Severe Love Warning

…Spring 1975…

On a hot and humid May afternoon, Cade Jennings was walking around on his family’s vacant property. A moderately strong tornado had passed through the previous week and he was charged with the task of repairing the damage. The fence along the property line had been ripped out of the ground and many posts broken.

Cade came from a very well off, well respected family, and lived in the rural community of Checker. He was an only child, and but had three cousins. His dad; Van Jennings owned a hardware supply store. His paternal aunt; Margie Jennings Fitzgerald owned a diner called Margie’s. Cade worked for his dad’s hardware store, since the age of sixteen. He was able to avoid service in the Vietnam Conflict because he worked fervently as a highly skilled carpenter and equally skilled electrician. Also his family was well off. Cade’s work consisted of the building, wiring and repairing structures on houses and farms. His family’s land had been unoccupied for many years. It was once farmland and still had a small wooden house near the gravel road. There was also a storm shelter in the back fields. His great-grandparents originally bought the property, generations ago. Cade’s dad and aunt had ended up with it during the war. In the 1950s, they built a shelter there, to protect themselves against a foreign missile attack. In later years it served as a haven for stormy weather. It was highly valued by the family, as there was plenty of foul weather in the area. In fact, that shelter was the main reason for keeping the land. Cade’s aunt Margie also wanted to build other houses on the property, for her children. The only thing was they could not decide what to do with the small wooden house. It had sentimental value to Cade’s dad and aunt, as it was in the family for generations. Cade loved the house too, and stayed there whenever he could. In fact, all the while he was making his repairs, he stayed there. Helen Williams, their troublesome neighbor, constantly complained about it. She said it brought down the value of her property and that it was too small and too old.

Cade was a a decent young man of twenty-five years. As he was walking along the broken fence at the property boundary, he saw a young lady tending to the Helen’s herb garden. She was short and soft bodied and clothed in a yellow sun dress. Her appearance drove Cade crazy. He was instantly attracted to her, as she was bent over with her back turned toward him. He knew, however, that her boss Helen Williams held her workers to high moral standards. She demanded her employees to be celibant. They were forbidden to be in situations that would hint that their celibacy was broken. Still, at that moment, Cade was very attracted to her. He wanted to at least get to know her. Reluctantly, he unfixed his eyes from her backside and began working on the fence.

He said to himself “My God, she is so beautiful, if only I could get her to notice me.” He thought for a moment, then said to himself with a slight laugh and smile. “Wait, I know what I am going to do.” He pulled the broken post out of the ground and then tossed it into the bed of his truck. The sound of the wood landing on the metal frightened the girl. Cade did exactly what he wanted, and got the girl’s attention. Immediately she turned around and looked in Cade’s direction.

He spoke to her, trying to hide his smile, “Sorry I didn’t mean to startle you.”

She smiled back at him and answered “That’s alright, I am glad that it was only you.”

Cade continued working on the fence. He placed a new post into the ground and forced it in with his pile-driver. He then took the U-shaped fasteners and hammered them into the new post, to secure the wire mesh. He did all of this while watching the girl at the same time. She couldn’t seem to be focused on her work.

Cade said to himself, “Good lord, she is even more beautiful than I first thought. I wonder what she is thinking right now?”

He continued working, trying to be as loud as possible in hopes that she would come up to him. Finally the girl got up from her work and walked over.

Cade again said, trying to hide his smile “I am sorry, I don’t mean to be making all of this noise. I hope I am not disturbing you.”

She spoke “No, you’re not, don’t worry about that. It’s just, I have never seen you around here before. What brings you here?”

Cade replied “Well, my family owns this property, and they are paying me to repair it. I am fixing the damage from the severe weather last week.” He paused then asked “Were you around here when the tornado came through?”

The girl replied “Oh yes, I was very frightened. I am deathly afraid of the weather.”

Cade asked “Where did you go for it?”

The girl replied “I had to stay outside, even though the sky was ominously black. It was lightening and thundering. I was so afraid of getting struck. A tornado warning was even issued; in fact I heard it on my Flavoradio. It keeps me company during these long work hours.” She paused and then continued “Ms. Helen kept us working, until she actually saw the funnel cloud touch down.”

Cade replied “Good Lord! Is she that horribly ruthless? I cannot believe that she would put her workers in that kind of danger.” He paused then continued “Someone so delicate and beautiful like you should be protected from danger, not put in the face of it. I bet you’re not even sixteen.”

The girl smiled and blushed, as she said, “Twenty-one, actually, but thanks for the compliment” She paused then continued “I am sick of working for her. She doesn’t appreciate us. She makes us work from sun up to sun down. We have to work five, sometimes six days a week and we are grossly underpaid. We don’t work on a set schedule either, so we can’t really plan anything far in advance. Worst of all, she tries to to control our personal lives as well.” She paused then said “If any of us decide to marry; we would be fired.” The girl paused again then continued “Don’t try having sexual intimacy outside of marriage either, because if she finds out she will fire you for that as well. She forbids fornicating, and even being in a situation where people might think you are fornicating. How’s a girl supposed to have any release?”

Cade also blushed and replied, “Dang, I knew about the celibacy, but I didn’t realize she did all of that other stuff. It is unjust and should be illegal”

The girl then said “I’m Amelia Esterwood by the way.”

“Cade Jennings.” He replied, then continued “Amelia, I have a confession to make: I think you are very beautiful and I would like to see you again. I could only see you from behind, but I thought you were so beautiful. Then, when you turned around, my thoughts were confirmed. I just wanted to be honest with you. I was making all that noise purposely to show off and get your attention.”

Amelia’s blue eyes lit up, as she replied “Well Cade, I had a feeling you were trying to do something like that.” She continued “You made me feel special, because of your attempts to attract me. That’s why I came over to talk to you. It wasn’t so much about the noise. I came because I think you are so cute and sweet.” She then leaned over to kiss him, but then stopped and said “Wait, you don’t look a day over fifteen. How do I know that I am not robbing the cradle?”

Cade blushed as he said to Amelia with excitement, “Well I just made twenty-five. I would be the one that is technically robbing the cradle, but not breaking the law.”

“Well, it is good that we are both legal, but if I wasn’t, you can rob my cradle any time.” Amelia said as she kissed him.

With ecstasy, Cade replied “Wow you really like me too, don’t you?”

She answered, “Of course I do. They don’t make ’em like you anymore.”

Cade asked, “What do you mean?” Amelia replied “You are so sweet and honest.”

She continued, “I can’t believe you don’t have a girlfriend.” He answered “Nope, there aren’t any young ladies around these parts.” Cade paused, blushed then said “Well except for you that is.”

Amelia leaned over to kiss him again, and said “Would you like to have one?”

Cade simply said “I hope you are talking about you and me.”

Amelia giggled, nodded her head and then kissed him again. Cade then kissed her, awkwardly. He blushed and asked “When could we see each other again?”

She replied “Hopefully, I have tomorrow off. If I do, could I meet you early in the morning?” Amelia paused, then continued “But, I will have to be discreet about it.”

Cade smiled and then said “You sure could. Stand near the property line, and face my bedroom window.” Cade pointed it out. Then he continued “I will be up at half past five. What do you mean by being discreet about it?”

“Well, Helen can’t know about us, so we have to be low key. At six thirty tomorrow, wait for me inside your bedroom. As soon as you see me coming near the property line, get ready. I will give you a hand signal like this” Amelia pushed her two hands together in the shape of a heart. She then continued “I will pretend my bike is broken. When I do that, get your truck ready and start it up. Ride it to where the gravel road meets Route 9.” Amelia paused then continued “I will take my bicycle and follow you. We will meet up at that highway. Helen won’t be able to see us way over there.” Amelia paused, then said “She will be too busy at that hour waking up the rest of the girls, anyway. I will keep a distance between my bicycle and your truck.”

Cade smiled then said “And when we meet near the main highway, you can put your bicycle in the bed of my truck. I have some tarpaulin to cover it up. That way no one will see that I have your bicycle and it will be protected from the weather.” Cade said as he smiled from ear to ear. He continued “This is going to be so awesome.”

Amelia smiled as she said “It’s a date.”

Cade replied, happily “I cannot wait until then.” Amelia winked and blew him a kiss. She then pranced back to the garden with her sun dress swishing from side to side. Cade stared at her with a mixture of love and lust. They both got back to work, not being able to talk for the rest of the day. As Cade was repairing the fence, all he could think of was Amelia; her beauty and their mutual passionate feelings towards each other. Cade admired her while she was working in the garden, as he continued walking along the property line. He was very busy pulling up and replacing fence posts and throwing the broken ones into the bed of his truck. He repeated the process of pile driving the new fence posts down in their places and fastening them to the wire mesh. When he finished repairing the fence all along the property line, he moved on to the rest of the yard and fields. Cade worked on the fence until the sun began to set. Just as he wanted, Cade stayed in the old house for the night. He prepared his supper, scrubbed himself down and then listened to the weather report on the bedside radio, a Realistic 12-652, until he fell asleep.

The next morning he was looking out of the bedroom window, waiting for Amelia. Not long after, she was standing near the property line. Just as planned; Amelia, wearing her backpack, gave him the hand signal. Cade nodded then walked into the living room then out the door. He started up his truck, then drove up the road. Amelia waited for Cade’s truck to leave and create some distance. Amelia took off on her bicycle and followed Cade just as planned. While waiting for Amelia, Cade parked his truck on the side of the road, perpendicular to the highway.

A sheriff’s deputy pulled over and then asked him “Engine trouble?”

“No sir” Cade replied

“Then why are you parked here?”

Quickly, Cade answered “I am waiting for my girlfriend.”

The deputy then asked “Well where is she coming from?”

“Down this gravel road, she is coming on a bicycle.” Cade replied

“Well why can’t you meet her down there?” The deputy asked

Cade answered “She is not exactly allowed to see me.”

“Is this girl 18?” The deputy asked.

Cade replied “21 actually.”

“And how old are you?”

“25.” Cade replied, and showed the cop his license.

The deputy then asked “Why can’t she see you?”

Cade replied “Her boss doesn’t want her to marry or even date.”

The deputy then said, rolling his eyes “That sounds like Helen Williams. Am I correct?”

“Yes sir.” Cade replied.

The deputy then said “She has committed and still does commit quite a few infractions, like renting out rooms illegally and unfair treatment of workers.”

He paused, then continued “My boss just as soon be in bed with her. My hands are tied, she uses her money and influence to make him look the other way.”

Cade then said with an irritated sarcasm, “Well somehow I am not surprised.”

The deputy then said “Just try not to get her too angry or she will make your life a living hell.”

“I’ll try, but I can’t promise anything.” Cade replied,

and the deputy said “Well you just be careful. I have to go now as I am on duty.”

“Thanks, and have a nice day.” Cade replied.

The deputy drove off, and a few minutes later Amelia arrived on her bicycle. She kissed him.

Cade asked her “Are you ready?”

She nodded and then asked “Where should we go today?”

Cade suggested “There’s a diner right when you get into town. My aunt owns it, so I figure we can go there.”

Amelia smiled and then said “Like I said before, it’s a date.” She set her backpack, behind the seat, then Cade lifted her bicycle into the bed of his truck, covered it and closed the tailgate. Cade then helped her into his truck and was accidentally flashed by her. He saw right up her pink sun dress and was overcome with lust. Her white panty caught his eyes and for a brief moment, time stopped and he stared at the beautiful sight.

Amelia ended the moment, though softly, as she smiled and said “You better give me a kiss!” Cade kissed her, then climbed into his side and they drove to the diner.

Upon arriving, they found a booth and sat down.

“Aunt Margie, are you here?” Cade called out. “There is someone I want you to meet.” He continued

She replied from her office. “Just a little bit, Cade.” Not long after, she came out and greeted them.

He introduced her saying “This is Amelia Esterwood, she works for Helen Williams, you know next door to the property.”

He paused then said “Don’t tell anyone, that we are together because she could lose her job for going out with me. Helen Williams is so uptight.”

Cade’s aunt said “Don’t worry, Cade, my lips are buttoned. She seems like a nice girl though and she is very pretty. You have good taste.”

Amelia blushed, then said “Thank you for saying that. Helen usually cuts me down and makes me feel horrible.”

Cade’s aunt said, “Yes, she is a nasty neighbor and a source of misery to all of us. You shouldn’t let her bring you down, because you are much better than her.” Cade’s aunt paused then continued “Now, anyways, what could I get for you two?”

Cade looked at Amelia and asked , “What do you want?” She replied “Strawberry pancakes sound good. And I’ll have a glass of milk.”

His aunt then asked, “And for you Cade?” He replied “I’ll have two sausage biscuits with cheese, and scrambled eggs. I would also like a glass of orange juice.”

“Coming up.” His aunt replied, then continued, “Cade, I think I should give you an antacid with your breakfast. You better take it.”

Cade looked at Amelia’s backpack, “So what do you keep in there anyway?”

Amelia replied, “Oh some potions I have been working on, from plant extracts. I also have my pocketbook, sunglasses, keys, an Eveready penlight, my Flavoradio, perfume, my mirror and my diary.”

Cade then said, “Wow that’s a lot of stuff. What kind of potions do you have?”

Amelia replied, “I have created some aphrodisiacs, tranquilizers, pain relievers, elixirs and antidotes.”

“That is so awesome, especially the aphrodisiacs.” Cade replied; then blushed afterwards.

Amelia said, “Well I tried them on myself once, and they brought up some powerful urges in me. I could never act on them until I was in my room by myself.”

“I would like to try them,” Cade replied, then continued “You know, you only live once.” She opened up a bottle and then placed some crushed powder into both of their glasses of water. They toasted each other and drank both of the glasses.”

“Wow this tastes strange,” Cade said.

“Yes it does, but it is sure potent,” She said, then kissed Cade. The kiss was followed by an awkward silence. Little did they know, there were others in the diner that were listening in. It just so happened that Cade looked around the dining room, and saw everyone whispering and staring.

Cade noticed them and said “Durn it, I hate how these small town people are so nosy. I wish it was like the city, where everyone minds there own business.”

Amelia added in, “I’m from the city actually, but I took the job here because I also needed a place to stay for cheap. Helen Williams rents out some rooms on her property for the girls that work there.”

Cade looked around again before he whispered, “Yes, and I heard she does it all under the table. I guess that’s so she will not have to keep a lease or pay taxes.”

Amelia then said, “Yes, and because she does not sign a lease, she is not required to keep us there if she would decide to fire us.” The people began to point and whisper some more, and Cade was getting very irritated. Before they were even able to finish their breakfast, they decided to leave.

Cade paid his aunt, tipped her and said “Can we take this food to go? I don’t want to waste it, but I also can’t stand these nosy people in here.” His aunt nodded and they walked out of the diner.

Amelia said, “I see what you mean about nosy small town people. I hope that word doesn’t get back to my boss.” She paused then asked “Where could we go to be alone?” “Well there are several places to go, but I wouldn’t take you there.”

“Why not?” Amelia asked

Cade replied, “Because, you are a lady, and those places are either full of nasty men or thugs.” He paused then said “I would take you to the house, but Helen might see us walking in together.”

Amelia then asked, “If it’s all right with you Cade, why don’t we take a ride somewhere?”

Cade smiled and said, “That’s a good idea. Now, let’s just see where we can go.” He pulled his map from under the windshield on the dashboard. He studied the map and said “We are on Route 10, running concurrent with Route 9.” He pointed at the flashing 3 Way Stoplight, then said “That’s where the two highways split off.” He said, then continued. “We can go northwest on Route 10, or southwest on Route 9.” He then said “We can go to Native Crossing, and I can buy you some sexy clothes at this store I heard of.” It is about 10 miles southwest of here, on Route 9.”

Amelia nodded and said, “That’s a wonderful idea, but just so you know, I would go anywhere with you.” She leaned over to kiss him, and once again Cade was turned on. They drove towards Native Crossing, on Route 9, entered the city limits, and then into downtown. Cade parked his truck on the street, and they went walking along the sidewalk. They came in front of the clothing store.

Amelia looked in the window and said, “Imagine how I would look in one of those skirts?”

“Let’s find out.” Cade said. They walked in and Amelia asked the clerk, “I would like to try on some of those skirts”

Cade told Amelia, “I could also get you a night gown and maybe some underwear.”

The clerk was an old and old fashioned woman. She asked, sternly ,”Are you two married?”

“No,” They replied simultaneously.

The clerk said, “Well I can’t have both of you shopping for clothes here together, especially underclothes. It’s just not proper. A boy should NOT see a girl’s nightgown or underwear unless she is married to him.”

Cade showed her a handful of cash, and then asked “What if I paid a little extra for her clothes?”

The old woman grabbed her broom as she said, “What kind of sell out do you think I am?” She continued, “I don’t care how much you want to pay me, I will not sell you two any clothes. What is this world coming to?” She then chased them out with her broom.

They ran out of the store and onto the sidewalk both laughing.

Amelia said, “I have an idea.”

“What’s that?” Cade asked.

Amelia answered, “Give me a big kiss and hold me tight.” She giggled and then said “Now rub my butt a little.” Cade was now getting turned on, likewise Amelia. She then said “Now lift my dress a little.”

Cade began to do it, when the old lady from the clothing store came out, yelling “Knock it off you two animals, before I call the police.”

Filled with a rush of affection and laughter, they then ran to Cade’s truck and left the the downtown area of Native Crossing.

They came to a filling station, and Cade said “Oh better fill the truck up. Could I get you anything?”

Amelia replied “A cherry cola would be nice.” Cade walked into the store. He looked at the little gadgets under the counter and the soft drinks in the coolers.

He picked up two cherry colas, and then looked under the counter and asked “I see that tradesman’s pocket knife down there. How much?”

The attendant replied “For you, $8. That’s a very good deal. It is made locally, not overseas. It is not like the junk they sell at those new fangled department stores.”

Cade then asked “And what would you suggest for my girlfriend, she is waiting in the truck and I would like to surprise her.”

The attendant went into the back room and said “How about this?” He blew the dust off the box, then continued “It’s mighty fine Ladies Rolex watch.”

Cade looked at it, and then studied it closely. It was a shiny gold and had had a blue face and bright sparkling hands and markings.” ”

“$350,” The attendant said.

Cade pulled out his cash and asked “Is this real?”

The attendant said “Look at the minute hand. Do you see how it sweeps instead of ticks? That means it is real my friend.”

Cade asked “Well, how did you come across one of these?”

“I have a friend who is in the jewelry business. When he has new old stock on clearance, he sells them to me. I then sometimes resell them,” The salesman replied.

Cade then paid for all the goods. He then placed another $5 on the counter, as he said, “I also need to fill up my truck.”

The cashier took the money and Cade put the watch in his left pocket and knife in his right. He then went out to pump his fuel. He opened the door and Amelia playfully swung her legs out, to cause Cade’s lustful feelings to come forth. He kissed her and handed her one of the soft drinks.

He then said, “I know where we can go.”

“Where’s that?” Amelia asked.

“We can go to where the two waterways cross. That place is how the town of Native Crossing got its name.”

He paused and then continued, “We can sit on the tail gate of my truck, and watch the boats pass by.

She smiled and said, “That could be fun.”

Cadee finished pumping fuel into his truck then they drove down to the canal intersection. Cade pulled out his new knife and began to clean his fingernails. Amelia watched him and giggled.

He asked “You like my new knife?” She said “Yes, it looks very neat.”

Cade then said “I have a surprise for you later. I think you will like it.” Amelia smiled from ear to ear, and then grabbed his shirt and wildly kissed him.

Cade took his Realistic Patrolman Mini radio from behind his seat and said, “I have a radio too and I can tune in the boat captains, bridge tenders and deckhands talking to each other on it.”

“That’s neat, my Flavoradio only gets AM, but there’s lot’s of good music on there.”

They sat there for a a few hours, both flirting and touching each other with affection. Amelia then fell asleep in Cade’s lap to the chatter of captains, bridge tenders and deckhands. She rested for a few hours. The whole while Amelia was sleeping Cade massaged her and kissed her.

When she woke up she looked up at him and said “Wow, I thought it was a dream. This is better than any dream.” She paused then said “Now I am feeling very frisky.”

Once again, the western side of the sky was getting blue. Just as Amelia wrapped her legs around Cade, there was a bright flash of lightning followed by a loud and disturbing thunder.

“Durn it, looks like another storm is moving in.” Cade said

“Where will we go now?” Amelia asked.

He opened his truck door for her and she stepped in “We can head back to Checker. There is a storm shelter on my family’s property. It used to be a bomb shelter but now we use it for weather like this. It’s dark and cramped in there but at least it is safe and private. We should go there.” He paused and then said, blushing “I’ll only take you there, if you want to.”

“Sure, I think it would be a good idea if we could go somewhere we would be alone.” Amelia said as she winked and shook her dress playfully. They were both feeling extremely lustful towards each other, when Cade’s truck radio sounded an alert tone for a tornado watch.

Amelia, now frightened said “Yes, I definitely want to go there. I want to be safe from this weather.”

“Your wish is my command.” Cade said, and with that pounded the accelerator pedal they drove back to Checker as fast as possible. In a short while they made it back to the property and then to the entrance of the shelter.

It was a small building embedded in a hill. The shelter had only been used when there was the threat of stormy weather and when the family had the ability to get to it in time. Cade parked his truck then reached in his glove box for his 3 Cell Kel Lite flashlight and turned it on. He then escorted Amelia into the shelter, as the winds were starting to pick up. He pointed the flashlight at the steps, so they could see through the dark pathway that led to the main room. Cade figured that his aunt’s children were all in school and would probably be kept there until the weather had passed. He knew his dad would be working in his office which was in the very center of the building. He then figured that his aunt and her employees would go in the stockroom of the diner which was also the safest place to be. He walked back to the entrance and pulled the keys out of his pocket. He locked the entrance door behind him, and walked back down to the main room. There was a Realistic Weatheradio 5, a first aid kit, a mattress with blankets, and a box of Radio Shack batteries and flashlight bulbs. For food there were gallon jugs of water, and crates of military surplus chocolate bars. By the light of the Cade’s flashlight and Amelia’s penlight they sat down on the mattress.

Amelia smiled with mischief and lust as she said, “You know Cade, we can have plenty of fun in here.” She then blushed

Cade asked, with a shaky voice, “You mean we can make love to each other?”

Amelia replied “Well of course! What did you think we would do?” She paused then said “Now, why don’t you come a little closer!” Amelia motioned for Cade to come. He hadn’t fully approached her, when she leaned over grabbed and kissed him, as she said “Whatever we we do in here, no one will ever know!” Cade, who was now lustfully turned on, but also anxious, said “I am a virgin. Are you as well?”

There was then an awkward silence.

Cade then apologized “Sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

Amelia replied “Yes, except for my fingers that is. A girl needs some release.”

“Well in that case, my thumb and fingers deflowered me a long time ago.” Cade replied, then continued, “if we do become intimate, I still want you tomorrow and in fact every day after that until the end of time. I hope that’s what you want.”

“Yes, I want that as well. You’re cute and you have a wonderful heart,” Amelia replied, lovingly.

Cade humbly stated, then continued, “Maybe it’s your potion talking, but I desire your body intensely right now!”

Amelia said, as she lifted her pink sun dress at him, while saying, “Good, because I know you’ve been wanting to see under my dress all day. Don’t think I haven’t noticed. Here’s your chance.” She then pulled him on top of her and wrapped her legs around him She then spoke “Take me, Cade. Now!”

Cade replied, “I am a little nervous.”

Amelia said, “Don’t worry, we’ll get through this together.”

Cade then said, “Well I am ready then.”

At last they commenced in lovemaking.

After they felt the bursting of release, Amelia rubbed Cade’s chest and asked “Can we really be together forever?”

“We can and as far as I am concerned; we will!” Cade said, then continued, “I had the word forever about to be spoken myself, but did not want to repel you from me.”

Amelia replied, with her heart on her sleeve, ” Well I love you, Cade, and I hope you are not repelled by that.”

Cade said “Love was on the tip of my tongue as well and I am so happy that your feelings are the same as mine.” Amelia then kissed him.

Cade got dressed and stepped out, to check the weather. It was still pouring down raining. He then made his way back into the shelter by the light of his flashlight, to see through the pathway.

He stared at Amelia for a moment then said “My God, you are beautiful, Amelia.” They sat down on the mattress and began talking; Cade asked “How are we going to be together?”

Amelia then answered him “I don’t know but our love will find a way.”

He asked her, “You really think so?”

“I know so,” Amelia answered then continued “For my entire life, I wanted someone like you. Now that I have found you, I filled with bliss!” There was another awkward silence, then Amelia asked “How’s the weather.”

“The sky is still dark, and it is raining hard I think we should stay in here for right now.”

Amelia then said “Maybe we can spend the evening together, I don’t have to be at work until seven tomorrow morning.”

Cade looked at his Micronta watch then said “It’s one in the afternoon, let me tune in the weather forecast on the radio.” Amelia nodded. Cade turned the radio on, but heard nothing but static. He stood on top of the mattress and held the radio up to the ceiling. There was much static, but he heard the meteorologist coming in. “There is severe weather moving through the Checker and Native Crossing areas, from the west. Expect strong thunderstorms for the rest of the afternoon and all night long. We are also under a tornado watch until midnight. Stayed tuned for more updates on this weather station.”

Cade then asked “Do you want to stay here or go into the house?”

Amelia replied “Let’s stay here, for in case there is a tornado, they are very common this time of year. Besides if Helen sees us walking into the house together, she will get very suspicious.”

Cade replied “You’re right, we’re be better off in here.” Cade paused then asked “So how were you able to come up with potions like that? They obviously work, just look at what happened.”

Amelia replied “Well, I have been experimenting with botanicals and natural medicine since I was 16. I have read many volumes on the subject. In fact, that’s what made me want to be a gardener, so I could harvest the plants to make my potions.”

“That is awesome, especially that love potion. I never felt so passionate.” He paused then said “All that love making made me hungry, especially since we weren’t able to eat much of our breakfast, and no lunch. I have some food in here, it’s not the best though.” Cade said, and continued “But it should give us energy to sustain us. Would you like some chocolate?”

Amelia nodded then said “Most definitely, if we mix chocolate with my love potion, imagine the passionate intimacy we will experience.”

Cade said “That’s very true.” He paused then continued “Well, say no more, I will get us some chocolate.” Cade reached into a dark corner, by the light of his flashlight and reached into the crate for two bars. Suddenly he heard a hissing sound and then a painful grip on his arm. He looked at his arm and saw two puncture wounds. It was now burning. “Dang it, a snake just bit me.” He screamed in pain.

Amelia asked “Is there anything to kill it with?” Cade was shrieking in pain and then said “Get my Kel Lite, I am going to beat it to death.” Amelia ran to the door, retrieved the long flashlight and handed it to Cade. With the aid of his flashlight in his right he searched around the room. Finally he spotted the snake “Die, you miserable creature!” He screamed then struck the snake’s midsection. There was an angry hiss from the snake that was immobilized and bleeding. Cade then smashed the snake’s throat just below the head with the tail end of his KeL Lite.

“Get a drinking cup and the snakes head, I can heal you.” Amelia said. Cade took his new pocket knife and cut off the snakes head. He then handed it to Amelia. She took her penlight and examined his wound. “It’s not that deep, but I will make an antidote for you just in case any venom was injected into you.” Cade began to have chills and blurred vision. His arm burned horribly also. Amelia hurriedly took the cup and searched into her backpack for an antidote potion. She then opened a jug of water and poured it into the mixture as she said, “Here drink this.”

Cade immediately drank the mixture, in one gulp. Amelia then said “Now you just rest, Cade. I will take care of you.” Amelia said, as she rested his head into her lap. She felt his head and spoke “Oh, you have a terrible fever, but that is your body killing off the venom proteins. The potion should do the trick in time.”

“You are truly a life saver, Amelia, I know before this happened I said I want you forever, but you saving my life confirms this feeling that much more. I owe my life to you and I will be your husband as soon as I am better.” Cade said as he breathed hard.

Amelia rubbed his face and spoke, “Just rest now, you will get better in time.” He smiled and nestled his head in her legs.

She kissed his forehead and said “I will take good care of you, and when you are better, I am going to make wonderful love to you again.” Cade smiled up at her.

Hours passed.

Amelia felt Cade’s forehead and spoke gently, “Your fever is going down, let me check your eyes.” She took her Eveready penlight then said, “Your pupils are looking normal. Looks like my potion is working.”

Cade looked up at Amelia, then said “I have my dad to thank for selling me that Kel Lite at a discount price.”

“Well I normally don’t like weapons,” Amelia said and continued “I am a healer, or at least I would like to think of myself as one. But I guess I can see a purpose for them.”

Cade said, “You are a healer in my book, you saved my life and I am in debt to you. I will give you anything I can afford.”

Amelia smiled and asked, “Do you still want to get married?”

Cade replied, “More than ever, are you sure that’s all you want?”

Amelia nodded and said, “As long as you promise to love and cherish me for the rest of your life.”

Cade smiled and said, “It is done, and believe me I will give you that and much more.” Cade reached into his pocket and handed Amelia the watch.

“Oh Cade, it’s beautiful,” She said.

Cade replied, “And that’s just the beginning if we are to get married.”

Amelia smiled and kissed him, then said, “You rest.”

He fell asleep in her arms and she watched him through the night, looking at her new timepiece and counting the hours. Finally it was the hour of three A.M. She woke Cade up kissing him on the forehead. Cade arose and Amelia asked him, “How do you feel?”

Cade answered, “Like a million dollars. Those drugs you gave me really worked.”

Amelia smiled and asked, “Are you still serious about marrying me?”

Cade replied, “I am serious as the complications I would have had from that snake bite had you not healed me.” She smiled and kissed him.

There was a silence for a moment then Amelia asked, “You think you’re able to drive?”

Cade replied, “I don’t see why not.”

Amelia then said, “Well, can you take me to the property line, so I can go back to work? I want to be back at Ms. Helen’s, under the cover of darkness so she does not get suspicious.”

Cade replied, “Your wish is my command.” With that they exited the shelter. By the light of their flashlights, they walked to Cade’s truck. There was a dampness in the early morning air, as they stepped into the truck. Cade said “I am going to miss you so much. How did Shakespeare say it? Parting is such sweet sorrow?!”

Amelia smiled and said “It’s only for a little while. I cannot wait until the next time I am in your arms.” She leaned over, grabbed and kissed him. Sadly, they drove back to the house. The sun had not yet come up when Amelia said “Cade, I have to go now, so I can get home without Ms. Helen knowing anything.” She gave him a long passionate kiss, then said “I cannot wait to see you again though.”

Cade asked “Can I see you later today?”

Amelia replied “I will try to work next to the property line again, just look for me.” They kissed once again then Amelia said “You rest for a while, go lay down in the house.” They then departed as Amelia blew Cade a kiss.

Cade unlocked the house then went lay down in the bedroom. He turned on the bedside radio and listened to the weather report. The meteorologist said “There will be hot temperatures and high humidity all through the day. Be prepared for possible heat generated thunderstorms in the mid-to-late afternoon. For tonight warm and muggy.” After listening to the weather report Cade turned off his radio then set the alarm on his Micronta watch for nine and went to sleep. Cade fell asleep and dreamed many dreams about Amelia. He woke up at nine in the morning to the buzzing of his watch alarm. He then got dressed, and walked to the telephone on the wall, to call up his dad. He dialed the number

His dad picked up, “Jennings Supply. Van Jennings here.”

Cade replied, “Hey it’s me. I am almost done with the fence. I stayed overnight on the property.”

“Alright, that is fine,” His dad replied.

Cade continued, “I met a young lady, whilst fixing the fence. She is a gardener for Ms. Helen. I guess I’ll just say the truth: I spent the evening with her.”

His dad said, sternly, “Well, you know you had better be prepared to marry her then.”

Cade replied “Yes, I know. She already wants to.”

There was a silence on the phone, then Cade said “I have another story to tell you.”

He paused then continued, “We spent the night in the shelter. I was bit by a copperhead in there. She healed me and saved my life. She knows to how create natural medicines from plant extracts, and thank God she had an antidote potion in her backpack. She cured my snakebite.”

Cade’s dad replied, “I want to meet this girl. We will definitely do something for her, as a reward for saving your life.”

“Could it be something that takes her away from Helen Williams? She hates working for that horrible woman, and if she is going to marry me she will be fired. Worst of all if she gets fired she will be thrown out of her dwelling on Ms. Helen’s property.”

His dad then replied, “I’ll see what I can do, and what the rest of the family is willing to do. Until then, you finish fixing up the fence and if there’s anything else that needs to be repaired you tend to that as well. I have a lot of paperwork to catch up on.”

“Will do,” Cade said and they both hung up the phone.

Cade prepared his breakfast, ate, then continued working on the fence. The weather was just as the meteorologist predicted. While in the middle of repairing the fence, he needed to get some more U-Shaped fasteners from the shed. He walked in to see the work bench soaking wet. “There must have been a leak in the roof.” He said to himself with disgust. All of the hand tools were full of oxidation, many of them were antiques. All were ruined; screwdrivers, hammers, wrenches, sockets, ratchets, nails, wood screws, files, and sickles. Even the U fasteners he was looking for were encrusated with oxidation. All of the electrical tools were also soaking wet and ruined too. He cussed and kicked the wall of the shed “Durn it and dang it and son of a gun! Those tools have been in my family for generations. Now one stupid storm damages the shed roof, rain leaks in and they are all ruined. He took a rag, and wiped all of the water off of them. He then located the can of used oil and tried his best to coat them. After oiling the rusted implements, he brought them into the utility room of the old house and set them down. He then went back to the tool shed and cut off all of the breakers on the electrical box. While in there, he heard arguing. It was coming from Helen’s property. Instantly he placed the tools in his truck then drove to the property line to listen, because he had heard both Helen’s and Amelia’s voices.

Ms. Helen was reprimanding Amelia with anger, “People all over town are gossiping about how you and Cade Jennings were sitting in the diner, talking about aphrodisiacs. They are even saying that you and Cade mixed them in your drinks. Is this true?”

Cade stepped out from his eavesdropping and said “What if it were true? I am so fed up with all this small town gossip. Why should she be punished because of something I convinced her to do. It was my idea to drink her potion.”

Ms. Helen adjusted her glasses and looked sternly at Cade, as she spoke, “So it’s you that did this? I would have thought much better of you, Cade. You come from a family of upright people and then you go and do this? I am very disappointed in you.” She paused and then spoke to Amelia “And you, if you want to work for me and have your affordable housing, you better stop this filthy behavior right now.” She then told Amelia, dismissively “Now get back to work. And Cade you mind your own business.”

Cade replied, “Tell all those other nosy small town people with nothing better to do, that they should do the same.”

“Why should they?” Helen asked with anger and continued “If you are not doing anything wrong you should have nothing to hide.” Helen paused, then said “If anyone is doing something shameful, then he or she should and will be shunned. That way it will deter people from doing all things questionable.”

Cade who was now irritated once again said “Well what if everyone knew how you were illegally renting out rooms on your property? Don’t act so self-righteous.”

Ms. Helen grew very angry and agitated, “Shut your mouth young man. Didn’t your parents teach you not to question your elders?”

Quick-witted, Cade replied “Well didn’t yours teach you that honesty is the right thing to do? The way you treat your workers is very dishonest!”

“How would you know how I treat my workers?” Ms. Helen asked with great irritation.

Cade replied “It’s the talk of the town. Isn’t it something how you say that everyone should know if someone is doing something questionable.”

Ms. Helen was speechless.

Amelia smiled brightly at Cade.

Finally Ms. Helen broke the silence and said, “Cade, I am highly offended by your disrespect, but I don’t have the time to argue with you. Your parents are going to hear about that mouth you have, rest assured.” She looked at Amelia, then said “Come with me now, you have been standing here, not working all the time Cade and I were arguing. I am going to dock your pay.”

Amelia reluctantly followed from a slight distance, but turned around to look at Cade. She blew him a kiss, discreetly lifted her white sundress at him and then silently said “I love you Cade.” He read her lips and then spoke silently “I love you too, Amelia.” He then blew her a kiss.

He went back to working on the fence, with the few U Fasteners he could salvage. He felt quite proud of himself for telling that hateful old woman off. However, Cade felt worried for Amelia. He was very concerned that she was probably on the brink of losing her job. He knew of his dad’s strong suggestion for him to marry Amelia. The problem was that they would not have a place to stay. All the while he worked on the fence, until he was finished. He decided to stay the night on the property, and for the rest the weekend as well. After picking up the equipment from repairing the fence, Cade walked into the old house. He retrieved the Eveready screw top lantern and switched it on. He did it as a joke to himself, thinking the battery would be dead. He then was very surprised to see the light come right on. Cade grabbed a sickle and a file to sharpen it. When it was razor sharp, he placed it in the back of his truck. Then put the screw top lantern on the floor board of his truck and drove down to the storm shelter.

“Payback time!” He said to himself.

With his Kel Lite under his arm, screw top lantern in one hand and sickle in the other, he entered the shelter. He made it down to the main room and set the light down in the middle. With his tough leather boots on, and both the weapons in his hands, he began to kick all around the boxes and corners. He heard hissing and rattling. He could see a medium sized rattlesnake crawling across the floor. Immediately he hacked it in half then stomped on the head.

“I’m going to show those durn belly crawlers who owns this building, my family not them!” He said with an arrogant anger. He then kicked around a space between two boxes in a corner. He heard a very loud rattle. He backed up, and shined the light, which revealed a giant rattler. He swung down as hard as he could with the sickle striking it in the spine, then hacked it to pieces. There was another snake, this time a Coral. Cade made it his business to kill this one. Quickly, he chased it, then when it was cornered it. Quickly, he struck the snake’s head with his blade, then hacked it to pieces. After killing snakes, he picked up what was left of their bodies, and set them in an ice chest on the bed of his truck.

He went back into the house and dialed up his dad who answered, “Jennings Supply. Van Jennings here.”

Cade replied, “Dad I have some good news and some bad news.”

His dad then said, “Well, tell me the bad news first.”

Cade replied, “The storm shelter is snake infested and the tool shed’s roof was leaking. All of those antique tools in there were ruined.”

His dad then asked “Well, what’s the good news?” Cade replied “The fence is fixed.” His dad said “Well I want you to fix the roof of the shed. Any insurance money I get from those tools will be given to you and Amelia. I have also been considering giving that house to you and Amelia, if your aunt is all right with that. I wanted to give it to you, since you always like to be there and because you work hard. I figure you can fix it up with the insurance money.”

Cade then said “Well that would be awesome.” He paused then said “Are you sure, I know that house has sentimental value to you and Aunt Margie.”

His dad then replied, “We both have homes of our own, and if you will be getting married, you need a place of your own. The Lord commands it.”

Cade then asked “What could I do to repay you.”

His dad answered, “Always work hard, and do your best. Marry Amelia to get it right with the Lord. And gosh durn it, give me some grand children, I didn’t think you would ever give me any, now there’s hope for that.” His dad paused then said, “Now Cade, I have to go. I still have a lot of paperwork to file.”

Cade said “Well thank you, dad. I will try my best to make your proud.”

After hanging up, Cade feverishly worked to repair the roof of the shed, then went to the general store for mothballs. He charged them to the Jennings Supply account.

After the transaction was completed he placed them all around the shelter.

He searched all the rooms for snakes and killed several more.

Cade and Amelia would secretly meet at times throughout the days, usually before dawn or after dusk.

Amelia’s next day off was that Sunday. Cade heard at knock at the door as he way lying on the sofa listening to a Realistic Pocket Weather Radio.

The meterologist stated, “A severe thunderstorm will affect Checker and the surrounding area in about ten minutes.

He answered it and beheld Amelia, with her backpack. She smiled at him and asked, “Could I come in?”

Cade replied, “As if you even have to ask. Come right in. A storm is coming anyway.” She smiled even more and walked inside. Cade continued, “Well I have good news for you. “I talked to my dad about what happened with us in the shelter.” Amelia got nervous and began to shake.

Immediately Cade said, “No, don’t worry. He is not mad at us or anything. In fact he said that we need to get married, because of what we did. Furthermore he commanded me to give him some grandchildren.”

Amelia smiled as she said, “Well that is wonderful, it is what I wanted, and what you promised me.” She paused then said “But what about my job.”

Cade replied to her, “Well, I have more good news; I told my dad how you healed my snakebite and saved my life. He also feels in debt to you, and is willing to give you something of value. I suggested to him that it should be something to get you away from Ms. Helen.”

Amelia then asked, “How do you know that you can get me away from that witch?”

Cade replied “Well, my dad wants us to have this old house.”

Amelia kissed Cade, then asked “What would you like to do?”

Cade replied “What do you think?”

Cade made love to Amelia until she collapsed with pleasure on top of him. There they became intimate once again, with a bursting of release just as the lightning flashed and the thunder sounded. They cuddled on the couch for an hour, holding each other completely naked, passionately kissing and petting.

There was a knock at the door, suddenly, Cade asked, shouting “Who’s here?”

It was Ms. Helen as she spoke, “Who do you think it is?”

Cade whispered to Amelia, “Take your clothes and go hide in the bathroom.” She nodded in fear and went hide. Cade put on his trousers and his undershirt, and opened the door. Immediately Ms. Helen barged in through the doorway and into the house.

Cade demanded, “Hey what do you think you are doing? I didn’t give you permission to enter in here.”

“Shut your mouth, your just a little fledgling out of the nest, I don’t need permission from you to do anything.”

Cade, walking to the phone on the wall, warned, “If you don’t leave now, I will call the sheriff’s department.”

Ms. Helen, even more angered, “How dare you! Just try it. I personally know the sheriff and his deputies won’t dare do me anything.”

Cade, basically out of options asked her “What do you want from me?”

Ms. Helen replied, “First of all, I want you to lose that disrespectful attitude you have. Then I want to know where Amelia is.”

Cade once again angered said, “Its her day off. What do you want with her?”

Ms. Helen replied with great irritation, “Don’t question me, she is my worker and this doesn’t concern you. Anyway, how would you know it’s her day off?” She paused then continued “What’s that musty odor in here? It smells like you have been screwing in here. That’s why you took so long to answer the door. Amelia is in here, isn’t she? And you are fornicating with her, aren’t you?”

Cade reached in the nightstand drawer for his granddad’s old Peacemaker revolver. He pulled the hammer back pointed it at her and then said, “Get your old, ugly behind out of here now! You are not welcome here ever again!”

Ms. Helen left. As she exited she said “Mark my words, this isn’t over. You can tell Amelia she is fired, for being such an ungrateful little whore.” She stormed out of the door, slamming it behind her. Cade watched her leave the property, then knocked on the bathroom door.

Amelia asked “Cade is that you?” “Yes Amelia, it’s me. Get dressed and come out, we have some trouble.”

Amelia, who was already dressed stepped out of the bathroom and asked “What’s the matter?”

Cade replied, “Ms. Helen has decided to fire you.”

Amelia asked in distress, “What? Why? I did nothing. At least nothing that she knows of.”

Cade then said, “She could smell your girly scent in the room, after she barged into the house. I guess that was enough proof for her to know that we are fornicating.”

“Well how did you convince her to leave?” Amelia asked.

Cade replied “My granddad’s old Peacemaker scared her off nicely.”

Amelia laughed, slightly, but then was overcome with anxiety. She asked Cade “Where will I stay now?”

Cade answered, “I think we should go talk to my dad, and see what he can do for us.” Amelia nodded.

Cade continued, “We can go talk to him right now, if you want. He is off today, and this is his only day off.” Cade paused then said “I’ll only take you to meet my family if you want me to.”

Amelia replied “Yes, let’s go. I only hope that they help us.”

Cade reassured her, “Well the fact that we have fornicated, they will definitely want us to get married. Furthermore, you saved my life, I don’t think they will forget that.”

Amelia smiled and nodded.

“Let’s just wait for this storm to pass,” Cade said.

“I would make love to you again, but I’m very shook up,” Amelia said sheepishly.

Cade turned on the Realistic Pocket Weatheradio again and they listened.

Finally they had heard of how the severe weather warnings had expired.

With that Cade grabbed his keys, they walked to his truck and drove to his dad’s house.

Cade drove his truck up the gravel road.

Amelia said “I am so nervous, I hope your dad approves of me.”

Cade replied “He strongly wants us to marry. He even said he wanted grandchildren from us.” Cade paused and then said “Just act proper, and he will like you very much. My dad obviously already knows we have been intimate. That is why he wants us to marry.”

Cade parked in the driveway, and escorted Amelia out of the truck. He knocked on his dad’s door, and was greeted immediately. Cade’s dad motioned for them to come in. Both Cade and Amelia sat down on the dining room table as Van talked to them. He said “Well, she sure is a pretty young lady, Cade.”

Amelia blushed and said, “Thank you Mr. Jennings.”

Cade’s dad replied “I’m old but not that old. Call me Mr. Van.”

Amelia smiled and nodded her head. Cade’s dad then said “Now, in all seriousness, I think it is urgent that you two marry as soon as possible. I want your relationship to be right in the eyes of the Lord.”

Both nodded.

Van continued “Now I am going to have to call Aunt Margie over, so we will all be in agreement over who gets what on the property.” Mr. Van called his sister on the phone, and immediately she came over.

She opened the door, and said, “Well hello again Amelia. It’s good to see you again.”

She then faced towards Van and said, “All right, I understand that they want to be given the old house. I am fine with that. I would like my three kids to have the unoccupied land adjacent to that house.” She paused then continued, “I also want you to build their houses when the time is right. You’re a very good worker.” Cade smiled and said “Wow, that’s it?” Both his dad and his aunt nodded. His aunt then said, “I want all of us to have access to the storm shelter.”

Cade replied, “Well of course.” He paused then continued “Well speaking of the storm shelter, I had to treat it, because it was crawling with snakes, and at this time of the year we will need it the most.”

Both nodded.

Amelia then spoke “I have just been fired by Helen Williams. And the fact that I am marrying will not allow me to ever get my job back.”

Cade interjected, “Don’t worry about working, I will support you.”

“Well I am expecting that. You’ve got a durn good young lady here who saved your skin and you need to love her and cherish her for the rest of your life!” Van interrupted.

Amelia then continued “Helen Williams will be next door to us. She will probably cause us a lot of misery.”

Cade said, “Yes that is true, I was just talking to a deputy about that situation, and he told me his hands are tied from dealing with her because his boss has been accepting bribes from that wretched woman.”

“Oh really. Is that so?” Margie said with irritation, then continued “Well, I can put an end to that. I will tell the sheriff that neither he nor any of his deputies will never eat for free ever again at my diner. At least not until this is resolved.”

Cade’s dad then said “Well, I have been supplying the sheriff’s department with all kinds of gear at a great discount. Unless he deals with Helen Williams, I will charge him full retail price, plus an extra 25%. We will see if Helen Williams can carry on like she does.”

Amelia then said “She is also renting out rooms illegally on her property and she exposes her workers to all sorts of danger. She also pays very unfair wages.”

Cade’s aunt said “Well again, until she is fined or disciplined, I will not give any member of our Sheriff’s Department free food anymore.”

Van then said “Likewise for me supplying them at discount, now, Cade; I want you to get your stuff together. Since you two will move into that house; I want you to get married, pronto!”

Amelia looked at Cade with lust as she said “Could we do it tomorrow, and just go to the Justice of the Peace? I can’t take another day away from him.”

Cade kissed her and then said “It’s fine by me, Amelia. I too don’t know how I will be able to control myself.”

“Good, that’s what I wanted to hear,” Van said then continued “I want both of you to love each other, but make it right in God’s eyes.”

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If you were to die right now, where would you go?

Think, as if your life depended on it, if you were to die right now, do you know where you would go?

There is a way that you can know for certain that you will make it to Heaven when you die, but the choice is ultimately yours and I cannot make that choice for you.

Only you can make that choice.

Not everyone will make it to Heaven.

Our sins prevent us from making it to Heaven.

We as human beings are very sinful creatures and The Bible clearly states in the Book of Romans Chapter 3, Verse 23: “23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” It says ALL. That means you and me and anyone else who has ever lived.

The only alternative to Heaven is hell. It is a horrible place of eternal unceasing torment.

No matter how many good deeds we do, we cannot earn our way into Heaven and thus we all deserve to go to hell.

I know it must seem hopeless at this point, but there is Good News and Hope!

The Bible also states in the Book of Romans Chapter 6 Verse 23: “23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Going to Heaven is a FREE gift from God, purchased by the sacrificial suffering and death of His only Son, Jesus Christ. It cannot be purchased or earned any other way. Not only is going to Heaven part of this gift, but God will also meet all of you earthly needs.

So how must you receive this gift?

Jesus Christ clearly stated and it is recorded in the Bible in the Book of John, Chapter 3 Verse 3: “3 Jesus answered and said to him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.”

You MUST be born again…There is no other way.

Jesus Christ also stated and it is also recorded in the Bible in the Book of John, Chapter 14, Verse 6: “6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.”

How then can one be Born Again and Come to the Father through Jesus?

Well, the Bible clearly states how in the Book of Romans, Chapter 10, Verses 9 through 11: “9 that if you confess with your mouth Jesus [as] Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; 10 for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, “WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED.”

Believe on Jesus. Recognize that you are a sinner, you have offended God and deserve hell. But equally importantly realize that God loves you and doesn’t want you or anyone else to go to hell. That is why He sent Jesus to take your punishment and my punishment and what took Him three hours to pay for our sins in full, would take us an eternity to pay for our sins but they would never get paid. Confess Jesus Christ as your Lord and believe with all your heart that God raised Him from the dead and trust in Him and only Him as the provider of your entry into Heaven. Do not put your trust in your good deeds or your money or your family or your church or anything else aside from what Jesus Christ did for you and me and all of humanity! Surrender your heart to Him and He will gladly take you in!

That above is how one becomes born again and that is how one comes to the Father through Jesus Christ.

When one becomes born again, he or she will receive The Holy Ghost immediately and The Holy Ghost will allow and compel that person to live for Christ, but that person needs to continuously yield to The Holy Ghost moving on his/her heart. This is the mission and desire of Jesus Christ and is stated so in the Bible in the Book of 2 Corinthians Chapter 5, Verse 15: “15 and He died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf.”

My current pastor frequently tells us that we don’t have to clean up our lives in order to come to Jesus and that He will take us just as we are, but once He takes us in, we will begin to have a desire to clean up our lives especially the more we yield to The Holy Ghost moving on our hearts! He will cause you to want to repent of your sins through His loving conviction and you will have more success in repentance and victory over your sins by yielding more and more to Him!

Just know that you will sin again, as long as you live on this earth you will still sin at some point or another but if you genuinely come to Jesus, all of your sins, past present and future will be totally forgiven!

Jesus Christ is knocking on the door of your heart and I know it. How do I know it? Because of the fact that you are still reading this! Furthermore, Jesus says how he wants to enter your heart and the Bible records Him saying so in the Book of Revelation, Chapter 3, Verse 20: “20 ‘Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me.”

Will you open the door to Jesus?

Will you let Him in?

This is the MOST important decision you will ever make and it will affect your eternal destiny and position.

I cannot make this decision for you.

Only you can.

Please choose Jesus.

If you do indeed want Jesus to save you, just talk to Him like you would talk to your best friend or a good, loving spouse. Let Him know that you know you are a sinner and you are sorry for offending Him with your sinful choices and that you know He is willing to forgive all your sins. Ask Him to forgive you and to rule your life from this point on. Ask Him to come into your heart.

If you do this earnestly and genuinely, you should feel as if the biggest burden was totally lifted off of you and you have been set free. That is exactly what happened to me in July of 2004 and it was the best choice I ever made!

If you did indeed choose Jesus and have surrendered your heart to Him, let me say Praise God and Congratulations! Now, the next step is to find a Bible believing church to join where you will be around people who will help you grow in Christ and encourage you in your walk with Him.

The other thing to do is to tell others what you have learned and what Jesus has done and is doing for you…

A Review of the Realistic (Radio Shack®) Pro-32 Handheld Programmable Scanner Radio

I am a very sentimental person.

I also frequently think about what technology was like around the time I came into this world (especially radio and computer technology.)

Because of that, for years, I had wanted to own a Realistic (Radio Shack®) Pro-32 scanner.

Why?

Because it was put on the market in 1987, the same year I was born.

In 1987 this was Radio Shack’s premium handheld scanner. It retailed for $299.99 (which would be the equivalent of $674.84 in 2019 Dollars.) I bought mine second hand but in very good condition with the original box and paper work for $25 even (more on that in a bit.)

The Pro-32 runs on 6 AA Alkaline or Rechargeable (NiCad/NiMH) batteries. It also uses three watch batteries to power what was a vast memory (200 Bank+10 Monitor Channels) in 1987. The Frequency ranges it covers are:
30-54 MHz FM
108-136 MHz AM
138-174 MHz FM
AND
380-512 MHz FM

This scanner must have been a failure, because it was only featured in the Radio Shack Catalogs from 1987 to 1988.

In 1989, a significantly more sophisticated model was put on the market, the Pro-34. This better scanner also ran on 6 AA batteries, but did not require watch batteries for the memory. In addition to what the Pro-32 received, the Pro-34 had more frequency ranges:
806-823 MHz FM
857-868 MHz FM
AND
896-906 MHz FM

Many police, fire and EMS services as well as some bigger businesses would begin to migrate to 800 MHz in the 1990s.

The Pro-34 costed slightly more at $329.99 ($680.07 in 2019 Dollars)

What I find amusing though, is the Pro-32 seems to be the direct ancestor of several entry level scanner radios such as:

The Radio Shack Pro-79, which came out 15 years later in 2002 and is more power efficient (runs on 4 AA batteries instead of 6 and the memory is flash based instead of requiring those watch batteries) and costed $99.99 ($142.04 in 2019 Dollars.)

The Radio Shack Pro-82, which came out 16 years later in 2003 and has the features of the Pro-79 in addition to push button dedicated searches for certain radio services and costed between $79.99-$99.99 ($111.09-$138.87 in 2019 Dollars.)

The Radio Shack Pro-404, which came out 22 years later in 2009 has all the features of the Pro-82 in addition to a Signal Stalker/Spectrum Sweeper and PC programmable features and also costed $79.99-$99.99 ($95.28-$119.10 in 2019 Dollars.)

The Radio Shack Pro 649 which came out about 27 years later in 2014 and is almost a younger clone of the Pro-404, but can tune in more narrow frequency steps on certain bands and costed $99.99 ($107.94 in 2019 Dollars.)

The closest modern equivalent to it is the Whistler WS-1010, which came out 31 years or so in 2018 or so and has all the features of the Pro 649 but double the memory and costs between $79.99-$119.99 ($81.40-$122.11 in 2019 Dollars.)

I had checked on eBay quite a few times trying to buy this scanner, but there was always a problem purchasing it.

A few weeks ago, I had tried for the final time, when my transaction didn’t go through. Within seconds of the failed transaction, The Good Lord Himself told me stop and wait because I would be purchasing one at Ham Vention 2019 in Ohio.

I’m beginning to learn to obey Him and this time, I did just that.

And do you, the reader, know what?

The Pro-32 scanner I bought a Ham Vention was in much better condition and cheaper than any of the ones selling on eBay!

Any Christian (but only a Christian) is a child of the One True God. And God is a passionate loving Father who wants only the best for His children. This is a very small but still valid example of that.

By the way, this particular scanner is not very common. Case in point: It is vintage and it wasn’t in production very long. That means there probably aren’t too many in existence anymore. It would have taken basically an act of God for one to be available at the flea market, for me to see it there because the flea market is the size of a horse track and covered entirely with vendors and for no one else to purchase it. So the fact that God Himself told me I would be purchasing one at the Ham Vention flea market, strengthens my faith in Him and my walk with Him and it should be good testimony for believers and non believers alike!

I was planning to go to Ham Vention to purchase gently used flashlights and calculators in the flea market anyway, like I did last year.

I am indeed a ham and in fact, I do hold a General Class license.

Those of you whom were forwarded to my blog from Q R Zed already know this, but I don’t like to give out my call sign.

I’m not too active on the radio, because of where I currently live.

My lease forbids any sort of transmitting antennas and neither do I want to interfere with any of my neighbors’ electronics, because I tend to enjoy peace and detest drama.

So for that reason, I basically stay on 2 Meters and 440 with low power portable radios and usually only during emergencies.

I do all my HF, high powered long antenna activities at a friend’s house with his equipment.

So why besides it being as old as me would I want a Radio Shack Pro-32?

I mean, compared to the modern scanners: It is bulky as a brick in size and weight. It is power hungry as a starving pit bull in a butcher. It is slower than molasses in the dead of winter when it comes to scan and search speed. It is analog only which makes it obsolete, at least partially. And the coverage is limited.

Yes, that is all very true.

…BUT…

I find that for what I listen to most which is railroad and marine traffic, older scanners are far more sensitive than their modern counterparts. They clearly pull in signals from farther away that most modern scanners cannot even detect. Japanese electronics, which this particular scanner was made in Japan, seem to overwhelmingly outperform their Chinese and Vietnamese made descendants in ways where performance truly counts.

I interpreted the date code (5A7) to mean this particular unit was made in May of 1987. That means it was made thirty two years ago this month (the same month I bought it)!

What amuses and amazes me the most is that the model number is 32, I am 32 (at the time of writing this) and it is also 32! God definitely has His hand in this!

This concludes my review on the Radio Shack Pro-32.

I would like to thank and cite Radio Shack Catalogs for the picture (which I do not own) and the technical details.

I hope you the reader have been informed and entertained by this piece. Thank you for taking the time of reading and may God richly bless you!

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Love Among Terrorism

It’s a quiet Friday evening.

I sit alone in my apartment eating white beans and rice seasoned with Jalapeno peppers soaking in white vinegar.

Who knew such a cheap meal could taste so good?

After I take my last bite, I clear my table and walk to the kitchen sink to wash dishes.

I pour some dish detergent in the basin and draw the hot water.

As I wash the pots, plates, and utensils, I think about my wonderful girlfriend and how she and I will spend the day together tomorrow.

I am 31 and she is 27, but we pretend that she is 17 and I am 21.

She brightens up my otherwise sad life and I thank God for her and only wish that we would have met much sooner.

Suddenly, I hear a very loud sound, as if large a bomb went off. My whole apartment vibrates.

I look out from my second story kitchen window to see a giant fireball against the night sky.

There must have been some kind of an explosion at the tank barge terminal.

I passed through this area on a daily basis for years, to attend school and work never once thinking that the whole place could go up in flames.

It wasn’t until I began drawing disability and moved into the apartment complex adjacent to the tank farms that the thought of an explosion crossed my mind.

I watch the flames light up the sky.

Suddenly, the weather radio in my kitchen sounds its siren.

I touch the screen so I can hear the broadcast.

My thoughts and fears are confirmed there was an explosion at the tank barge terminal.

I walk into my living room, adjust my antenna and switch my television set on.

I tune it to the local news station.

High school football is interrupted by an emergency bulletin.

The station owner is now live and he seems to think that this explosion was no accident and therefore an act of terrorism.

I watch him tell his viewers how justice must be served.

In actuality, I’m disappointed but not surprised at all. There has been serious division in this country for some time now and our enemies laugh at us.

They also know our weak points all too well.

Suddenly, there is a knock at my door.

I answer.

A young sheriff’s deputy orders me to evacuate immediately.

I promptly comply with the orders and then beg him, “Please be careful.”

“I’ll try my best, sir, you just get your butt out of here,” He replies.

With that, I place two tee shirts and two pairs of pants in my everyday carry backpack, along with my medications and the few valuables I can take with me, then walk out the door.

I lock the deadbolt, then walk down the stairs to my car, a 1991 Oldsmobile.

As I put the key in my ignition, my phone rings.

It’s my girlfriend calling.

Hurriedly, I answer, “Hey, Bae.”

“There was an explosion near you. Are you all right?”

“Yes, I have to evacuate, so I hope I can come your way.”

“Please do! I definitely need to see you right now anyway, because I was so afraid you were killed in that awful explosion.”

“I’m okay, in fact, I’m pulling out of the complex’s parking lot right now.”

“Okay, focus on driving safely.”

“Traffic might be very dense right now, though.”

“Just be careful, I’ll wait all night for you if I have to.”

“Okay, bae I’ll get there when I can. I love you and I don’t ever want to lose you.”

“I love you too and you won’t.”

“Okay, bae, bye.”

“Bye.”

I continue driving.

Cops are directing traffic at every signaled intersection, to get everyone out quickly.

I drive through the darkness. The closer I get to my girlfriend’s family’s house, it seems the longer the trip takes.

Finally, I pull into the driveway, where she is nervously sitting on the porch.

I step out of my car and she longingly rushes up to me.

We embrace, then share several sweet kisses.

“Thank God, you’re safe, bae!” She tells me.

I hold her by her beautiful, curvy waist, then look her in the eyes and speak, “I love you so much, bae!”

“I love you too!” She replies.

Her family then greets me, angered over the terrorist attack, but relieved that I survived…

A Review of the Texas Instruments TI-12 Math Explorer

As with flashlights, I have had a lifelong fascination with calculators.

I’ve frequently written about them in the past and I always carry one or two in my edc backpack.

This piece will be me reviewing a calculator that I formerly edced from 2012 to about 2016, the Texas Instruments TI-12 Math Explorer. It was initially introduced in 1987 revised in 1989, 1991, 1993 and finally 1997 (the version which I own) and still being produced by the mid-2000s, (mine came off the assembly line in February of 2005) despite an upgraded version, the TI-15 being released in February of 2000.

By the way, I would like to extend a big thank you to the wonderful people at the Datamath Calculator Museum for the photo of this calculator. I do not own the photo.

They are an excellent source of reference material pertaining to calculators and I have spent countless hours on that site, enriching my brain.

There are three to four other items which I had carried in conjunction with this calculator and they are a Blue Incandescent Mini Maglite flashlight, a Black Mini Maglite LED Pro flashlight (serial number: PG000107905), a single coping blade Cabon Steel Klein Electrician’s knife and sometimes a Black 3 D Cell Incandescent Maglite flashlight (serial number: D3049220554.)

The TI-Math Explorer was designed for elementary and middle school use. However, my sixth and seventh-grade math teacher (same person for both grades, Mrs. Phyllis Holman) was teaching us some cool math that was way ahead of the curriculum and was somehow able to get our parents to buy us each a TI-30 for her class!

In sixth grade, I used one of the many hand me down calculators that my mom’s students had discarded.

For seventh grade, I was able to convince my mom to buy me a brand new TI-30 XIIS (double line 1999 version), which I would carry in my pocket both during school and in the off hours. I would indeed sometimes carry it, but I didn’t everyday carry it.

When I was in school, I kept it in my school bag. When I was out of school, I kept it in my toolbox.

I had this calculator well into eighth grade then I misplaced it during the summer between eighth and ninth grade.

I had, believe it or not, lost interest in calculators (as well as flashlights) by this point!

It was in eighth grade that I had first learned about the TI-12 Math Explorer.

My math teacher and distant cousin, Mister Clarence Joseph Tastet, had several in his classroom which he would loan out to the students.

I never needed one of his calculators because I always had my TI-30 in his class.

By the way, one of Mr. Tastet’s amusing quirks was that he very matter of factly said, “Uh…Calculators don’t bounce!” every time a calculator fell on the floor.

He left Vandebilt Catholic High School after teaching me.

Many of the students were so durn ugly to him, I guess it was because of his temper and his no-nonsense approach to teaching. Even though we are like fourth cousins, we have the exact same temper when provoked. By the way, I will say that if you knew him outside of the classroom, he’s a really cool person and extremely smart.

At some point, I had even joked that VCHS’s math department had purchased the TI-Math Explorer in bulk because they matched the said school’s colors.

At the end of my sophomore year, I had found a gently used TI-83 Plus with no name in it, so I was able to keep it.

I would be needing one anyway for the next two math courses I was required to take.

Having this calculator briefly reignited my interest in calculators, but mostly for playing games.

During recess and class if we had free time, I would play games which I had downloaded, like 1943, Mario, Harvest Moon, and Duck Hunt. Of course, I also had to download the Mirage Operating System in order to run games written in the Assembly language on the TI-83 and TI-84 models.

I only got chewed out twice, believe it or not.

During my junior year, I had twice found a TI-Math Explorer laying on the floor.

Both times, there were the owners’ names written on the instruction card

One of them belonged to senior Katherine Mohana, which I immediately returned to her.

I forget whom the other one had belonged to, but I promptly returned that one as well.

Even back then, I guess I had fervently believed in always trying to be kind and honest.

Probably what reinforced this behavior, was that there were signs all over the school which boldly stated, “Practice Random Acts of Kindness.”

By the way, those signs should be placed in every school at every level of education, because they obviously work!

Around my senior year, I had begun to secretly covet a TI-12 Math Explorer.

However, there was only one place that sold them locally and they wanted over $25 for one.

That place was Lee’s Educational Supply in the Historical District of Downtown Houma.

Wal-Mart, Target, Office Depot/Max and even Radio Shack sold calculators that were considerably more powerful (TI-30, TI-34 and TI-36), not to mention their Casio and Sharp counterparts and the knock-off versions all for somewhat less, than what Lee’s Supply was charging for a TI-12 Math Explorer so I had hung up the idea of purchasing one.

I had other interests at the time such as collecting knives and radio equipment. My flashlight interest was also coming back. So that is what I focused my spending cash on.

Fast forward to around the age of twenty-five. I was frequently helping family, friends and now ex in-laws perform household and automotive do it yourself projects.

I was not the expert in the group, except when working on electrical or HVAC equipment, but I soon realized that a calculator which could do arithmetic with fractions, mixed numbers and decimals would be extremely useful.

Sometimes knowledge on what size socket was needed or a piece of wood needed to be cut to a precise amount or just basic arithmetic for a construction or electrical formula needed to be quickly carried out.

In November of 2012 or so, I had seen a used TI-Math Explorer in pristine condition selling for $6.99 with free shipping on eBay.

I had just enough money in my checking account, so I happily purchased it!

It came in the mail a few days later and I had begun heavily using it.

The TI-Math Explorer, while intended to be a classroom calculator, fit the bill perfectly.

Not only could it quickly convert fractions to decimals as well as add, subtract, multiply or divide fractions, decimals, and mixed numbers, it was rugged enough to be carried in a backpack or tool satchel.

It can also do exponents and has a Pi approximation constant of with a precision of 3.1415927, which is featured in lower end scientific calculators.

Furthermore, it runs strictly on solar power, which means it never needs batteries, nor will it be damaged by a leaking battery!

Due to the calculator’s rugged construction, which was to encourage use in the schoolyard, the solar cells and LCD were very protected, it made the perfect calculator for a tradesman or do it your selfer, which is virtually an unrealized market!

The keys and cabinet are made of hard plastic and it comes with a handy cover for protection when being carried or not in use.

I am, however, the only person I know of though, that used a TI-Math Explorer in a non-classroom setting.

In June of 2014, I had bought a Texas Instruments TI-36 X Pro, mainly for assistance in my experiments with weather instruments, but also for weight conversions when going to the doctor and assisting me with computer and radio scanner programming (the little that I know.)

I had kept my Math Explorer in my edc backpack though and would still use it up until about 2016.

In 2016, I had purchased a Craftsman Satchel to put all of my Craftsman tools and easily carry them whenever I needed to make a repair or assist in making a repair and I ended up placing my Math Explorer and all of the aforementioned gadgets I had carried with it in that bag.

In 2018, I had placed it and other gadgets that are sentimental to me in a tactical MOLLE pouch, that I keep near my bed.

For years, I had been wanting Texas Instruments to produce some calculators for tradespeople as other companies had done.

Lord knows their calculators are built very well, perform with high accuracy and precision not to mention they are very easy to use.

However, my opinion isn’t important enough and if it was, Victorinox would have also made a high precision thermometer for people working in the HVAC and food service industry and other companies would have made some cool gadgets that I had suggested.

When I was an HVAC student, I was playing with the idea of teaching myself machine language to write an app for graphing calculators for use in the HVAC field.

My professor, by the way, thought this was a brilliant idea, however, smartphones have become so common that they are used in place of calculators out in the field by tradespeople.

This calculator, The TI-12 Math Explorer goes above and beyond its original call of duty and my experiences with it are indeed very valid proof.

I give it a rating of 5 stars!

I guess I have a way of finding a use for devices where they turn out to be perfect solutions for situations which they were never really marketed far.

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2013 Vision of The Two Women

I had this vision around August or so of 2013.

I penned it in December of 2013.

Here it is:

And there was a rich, powerful and very influential young man. Two young women were trying to catch his affections. He learned of this and summoned both of them to his living quarters.

The first woman stood to the left of him. She was 18 years old and covered in jewelry and makeup. She wore a dark red halter top and a purple mini skirt. Her skin was tanned and her body was toned and muscular. Many young boys were attracted to her because of her scandalous ways. However, she led all of those boys to a life of misery. She was a vicious fighter and severely injured anyone who she thought was a threat. Her wanting to be with the young man was only because of his money and power. This woman was sure she could use her seductive powers to attract him.

The second woman stood to the right of him. She was 22 years old and wore no makeup nor jewelry. Her skin was quite pale and her body was pleasantly plump, but it greatly complimented her appearance. It made her very cute and innocent looking. She was clothed in a white T-Shirt and long denim jeans. No men ever paid much attention to her and therefore was a virgin. The first woman greatly mocked her for being a virgin. She was also mocked by her peers for dressing plainly. Still, she had a gentleness about her and was affectionate and loving. She did not ever fight nor did she know. She heard of the young man and desired him. She desired him because she knew he was very kind and maybe he would treat her with kindness. She didn’t have much to offer the young man or so she thought.

The young man looked at both of them.

The first woman raised her skirt to him, to which he looked away. The second woman simply smiled at him and blushed. He smiled back at her.

The first woman said “I know why you should be with me: I am not fat like her. I am much sexier than her. I can do things with you that are beyond your wildest fantasy, can she? Pick me and your life will be full of pleasure!”

The second woman said “I am not saying that you should be with me. I would like to be with you because I hear that you are single, but also I hear that you are kind-hearted. I feel much honored that you even gave me a chance to present myself to you. If you pick me, I promise that I will love you forever.”

Then the young man looked to the second woman and said “Come with me. You are so beautiful to me and I want you forever! You are the one I choose as I already know you will love me for me. You will forever be a faithful partner. I already know that as well. I want you to be my wife and our wedding will be a magnificent celebration!”

Immediately, the first woman cursed the young man. He faced her and replied “You, on the other hand, are a harlot. You have polluted many with your filth! You desired me, but for all the wrong reasons. You wanted only my money and my power. You assumed you could use your seduction to get those things, but you are dead wrong!”

The first woman became filled with rage and attacked the second woman. She slashed her face with her long fingernails and scarred it. The first woman cut off the second woman’s clothes with a blade she had concealed. She lay there on the floor in great pain, exposed and humiliation, sobbing. The first woman slapped the second woman in the head and knocked her out. She then again pulled out her blade and prepared to kill her. Immediately, the guards came and seized her.

The young man came up to the second woman and wrapped his arms around her. He gently woke her up and kissed her. As she woke up; she said: “I definitely don’t deserve you now, look how ugly I am.” The young man replied “It doesn’t matter to me, I still love you and I always will. I will get you some new clothes, and if you wish, I will get those scars removed from your face.” The second girl rested her face in his chest “I cannot fathom how much you love me, but I know it must be immensely! I can easily and simply believe that. I want to and will love you as much as I can.” He kissed her and said “That is good enough for me. Come now, I will give you a safe place to stay. And I will keep you there until we are wed.”

…Marvel not at what you just read. I can fully explain the meaning behind this vision, which I had while shopping…

The first woman represents all cults, apostate denominations/churches, and false teachers.

The second woman represents the True Christian Church and genuine believers from all denominations and fragmented churches belonging to it…

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I am a [Potential] Alcoholic

I am a [potential] alcoholic.

I’ve never drunk consistently enough to where it actually caused serious problems, but the urge in me to do so is definitely there.

In this piece, I will try to explore why I am this way.

There are plenty of alcoholics in my family tree and definitely into my extended family, on both sides.

The first time I remember consuming alcohol was in 1989. I was around the age of two. An uncle by marriage was sitting at my paternal grandparents’ kitchen table and sipping on a can of Miller Lite. For whatever reason, he gave me a sip and a few minutes later I passed out. Later that day I woke up on the floor of my grandparents’ den and Richard Simmonds was on the television.

Another time in the Summer of 1990, my parents had a few cans of Budweiser in their refrigerator. I was three and a half and opened one of those cans then took a sip, but was absolutely disgusted by the taste. The ironic part is now, in my early thirties, Budweiser is my absolute favorite beer and I thoroughly enjoy the taste of it. I remember going up to my dad and saying how the “Coke”, or what I assumed to be Coke, in the refrigerator was “sour”, then pointing to the can. My dad starting freaking out with great concern and asked, “Eric did you take a big sip?” I told him that I didn’t. Had I actually taken a big sip, he would have probably called 911 out of concern for my well being.

I can remember in the Summer of 1995, at the age of eight, I had just fully learned how to read and would read everything I could. Almost every day, I was in Conoco station where my dad would purchase Gasoline and a can of Sprite for me. I saw a sign in there that read “Ice Cold Beer.” Though I hadn’t really been exposed too much to alcohol at that point, I can remember having a strong craving for that beer. I also used to love to go to gas stations because of the smell of beer.

From 1991 to 2001, I had attended an extremely strict catholic elementary school with an extremely rigorous curriculum. It got tougher as I advanced to each grade. By Seventh Grade, (2000-2001) during the little free time I had in school, I would frequently read from the catholic Bible. The book I was particularly interested in was Sirach, which isn’t in the Protestant Bible. From reading Sirach, I had learned that alcoholic beverages were intended by God to be a way of temporarily forgetting one’s trouble and having a good time at social gatherings. It made clear sense to me. That coupled with the fact that we were constantly working on school projects which added an unnecessary amount of stress to what should have been a carefree childhood. Supposedly, this was to prepare us for a four-year college. But notice something: A lot of students attending four-year colleges frequently binge drink because of the stress brought on from the God awful load of school work they are required to do. This, back in 2001, was the catalyst, in me becoming aware that I am a [potential] alcoholic. The only reason why I didn’t become a drinker at that point is that I had no access to alcoholic beverages. The reason why catholics have no issue with drinking and even drink heavily on religious holidays could possibly be from the book of Sirach. Since Sirach isn’t in the Protestant Bible, most Protestants detest drinking altogether, though some Protestants still drink behind closed doors, but feel convicted and ashamed when doing so. Well, I myself am Protestant and have been from 2004 to 2005 and since about 2008. Case in point, I do drink behind closed doors but definitely, feel convicted and ashamed when drinking. In fact, earlier tonight, I went out on a drive and stopped at a store on my way home to make a few groceries. I almost purchased a can of cold beer, but thought better of it.

On March 15, 2003, I was sixteen and had met a pretty (and plus sized) girl while doing volunteer work. We seemed to hit it off quite well but then she dumped me a day later. I remembered what I had read in Sirach, plus many of my high school friends consumed alcohol on a regular basis. I decided to drink this pain away. So, I had invaded my parents liquor cabinet and drank as much Jack Daniels as possible. This was my first time drunk, but I must say my spirits were lifted and I was in a much better mood for the rest of the day. Whiskey causes most men to become extremely belligerent, but it makes me quite jolly and much friendlier than when I am sober.

In October of 2003, I was sixteen going on seventeen, it was Friday night and I was at a party where I had consumed five beers then half a fifth of cheap Vodka. I was very loud and very jolly but couldn’t even walk straight. I was the life of the party. It is truly by the Grace of God that I didn’t get alcohol poisoning that evening and that I eventually vomited it back up. However, this experience had cemented my love for alcohol. I eschewed the laws on the books about alcohol and had already eschewed the laws on the books about guns. This made me decide to commit to the Libertarian Party, after hearing a radio broadcast about a week later. I was a registered Libertarian from ages 18 to 19, when I became what I am today-Independent. I still have quite a few Libertarian tendencies though, but I recognize the need for some government and the Libertarians no longer appeal to me completely.

In June of 2004, at the age of seventeen, I broke down mentally and was diagnosed with Schizophrenia. I had plenty of misdiagnoses and improper treatments prior to this, but in retrospect, I showed the symptoms of Schizophrenia ever since the age of six This meant taking medication for the rest of my life, which was not to be mixed with any alcohol. For the next four years, I pretty much became a teetotaler. I took Risperdal from ages fifteen to sixteen (because of a partial misdiagnosis), then seventeen to nineteen for Schizophrenia. From ages nineteen to twenty, then twenty-three to pretty much the present day, I took and still take Geodon. From age twenty to twenty-three I took Abilify.

In 2008 I became twenty-one, the drinking age. Alcohol was tolerated with this drug, so I began to drink beer every now and then. I had income with little bills and I was of age to buy my own alcohol. Also for most of the age twenty-two, I was working and would frequently have a beer after work. My then girlfriend didn’t like it, later wife, soon to be ex-wife, because of alcohol’s effects on her family members. She assumed I’d be the same way, but she was and still is dead wrong. I’ve never done anything irresponsible or violent even at my very drunkest.

In late 2011, at the age of twenty-four going on twenty-five, I would go out drinking in a bar room with a former coworker. This was my reward for me helping him with his computer. Also, around this time, I was told by a very competent physician that one beer per day wouldn’t hurt me and would actually be quite beneficial.

Towards my late twenties, I was in an unhappy marriage. I have my own faults don’t get me wrong, but I didn’t deserve to be emotionally neglected or even put on the proverbial back burner like my wife constantly did to me. I also didn’t deserve to be constantly put down, especially where my writing was concerned. I just stuck with it though, because I had felt that doing so would honor God. A family friend would frequently drink with me and supply me with beer and whiskey. My wife hated this with a hot passion, yet she was the cause of my desire to drink.

In the Summer of 2017, this family friend took his two sons, plus my wife and I on a trip to Tennesee. One night during this trip, my wife was harping on me about everything under the sun (or moon-it was nighttime.) The family friend got aggravated with her and brought me out drinking. We came back plastered. When we got back to the cabin, I was jolly as could be and the two boys were enjoying my drunk company but my wife was cursing me out. She probably would have hit me, had no one else been there as she had done several times behind closed doors over the course of our marriage.

Later that summer due to a temptation which I eventually never actually gave in to, plus years of emotional infidelity, frequent neglect and total mistreatment, from my wife, I was desiring a divorce. The temptation, though I remained faithful to my wife, taught me that there are nicer women out there. Because of this, my wife began doing things behind my back. I had drunk so much during the period of time, that my hair began to fall out. But by the Grace of God, my hair has all grown back and is thick as ever. Despite all the drinking, I never caused any injury, no not even insult. I know durn good and well not to drive or operate machinery when under the influence. I flat out refuse to, even if I had just one little beer. It’s not worth the legal implications of a drunk driving charge.

On January 17, 2018, I had just made thirty-one and was told by a secret informant what exactly my wife was doing behind my back. I bit the bullet and decided I would leave her. In preparation for this, the same family friend took me out drinking after I admitted to him what I found out. We had gotten totally plastered that night. I was in very good spirits, frequently giggling, despite knowing what lied ahead of me, though I couldn’t stand for very long without falling. We sobered up in my car, then when the alcohol was out of my system, I drove to his house and I slept for that day.

I moved in with another friend a day later, then in May of 2018, got an apartment where I am currently staying.

Since that night in January 2018, I have casually drunk a few times, but never enough to alter my judgment or consciousness.

The reason why I am not a full-blown alcoholic is that I cannot afford enough alcohol being on the fixed income I get for being schizophrenic. I do have an addiction to flashlights, but that is a totally harmless and actually beneficial addiction that only consumes what little extra spending money I have. I look at this too as the Grace of God in just a different manifestation. I pay for my rent, necessary expenses, and utilities responsibly, so if I want a flashlight here or there, to whom does it harm? No one!

To those who criticize me for liking flashlights:

Would you rather me be a full-blown alcoholic and use my spending money on alcohol?

Flashlights are not going to cause cancer or other health problems of any kind.
Flashlights are not going to impair my judgment or coordination.
Flashlights can be used as an instrument of self-defense, whereas alcohol totally hinders self-defense.
The worst thing flashlights do is sometimes freak out neighbors or people on the street.

I’m not trying to be self-righteous and I realize some may think I am.

On the contrary, I can totally relate to and very much sympathize with people who have more dangerous addictions to whatever they may be.

It is but only by the Grace of God that I am not a full blown alcoholic, just a potential alcoholic…

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