much success with the app.

It seemed that the only women who wanted him were well below his standards and the ones that met his standards all eventually ghosted him.

Ezra was getting ready to give up on these apps and find an alternative way to meet women when he saw her profile.

Her name was Sadie, she was 31 years old and from rural Marshall County, Alabama.

He studied her profile extensively and realized that she fit his standards exactly.

She was an SSBBW with a very pretty face, long flowing reddish-blonde hair, sparkling blue eyes, and the most beautiful curves.

On her profile she stated how she is indeed a big lady and if any potential mate of hers cannot deal with that, then just not waste their time and don’t even contact her. She stated how she wanted a man that would treat her like a queen, hold her by her waist, kiss her just because, and love her for her. She also stated how she is an excellent cook and despite her size, she’s the one to take and meet your family. Her profile then stated how she never smokes, or uses drugs and only drinks alcohol on special occasions. As her interests, she posted that they include hanging out with her family, riding around at night, swimming, playing games on her phone or tablet, and cuddling but only with the right man. She finally said how she is on disability because of her weight, but that means she can take care of herself financially and doesn’t want any man’s money, but rather his time, loyalty, affection, and love. Her height was listed as five feet.

Even though he wasn’t actually in her presence, Ezra felt immensely giddy as his heart skipped several beats.

For a few minutes he simply stared with great admiration at her pictures.

During those minutes, Ezra was going through in his head how he would write the perfect message for her, “Hey. I don’t know how to begin this, but let me first say that I am very picky about whom I would date. However, you seem to exceed my standards by far, and not only that I think you are beautiful and sweet. I want to get to know you more and if you are the right one for me, I would indeed treat you like a queen, hold you by that sexy waist of yours, shower your beautiful face with kisses just because and yes I could love you for you and let me say that you are indeed very lovable. I’m already crazy about you and if you would only know how giddy I feel just by looking at your profile, maybe you would somehow like me too. I know I am in Louisiana and you’re in Alabama, but gosh durn it, it wouldn’t matter to me how close or far you were, for you I would find a way to make it work. There aren’t any worthwhile women where I am, but you, well…you are more than worthwhile, you seem so perfect for me! I look forward to corresponding with you, so please give me a chance!”

Ezra sighed as he tapped the send button.

He then set his phone down and walked into the kitchen and took his medication.

Afterwards, he tested his blood sugar and saw that it was low, so he drank a cold can of Wild Cherry Pepsi.

He then turned on his scanner and listened as two towboat captains were coordinating their movements on the Intracoastal Waterway. He listened intently until he heard his phone go off.

A chat head appeared with Sadie’s picture.

Ezra took a deep breath then began to read the message.

“Hey. I’m really touched by what you told me. I also read your profile and you seem like a decent guy and yes I would be open to you getting to know me. I want to get to know you as well. I also think you’re really cute! It’s quite okay that you’re all the way in Louisiana because there are no worthwhile young men around here who are willing to pay attention to me, but I’m glad you are. You made me blush a whole lot when you told me that my waist is sexy. And yes, I am really happy that you are that you’re willing to make this work. Maybe you are the young man of whom I have been praying about. I hope you are serious about loving me for me because I am bigger than I appear in my pictures. I do weigh a little over four hundred pounds. When most guys find out exactly how big I am they ghost me. You seem really sweet, so I hope you are somehow different. I hope you would still want me now that you know my true weight and I promise you that I have an even bigger heart. Please write me back and let me know how you feel.”

Ezra’s heart swelled with joy that the young lady whom he was already catching feelings for was mutually interested in him. He knew he had to make it clear to Sadie exactly how much he was attracted to her. So, carefully, he typed back, “I’m so sorry all those other guys ghosted you but it’s their loss not yours. I hope it is also my gain and I apologize if that sounded wrong. There is something I want you to know and I pray you don’t think I am a pervert, but here goes: I am exclusively attracted to bigger women. There is just something about them that drives me wild but in a very good way. And if she has a pretty face like yours, I’m even more attracted. A skinny woman doesn’t have that effect on me. And a skinny woman wouldn’t ever make me happy but someone your size would make me the happiest man there is! I meant what I said when I told you how I think you’re beautiful and sweet. I won’t ever ghost you, but I will honor you and cherish you if you indeed let me! Please don’t ever ghost me either though. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and you have such a sweet and pure heart, that I want you even more now. I just hope this continues.”

A minute passed, then Ezra’s phone alerted him to another incoming message from Sadie. It read, “Oh, I don’t think you’re a pervert because you’re attracted to bigger women. Actually, I’m glad you are because you’re really cute and sweet and if you didn’t like bigger women you probably wouldn’t be talking to me right now, so it’s quite all right. Don’t be so hard on yourself. I know you’re falling for me and I will admit that I am falling for you as well, but I have to make sure you are right for me. I am indeed attracted to you physically and I think you are really sweet as well, but I need to know most of all that you are a Christian and that you are a humble gentleman. I’m almost sure that you are are the latter, but I need to make sure that you are also the former. If you indeed are, then you will have the keys to my heart. But I must know. Let me close by saying that I hope you are because I really do like you and I could see you making me happy. Please let me know.”

“Why don’t I call you and explain it to you? It would be easier to say it verbally than to write it all down.”

“Sure. I bet you have a cute voice.”

They then exchanged phone numbers.

Ezra then called Sadie.

“Hey you!” She answered.

“Hi,” Ezra said.

“Well tell me all you need to say.”

“Okay, here goes: I am indeed a Christian and have been since my teen years. There is something else you must know about me and that is I get disability. First I got it for being schizophrenic, which I got saved while I was recovering from my first mental breakdown. A family member presented The Gospel to me and I surrendered to it. Most of my family is Catholic, except for this family member, and I always noticed how he was closer to God than the rest of them, so I hung on to his every word. It was the best choice I ever made when I got saved! The medication I take for schizophrenia caused me to eventually become diabetic. I was heavy from my twenties until my early thirties then at age thirty-four, I lost the weight, mostly from strict dieting because of my diabetes. I allow the Lord to direct my paths and I acknowledge Him every step of the way. I would also be in a lot of trouble without Him. If you ever meet me, you will see that I carry a SwissGear backpack and a small Igloo cooler everywhere I go. I carry my medication and diabetic supplies, as well as a few cool personal gadgets in my backpack, and I have a few cans of soft drink as well as my insulin in the cooler.”

“I can tell that for sure that you are a Christian and I am immensely happy about that fact! I’m so sorry about your disabilities, but maybe they make you humble, or at least I think they do. Could you tell me about the other stuff you carry in your backpack? I hope it is all legal stuff.”

Ezra replied, “Well, some of the stuff I carry may not be legal in New York or California, but it is perfectly legal in the rural South. I have my tablet with its charger, a scanner radio also with its charger, a Leatherman multi-tool, a Swiss Army Knife, three different tactical flashlights one of them has a USB-C charger the other two run on disposable batteries, my Bible, two flash drives, a power bank, and a scientific calculator.”

“That’s neat. But why do you have three flashlights?”

“Well one is for general purpose lighting. The other has a regular white light but also a red light for use at night such as fishing or looking for worms or just looking around in a car while riding and not disturb the driver. The third one is for self-defense, it is very bright and has a strobe feature that can disorient an attacker then I can hit him in the head with the flashlight while he is disoriented. There’s a lot of crime in Louisiana and my psychiatrist won’t clear me for a concealed weapon permit, so I had to improvise. As you can see I like to be prepared.”

“My Daddy carried a Leatherman on him everywhere he went, but he willed it to me when he passed away.”

“What did he die of?”

“He was big like me and couldn’t get his blood pressure under control, so four, almost five years ago, the Sunday just after Black Friday, he was out hunting with the new rifle he had just purchased and had a stroke out in the woods. We have a scanner too and heard EMT’s talking about him on it. He died hours later at the hospital.”

“I’m so sorry and he seems like he would have been a good man.”

“Oh he was. Maybe he would have liked you.”

“What was he hunting for?”

“Wild hogs. He wanted to roast one for Christmas Dinner but had to work up until Christmas, so this was his only time off, until Christmas Eve.”

“Oh, that sounds delicious. What was his job?”

“He worked at a gun store and he loved to hunt in his free time.”

“If scanners upset you, I won’t play mine in front of you. I know it must be traumatic to hear one go off.”

“Well, that’s very sweet and thoughtful of you, but it doesn’t bother me.”

“What do you listen to on yours, anyway?”

“Mostly boat traffic. If that isn’t too active, I listen to the fire departments.”

“And why do you carry that Leatherman and Swiss Army Knife?”

“Just so I can help myself or others should the need arrive. It seems I am always using them to fix something at my church. I see them more as tools than weapons, and I do enjoy helping others.”

“Now you sound like my Daddy, but I like it.”

“I know you know that I am a Christian. I hope you think I am also a humble gentleman.”

“Yes. I do, but I just had to make sure you were first.”

“Yay.”

“You seem happy.”

“Well, the young lady of my dreams thinks I am a gentleman I would say that makes me happy!”

“So, since I am the young lady of your dreams, why don’t you make me yours?”

“How do you want me to do that?”

“Ask me, silly.”

“Okay, I need to know your full name first, so I can do this right.”

“It is Sadie Claire MacBride. What’s yours?”

“Ezra Lee Toussaint.”

“That’s a neat name.”

“Thanks.”

“Okay, are you going to ask me?”

“Yes: Sadie Claire MacBride, will you be my girlfriend? I don’t have much to offer you, but I do promise to give you my time, my loyalty, and my affections!”

“Of course I will, and you’ve just made me a very happy lady, Ezra Lee Toussaint! I hope and pray that this is just the beginning!”

“It is just the beginning and I hope and pray that you are the one because I cannot picture anyone better!”

“I hope you are the one as well and I cannot wait to meet you in person!”

“How about we try to Thanksgiving week. I’ll save some money from when I paid on November 3rd.”

“Sure. But I’m too fat to drive myself so you’re going to have to come to me.”

“That’s fine. And don’t be so hard on yourself because I think you’re the most beautiful lady ever! Anyway, I have a 1985 Jeep Comanche, but it runs just as well as any truck made today. And I will gladly come to see you.”

“You’re so sweet and I think you’re the cutest man I’ve ever seen!”

“Thank you!”

“Hey, what time is it?”

Ezra looked at his G-Shock, then answered, “10:44.”

“I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning, so I need to get some sleep. I too have high blood pressure because of my weight. It’s under control, thanks to the medications, but I need routine monitoring.”

“You do get disability as well, or at least your profile says so.”

“Yes, I get my Daddy’s survivor’s benefits. I use them to pay me and my Momma’s bills and the utilities. The trailer and the land are paid for, thank God!”

“Yes. Thank God indeed.” Ezra paused then continued, “There is something I want to tell you tonight, and every night before we go to sleep.”

“What is it?”

“Good Night Tidings.”

“Okay.”

“Here goes: I wish I was in your presence to lovingly give you hugs and kisses goodnight, then gently tuck you into your bed. But I also pray that The Good Lord watches over both of us tonight and every night as we sleep. Finally I pray that we are together forever, because I only want you and no one else. Now, you get you some rest and I will take my medication.”

“That was very sweet and just know that I desire and pray for those very things as well!” Sadie paused then continued, “I will text you good morning and I will call you when I am out of my appointment. If you want we can spend some time then.”

“Okay. I will be waiting. I’ll probably be doing laundry tomorrow, but I’ll make time for you.”

“I know you will.”

“Okay, good night.”

“Good night.”

Ezra took his medicine then went to bed happier than ever.

Likewise Sadie went to bed filled with more joy than ever.

They dreamed about each other all night long…

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Post Modernism’s Influence on my Thinking and Writing

Post Modernism has heavily influenced my later writings, I think that is obvious. It was since my late teen years that I was first exposed to it and at least on the subconscious level, it began to inspire me and take root. It wouldn’t be until my early twenties that it had begun to shape my writing.

In this piece, I will try and describe, how Post Modernism has influenced and inspired my writing. I will try to explore in greater detail than before how I was inspired to write these two stories. I think you, the reader, will be shocked when you find out how far back the inspirations go. I will also touch on the fact that Post Modernism is indeed very much in conflict with my Christian faith.

However, when I allow them to coexist within my heart and mind, I can write some beautiful things. However, Post Modernism is dangerous in all matters concerning the soul and I will admit that until the cows come home. The reason why I find Post Modernism so dangerous to the soul is because it strongly teaches that there is no absolute truth. In fact, I often joke how the Roman Governor Pontius Pilate was the world’s first adherent of Post Modernism, when he asked Christ, “What is truth?” As referenced in the Bible, John 18:38. Pilate eventually went crazy and likely never got saved.

The stories I have written under the influence of postmodern thought were inspired by many external factors that occurred on both my conscious and subconscious levels. Some of these inspirations can be traced back to the Spring of 2005. While there were others, I think the one that stands out the most is my infamous “Grocer and Writer” stories, though I didn’t begin the actual writing of them until the evening of June 30, 2014, and I began writing its replacement, “A Disabled Electrician Turned Writer” in February of 2017.

In a high school Psychology class, back in the Spring of 2005, we were working on an assignment to describe a house and to exchange it with a classmate, but if I remember correctly not to identify yourself. I immediately thought of an older house in the suburbs of New Orleans and in that house is a young man cuddling in bed with his girlfriend. I don’t exactly remember how I wrote it, but I know it was in better detail than the simple mentioning of it in this piece. I know exactly what inspired me to write that, but I am not going to reveal it, because a lot of people in my immediate circle will be angered if I do. When I witnessed what I wrote, almost a year prior, you, the reader, could say I had been exposed to Post Modernism for the first time since an unmarried couple that was cuddling in bed was and likely having relations as well was considered a sin, but here I was exposed to it. The person whom I exchanged it with seemed irritated in her answer to what I wrote and while I remember her name well, I will not mention it. Even though I was on a terrible medication and not very creative at that point in my life, I could still think of stuff like this from time to time. However, the little I was writing at this point in my life was totally different and even old fashioned, compared to the very urbane nature of my stories that reflect postmodern American society, especially those in this piece.

Fast forward to December of 2005, I began writing an anti-Christian Cult story, known as “The Textfile.” I’m not knocking Christians except for a few sects that teach how one must speak in tongues to be saved. That very teaching caused great distress in me. However, I now know that it isn’t Biblical and is borderline blaspheming in my book. I was initially inspired to write it whilst walking around the Houma suburb of Bayou Cane, Louisiana, but also, I had recently watched, “The Notebook” on DVD. I completed it in May of 2006, but then erased it sometime in 2013. In 2017, I began rewriting it strictly from memory, though it too is much more urbane than the original. I completed the newer version in 2019. Throughout the Summer of 2006, I would exchange this story with plenty of people whom I either met in chat rooms or through Myspace. I got some differing reactions, some enjoyed it, some loathed it.

In August or September of 2006, someone read the original version of “The Textfile” then sent me a copy of his or her story known as “Perplexed Existence.” It was a Christian story, written in first person about an emo high schooler who works at a convenience store and has an alcoholic and pill addicted mother. He meets a young lady who leads him to Christ. I read it in one sitting with my undivided attention with no idea how it would inspire my own writing in the future both consciously and subconsciously. I don’t know if it was a true story or a work of pure fiction, but I thoroughly enjoyed it. Whomever the author was and I wish I could remember, but he or she was successfully able to combine Post Modernism with Christianity and did so better than I ever could.

In September of 2006, I was inspired to write a story about a young grocer and his relationship goals but didn’t write the first pieces of it until March of 2018. Throughout the rest of 2006 I was working quite a bit and didn’t have much time for writing, but still managed to do it now and then.

On January 7, 2007, I had met a girl and on that same day entered what seemed like a wonderful and very stable relationship with her, but years later it became quite toxic and finally terminated in 2018. I believe this relationship is also what made my writing more urbane and I quit writing with the old fashioned values my work initially possessed. Some of the people in her family could be seen as poster children of Post Modernism, but I won’t go into detail why because I am trying to make peace with the situation. Her family is influenced by Post Modernism and spreads that influence, in the way they carry themselves.

My writing was probably at its most filthy in the Summer of 2008 when I wrote something that was borderline pornographic about a couple that had met online. Let me say that I was a severely backslidden Christian who was not only writing such filthy literature but I was also fornicating and cohabitating. It was a young studly warehouse worker in Phoenix, Arizona who met a rich, lonely, slightly older but still young woman that lived in Salt Lake City Utah. They had cybersex, but then she invited him over to which he drove all night in his vintage Chevy Blazer and upon arrival, they did many kinky things both in her master bed/bathroom but also near the Great Salt Lake. At some point, after this, I promised The Lord and myself that I would never write anything pornographic again if I were to ever reference sexual intimacy in my writing, I would do so with taste and leave almost everything to the imagination from then on. I’d like to believe that I pretty much kept this promise, although I messed up a time or two. It was the Financial Collapse of 2008, that brought me out of my backslidden state. I started listening to shortwave to hear the rest of the world’s opinion on America and began to hear some Christian preaching as well. Ironically even a false Christian prophet played a role in getting me out of my severely backslidden state, as bizarre as that may sound. There was even a villain in one of my stories based on him.

I started attending church regularly in January of 2009 and attended that church until January of 2018. It was at this church where the ills of Post Modernism were first pointed out to me. I didn’t even know what Post Modernism was until I had attended there but then began to see it everywhere. This was both good and bad because it allowed me to get lots of inspiration for my writing, but also, I realized how bad a shape society is in and how far it fell from grace.

I finished trade school in November 2008 and went to work full time. In some of my free time, I would write. I purchased a small netbook in February of 2009, so I could write whenever I was on the go. I lost my job in September of 2009, due to a still crumbling economy. In October of 2009, I had taken a trip to the Esplanade Mall with my soon to be wife now ex-wife and was inspired to write a story about a teenaged couple at a strict and corrupt catholic high school. I stopped at a now-closed restaurant in Paradis, LA, where her family members were working and began writing some of it. They are suspended for public displays of affection. I called the story, iAffection. The boy comes from a well off family, but the girl and her mother are poor and she attends school on a voucher. I completed it some time in late 2009 or early 2010 and had revised it, but then did a little more work on it around 2019. However, this was my first story with the postmodern qualities and drew some inspiration from that story “Perplexed Existence”, but also the soap opera, “As the World Turns.”

On January 11, 2010, I started working for a God awful grocer and remained working there until September 23, 2011. This place inspired a good bit of my “Grocer and Writer” stories, that is for sure. Several characters were based on managers and coworkers from there, though I would write any of it until well after quitting. Also, around this time I had visited a young couple who was struggling financially and living in Paradis, LA. This moment would inspire a scene in “A Disabled Electrician Turned Writer.”

In the Summer of 2011, I began work on a dystopian story. It was about a teen couple in a forbidden romance because of the Nazi styled government in power. I had a dream back in February of 2003 which was the inspiration behind it. It was completed in the Summer of 2012. There are some postmodern elements to it. This story came to me in a dream I had quite possibly in the early morning hours of February 9, 2003, though it would take me another eight years to get it into text.

In February of 2012, I began writing “Radiant Affection”, which was initially supposed to be a form of repentance for writing “The Textfile.” I worked on it on and off until 2014, but I still contribute to it from time to time at the time of writing this piece. I know where to go with it, I just need to fill the gaps in between. This story doesn’t have the Post Modern element that the others do.

On June 30, 2014, after taking a trip with my parents and then-wife now ex-wife to the New Orleans area, I came home and was inspired to write what would be the beginning of my “Grocer and Writer” stories. As I’ve mentioned before, the New Orleans area has always been inspirational for my writing and it is inspirational to others in their respective forms of art. There is just something about it. Well, it takes place in New Orleans though not specifically mentioned in the stories themselves but little hints are left. The sins of fornication and cohabitation are committed in these stories, but my characters do repent and begin to plan marriage until one is murdered and the other dies of a broken heart. I wrote it initially from that day in 2014 until early 2016, when I felt as if I should write something that would not make the racial tension worse than it currently already was. While it reeks of Post Modernism, it also teaches that we all deserve to love and be loved, even despite appearance or disability.

So, in March of 2016, I began to write something that taught those similar values, but without all the racial and ethnic tension that was going on during the Obama years. It was about a train conductor and an aspiring writer who meet online in a writing forum. I didn’t get too far off the ground with it and eventually moved on to other things. Something else I wrote in 2015 and continued in 2016 was a teen drama known as “Those Years.” Both of these try to teach how everyone deserves to love and be loved. I didn’t get far enough with either story to have my characters commit any serious sins.

I had also taken quite a few trips to the New Orleans area throughout 2016, and just about every time, I drew at least some inspirations.

In February of 2017, I began writing another story, A Disabled Electrician turned Writer. It too takes place in the New Orleans area, though not exactly mentioned. I was inspired to write it by witnessing the lifestyles of those connected to my then in-laws now ex-in-laws. However, I wasn’t able to get that far with it. There are some sins of cohabitation and fornication that occur, but my characters do plan to repent. Like the others, it teaches that everyone deserves to love and be loved. I wrote it from 2017 to 2019, then went on hiatus.

In the Summer of 2017, I wrote, “Two Foamers in Love” but didn’t get very far with it. It is one of the least sinful stories influenced by Post Modernism; all sex occurs within wedlock and it is done discreetly. But you know what they say, right? Sex sells. Well, controversy in general sells. It is easier for me to write a sinful story than a wholesome one, a lot easier. God is dealing with me about this and has been for some time. Also, for whatever reason life seems more romantic before marriage than after. I don’t know if that is Post Modernism or just the human condition in general. Actually, there are some scriptures I could reference that deal with this subject and explain why married life isn’t as romantic as pre-married life and it is due to a curse put on humanity by God, to remind us that we are sinners in a fallen world.

In the early Spring of 2018, I began writing my “Relationship Goals of a Young Grocer” stories but didn’t get all that far with it. There is indeed some sin occurring, but still, I guess I was too distracted to focus on it. Well, I was going through a divorce and also trying to secure my own place of residence. Later in the Spring of 2018, April 16, to be exact, I wrote “An Autumn Squall Line” about an impoverished couple riding out a severe thunderstorm in a shotgun house in Uptown New Orleans. In the original version, they were cohabitating, but on August 11, 2018, I changed it to a married couple, though still quite impoverished. Around this time was when God began to deal with me about writing such sinful literature.

In the Fall of 2018, I wrote “Love Among Terrorism” which was dedicated to me and my then-girlfriend, now ex-girlfriend. There was no cohabitation nor fornication, just a terrorist attack and a couple worried about each other.

Throughout 2019, I had added pieces to many of the aforementioned series of stories. I also completed the new version of “The Textfile.”

In the last days of 2019, I went through a breakup, but then began writing a new Post Modern influenced story, with equal Christian influence known as “Second Chances.” I am going to try my durn well best not to let my characters sin, though they do spend an innocent Christmas Eve together and cuddle all night long. Like the others, it takes place in the New Orleans area. By this point, even my Post Modern influenced writing had evolved.

In early 2020, before this Coronavirus was an issue in The States, I began writing a new series known as “Bohemian America.” It takes place in New York City and the surrounding area, but there are references to Louisiana. Yes, there are some sexual sins, but only by a couple who is in love and does desire marriage, one of the members of that couple are triracial, and I wrote that to atone for previous works I had done that likely contributed to the racial tension in America. Again I was just inspired by all that I was observing, so can you, the reader, blame me? I sure hope not! I’ve only publically displayed a piece of it that doesn’t show the sinning.

While I have written plenty of factual works during this Coronavirus pandemic, I haven’t written any fiction to say fiction. It’s like a partial writer’s block has set in. Of course, I hadn’t been drinking my Wild Cherry Pepsi like I usually do, something which usually fuels my creativity. When life gets back to normal, hopefully, I’ll start writing fiction again and resume my “Second Chances” stories as well as “Bohemian America.”

Yes, intimacy is referenced in much of my Post Modern influenced writing but it is overwhelmingly done with taste and not in a pornographic fashion as was the case in 2008.

So, yes, Post Modernism has influenced my thinking since about 2004/2005 but didn’t start showing up in my writing until 2009 and not fully realized until 2014.

Yes, it makes good writing, but is in conflict with Christianity and certainly does not honor God, so likewise if I am going to continue writing with Post Modern influence, I’ll need God’s help to not allow it to be sinful.

Of course, if you, the reader, are a Christian, then I covet your prayers.

I guess this, therefore, concludes the piece on how Post Modernism has influenced my writing over the years and I hope you, the reader, have been informed, enlightened and maybe even entertained…

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