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My First Love

I was but four years old, the very first time I had fallen in love if one could call it that. This girl had the biggest impact on my life, more than probably anyone else with whom I crossed paths, aside from Jesus Christ.

Only those very close to me know this fact and many others assume, that my first love was a girl two years my junior whom I met in September of 1994 and lived up the street from me. I was with her from ages seven to nine.

The reality is, I met my first love some time early in 1991.

It was while attending a church nursery and/or preschool in the railroad town of Schriever, Louisiana.

This was a very rough time in my life, but this girl was so sweet to me, that I couldn’t help but fall for her, even though I was so young.

The reason why my life was rough at this time is that my brother and sister were infants and my parents didn’t have much time for me. I guess I took this hard because before this I was an only child. The other reason is that someone tied to my family was frequently beating the living daylights out of me. I have since forgiven him for beating me and am only bringing it up in this piece because it contributed to this traumatic part of my childhood. I was also special needs but no one at the time realized it.

I was sent to this church every Monday and Tuesday so I could interact with children around my age. To tell the truth, I hated going there, even though it was the only place I saw her.

She and I were always the first two children to arrive in the morning, so that is how we grew “close.”

There was also something about her, even though she was maybe only a little older than me, that she could tell when I was in distress and always had a way of comforting me.

There was even a time I happened to see the man who was beating me while being driven to that preschool and had my first of many panic attacks as a result.

When I arrived, Kristen saw that I was upset and somehow, she managed to calm me down.

There were numerous other times as well when she comforted me, though the only phrase I ever remember her saying is “Don’t worry.”

I ended up falling for her because of her kind heart, but also I thought she was beautiful.

She had porcelain skin, brown eyes, and light brown hair.

She frequently wore either blue and pink dresses. I don’t think I ever remember seeing her wear pants or shorts, which makes me wonder if she was raised in the United Pentecostal Church International or a fragmented church with similar doctrine. This church, by the way, was not UPCI or a non-denominational/fragmented church. Some of those churches strictly enforce dress codes, especially for women and girls, and also frequently teach their members to be reclusive from society and could be the reason why I have not seen her again.

Then in July of 1991, I would be taken out of the church preschool. Unfortunately, I would attend a far worse place for the next nearly ten years.

I remember the day I left very well. She crawled up to hug me goodbye, but I turned her down for fear of being teased.

That probably hurt her feelings immensely and I still regret it almost 30 years later at the time of writing this.

This was one of the worst mistakes of my life and if I had my life to live over, I would somehow have found a way to stay in touch with her, knowing what I know now.

To my knowledge, I’ve never seen her again.

The one time I think I might have seen her was on Easter Sunday, April 11, 2004, at the Wal-Mart in Thibodaux, Louisiana, but this is strictly speculation.

Since 2001, I’ve been trying to locate her and over the years I have asked hundreds if not thousands of women and girls with her first name if they were indeed her. None of them have ever told me “yes.” Many of them never replied, to begin with. Unfortunately a few have blocked me, for nothing more than asking an honest and harmless question. I feel as if people have become extremely block happy in recent years.

In 2004 and 2005, I went back to that church to look for her and did come across a couple of classmates since then but none of them remember her. Pay close attention to that fact!

Because her first name is Kristen, that means there are numerous methods to spell it and I am nowhere near sure of the exact spelling. This on top of not knowing her middle or last name nor even what year she was born in has made locating her all the more difficult.

This is the first time I am 100% public about this very personal story in my life, previously, I’ve only told people whom I deeply trust and I’ve gotten mixed reactions ranging from them thinking I am delusional to them thinking that she and I are indeed meant to be and to not give up on finding her one day.

While I was going through a divorce, I had renewed efforts in trying to locate her.

My main fear is that with me going public with this personal story, there will be some imposters that show up, which is why I have left out the details of exactly which church in Schriever, Louisiana, I met her at or the names of the teachers and other classmates, all of which I vividly remember.

I’ve come across several other classmates from that preschool and nursery, over the years, but the most shocking thing is none of them remember her at all.

I know some would maybe think that she was an angel that only I or maybe a few others could see.

The only reason why I wonder whether or not she’s an angelic being that only I could see is that I remember the teacher saying her name.

BOMBSHELL: She is the truest reason why I decided to start writing back on April 10, 2003. I used my memories of Kristen for most of my inspiration in my early days of writing.

There had been other women and girls who had inspired me to create characters and there had been some young ladies who reminded me of characters I created.

Unfortunately, I got into a relationship with a young woman which resulted in marriage and then ultimately divorce. The relationship lasted from 2007 to 2018.

Around 2014, I started searching for Kristen again, but to no avail. In that year, I also started writing stories again with her as my inspiration. Several of them are up on my blog.

In the latter parts of 2018, I stopped searching altogether, because I had entered into a very loving and stable relationship with a young lady that looked like a younger yet grown-up version of Kristen. Also, I took the fact that she was born in 1991 as a sign that she was the one. Unfortunately, on December 4/5, 2019, she called it quits on me. I was crushed but am finally starting to heal from it. I had gotten into a few brief relationships since but I always ended them for one reason or another.

A certain part of me wants to find her and find out whatever happened to her. Then my delusional self would either try to get to know her and maybe we could fall in love again or at least find out where she is now and let her know the impact she had on my life because it is a tremendous one, then wish her the best. I’ve also come to terms that she could be deceased and if that is the case, I want to visit her burial site and pay great homage and reverence to her. If she is still alive, romantically available and we meet again and get to know each other, physical features such as her size or facial beauty will not matter to me. Almost everyone who knows me knows that I am only attracted to plus-sized and/or super-sized women with pretty faces, but for her, I would try to pursue her no matter what she looked like. Also, nothing in her past would matter to me either, I would take her for who she is because I would remember how kind to me she was back then. For her, I could relax just about all of my standards. I do realize though that this is just a fantasy and that I need to move on.

Since 2014, I have been mentally creating stories of her and I together again after she helps me make a daring escape from some terrible people that had me captive. Because 2021 is the thirtieth anniversary of her and I meet, I may write down some of these stories. By the way, in my mind, they always took place in the year 2021! Possibly stay tuned. There is only one I wrote and did so in February of 2018.

Just for the record, I no longer think she and I are meant to be. The Lord has been showing me what my future spouse will be like and, she is similar in some ways but younger and nowhere near as maternal (for lack of a better word) towards me, though still very loving and affectionate. Also, with me being the male sex, God expects me to do [most of] the protecting and comforting not the other way around, so this is probably the main reason why he hasn’t allowed me to find her, assuming she is not an angel. At the risk of sounding unpopular, God indeed has established certain gender roles! Don’t shoot the messenger…

That’s all I have, for now, thank you for taking the time to read.

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Gourmet Four Cheese Macaroni

I think that just about any child would be satisfied with Kraft Macaroni and Cheese, for dinner whether as a side or even the main course, even if it needs some extra flavorings. I sure did, although I would frequently add Ranch dressing to mine.

However, as children transition to teens and then adults, their tastebuds change and grow more complex.

I know that in my mid-thirties (at the time of composing this piece) any kind of instant macaroni and cheese dinner is way too bland and sometimes not even some high-end Ranch dressing can help it.

So, back in the latter parts of 2020, I was hanging out with my then neighbors (I say then because we are no longer neighbors due to the wicked deeds of a woman named Ida.)

They were given a bag of plain elbow pasta and were wondering how to make it into a worthwhile meal.

Since I had begun to cook for them around that time, I came up with a wonderful version of macaroni and cheese that I will share the recipe thereof in this piece.

First here are the ingredients that you will need:

Dried Elbow or Shell Pasta.
Whole Milk.
Mild Cheddar.
Parmesan, Romano, and Asiago Cheese Blend.
Olive Oil.
Red and Green Sweet Bell Pepper Flakes.
Basil.
Black Pepper.
Garlic Powder.
Parsley.
Table Salt (only if you choose not to use Bacon.)

The Seasoning Base:
First of all, take a decent-sized saucepan and cover the bottom with Olive Oil.

Next, add the Bell Pepper Flakes, Basil, Black Pepper, and Olive Oil, then take at least two strips of bacon, cutting them into one-inch squares. In order to know when you have enough seasonings, you must not be able to easily see the bottom of the saucepan. Sautee the mixture, stirring frequently until everything is caramelized.

Once the seasoning base is caramelized, add whole milk to the saucepan until it is 5/8 full.

Combine Shredded Mild Cheddar along with the Parmesan, Romano, and Asiago Cheese Blend. Add enough until the milk is no longer pure white. Then add a liberal amount of Parsley.

If you chose to forego using bacon, this would be the time to add salt to taste. It will require a considerable amount of salt, though, in my humble and honest opinion.

Lower the fire and stir almost continuously until the sauce is thick, then put the fire on the lowest setting and keep stirring though not as much.

Take another pot and fill with water and bring to a boil.

Add the Shell or Elbow Pasta and a few drops of Olive Oil.

Boil until pasta is soft.

Drain pasta in a colander whilst running cold water (this is to preserve the drain seals of your kitchen sink.)

Place pasta back into the pot, give the sauce a couple of vigorous stirs then combine sauce and pasta.

Mix until all is well blended.

Serve and enjoy.

This is a great side dish to entrees such as pork chops or fried chicken or baked barbecued chicken. Another side item I would highly recommend with such a meal is sweet peas, which I have been meaning to post my recipe for them to this blog as well.

Note:

You can also refrigerate this dish overnight, reheat it in your microwave oven and serve it the next day. It will taste even better because all of the flavors were given a chance to fuse properly.

I remember a former in-law of my then neighbors commenting on how I should be a gourmet chef after she tasted this creation of mine.

I explained to her that not even a gourmet chef would make the necessary amount of money or have the required benefits needs to meet my medical needs. And if that weren’t enough I know due to my mental limitations, I cannot withstand the amount of pressure that is associated with such an occupation nor could I take the back pain from standing all day and moving pots continuously. I have no Culinary Arts degree, rather I am all self-taught. I must needs admit acknowledge that my ability to cook is indeed a gift imparted to me from God Almighty!

All in all, I hope that you, the reader, have been inspired by the culinary creation and always I hope you have been informed, enlightened, and maybe even entertained.

May God richly bless you as He has blessed me!

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A Review of the Radio Shack Pro-404 Handheld Scanner

So, I had been interested in radio electronics since toddlerhood, but the interest didn’t come to fruition until the age of fourteen.

Likewise, I had been interested in trains since infancy, but somehow the interest became dormant until the age of seventeen, when I was walking around Schriever, Louisiana, and saw a train up close for the first time. This was in the Spring of 2004. I began downloading pictures of trains and trying to listen to them on my scanner but had very limited success with the latter. Then in June of 2004, I had a mental breakdown and was to be medicated for the rest of my life. The medication I took exacerbated my anhedonia, which is the inability to have interests or feel any kind of pleasure. I suffered from this until January of 2006 when I was prescribed a much better medication known as Geodon. By that time my train interest sadly went dormant again. It was so dormant that I rode on a train in June of 2006 and didn’t think much of it, whereas most people who love trains as I have felt at certain times in my life would have felt a state of euphoria just below that of worshipping God in Spirit and Truth and being overcome by His presence just from seeing a train, much less getting to ride on one. But I didn’t think much of it. It would be this way until some time in 2010 when I was attending a church near a mainline railroad and spending a considerable amount of time near the same mainline as well. In September of 2011, I quit my job, mostly due to my hours being drastically cut, a demotion from a position where I performed better than anyone else on-site, and just the toxic environment I worked in. I was able to live well enough off of my disability income in addition to my then-wife-now-ex-wife’s disability income.

It was during this time that my interest in trains came back in full force and stronger than ever before.

I planned to purchase a cheap scanner to take with me whilst foaming and decided on a Radio Shack Pro-404 and that is what this piece will be a review thereof. I had watched several YouTube videos that my fellow foamers created either reviewing this scanner or using it trackside. It seemed to be the perfect scanner for foaming. In those days and still, very much today though sadly changing, one only needs an entry-level scanner to listen to railroad traffic. I know times are changing, though, with this wretched Nexedge being slowly adopted as the new communication standard for railroads and therefore needing a top-tier model scanner to decode such transmissions. That was a factor in my decision to start listening to marine communications which I began in October of 2015 and still do to the present. Watching boats had sadly now taken priority over watching trains although I still think trains are much cooler and likely always will.

In mid-December of 2011, a friend owed me some money which I used to purchase a Radio Shack Pro-404. From December 2011 until March 2014, this was my EDC scanner and I had it until it died on me in July of 2014.

The Radio Shack Pro-404 was the first scanner that I dedicated to my foaming hobby. But I also used it for listening to fire departments and business band users among other things.

The one frequency I wanted to listen to most was 160.290 MHz (AAR Channel 12) which is assigned to BNSF’s Lafayette Subdivision. I also listened to other railroad frequencies on it such as 160.515 MHz (AAR Channel 27) which is heavily used in Louisiana and system-wide by Union Pacific, 160.920 MHz (AAR Channel 54), and 161.190 MHz (AAR Channel 72) which are used by Canadian National DBA Illinois Central in Southeast Louisiana and 160.260 MHZ (AAR Channel 10) which is used by Kansas City Southern on their mainline from Shreveport to New Orleans.

Sadly the particular unit I bought was defective and I didn’t fully realize this until it was out of warranty. The only railroad channel it received with any consistency was 160.260 MHz even most of the time I was 40 miles away from the dispatch tower. In those days BNSF’s Lafayette Subdivision mainline was my favorite railroad line mostly because it is and was the closest mainline railroad to me and because it is an ex-Southern Pacific line. When I became a full-blown foamer in 2011 and learned about the Southern Pacific and how it was split between Union Pacific and BNSF after merging with Union Pacific, I was angry because I had developed a tremendously strong prejudice in favor of the old Espee. I was married at the time, but as my marriage started to deteriorate, I had vowed not to ever date a young lady who was born on or after September 11, 1996-the date of Southern Pacific’s death. I pretty much stayed true to this vow, although in late 2020 and early 2021, there was one very brief online relationship with a young lady born several months after that date. So even though I resented BNSF for taking that former Southern Pacific mainline, I still wanted to tune them in and this scanner just could barely pull anything in on the required frequency. I even tried high-performance antennas but to no such avail. Union Pacific’s frequency came in but I had to be closer to one of their mainlines than I usually was and voice transmission on that frequency was so sporadic due to the heavy use of Centralized Traffic Control. I don’t remember how well this scanner performed on the CN DBA IC channels I programmed for it. In July of 2013, I traveled to Texas for the first time. The trip was with my now ex-in-laws and I didn’t have to pay anything. I did a little bit of foaming in San Antonio, and this scanner performed slightly better, to the point that I was disappointed when I had to go back to Louisiana.

My then-wife and I would make frequent trips to the New Orleans area to go shopping and of course, I would use my Radio Shack Pro-404 to tune in railroad traffic. It performed better in the New Orleans area and maybe even better in Texas. Still, for the one frequency, I wanted to hear most it wouldn’t even stop on but my other scanners would.

By the Fall of 2013, I could tell that this scanner was not as great as I expected it to be or as great as the ones I saw on YouTube. I had assumed that all Radio Shack Pro-404 scanners were like this but was wrong to assume this. I was an immature Christian in the early 2010s though I had been born again for almost a decade. I also did not consider the possibility of spiritual attacks, especially those on the personal possessions of Christians. I still had some superstitions and assumed that this scanner was cursed, which maybe I was partially correct, but not cursed entirely in the way I was thinking back then.

As obsessed as I can be with trains I know that my interest in them never was an idol but, rather it brought me closer to my God. Case in point, I was in Sunday School back when I attended a church near the aforementioned BNSF mainline. My then-Pastor-Teacher was speaking to the class and mentioned how so many people are not in church on Sundays and instead are engaging in worldly pleasures. At that moment a train passed through town and I heard it loud and clear and I felt spiritually vindicated in that moment, knowing I was in church. My then wife smiled approvingly at me but on the flip side of that, she would curse me lower than a dog because I liked trains so much. I think she is a borderline narcissist because she hated everything that brought me happiness anything besides her that made me happy was a threat to her ego. But I truly believe God approves of my train hobby because it is good, clean, wholesome, and harmless fun and every time God allows me to enjoy this hobby my heart is filled with pure gratitude and delight towards Him. And I know for a fact that God is glorified by such. So this could explain why this particular scanner was under spiritual attack. Furthermore, the friend who owed me the money which I used to purchase this scanner would also take me out drinking even though I was a married man. As a Christian, I felt so out of place in a bar room, although the food was delicious and the beer tasted wonderful at the time. I no longer think beer or any other strong drink tastes wonderful and praise God in Jesus’ Name because he delivered me from such desires! But because of the less than noble means by which I acquired this scanner, I can see it not working properly when trying to use it for a godly hobby and I now chalk it up to spiritual attacks.

To further add weight to this testimony, sometime after Hurricane Ida, I saw another Radio Shack Pro-404 for sale on eBay, and feeling nostalgic for those times when I was a full-blown foamer, I purchased it. When I used this new one, it worked very well. I remember taking it on a camping trip that the men from my current church had done and it was pulling in Aircraft, Marine, and dare I say even Railroad Traffic beautifully. While the campsite was close to an airport and a major waterway it was further from any railroad lines than my usual listening posts. I still have this newer unit and while I don’t EDC it, I still use it from time to time, especially if I want to hear Air Traffic because that is where this is a winner!

I will say that GRE made much better scanners than their successor company Whistler, but that is something for a different blog piece.

Below is a list of the features and specifications of the Radio Shack Pro-404 along with my commentary:

200 Memory Channels in 10 Banks-More than enough for anyone who wishes to use this for any sort of logistics listening hobby. Along with many memory spaces to spare for other listening interests.

Automatic AM/FM Selection-I wish there was a choice between AM or FM for any frequency but this is symptomatic of an entry-level scanner.

PC Programming/Cloning Jack-The cable needed for PC programming is not included and the software only supports Windows-not cool!

Specific Area Message Encoding for Weather Alerts-This could be helpful if used by a Skywarn Volunteer or storm chaser or just someone who needs access to reliable weather information whilst outdoors and on the go.

1 Priority Channel-I never saw this as a useful feature on any scanner because it interrupts reception on all other channels.

Signal Stalker (GRE’s Spectrum Sweeper)-very helpful for detecting unlisted nearby frequencies. This feature alone has lent tremendous aid to the scanning hobby in general.

Orange Backlight for Display Reading in Low or No Light conditions-This is another great feature but I wish it could be toggled on or off instead of pressing the light button and activating the light for only a few seconds.

Earphone Jack for Discrete Listening-this is a standard feature on just about every scanner I’ve handled.

Frequency Coverage:
29 MHz-54 MHz FM-I wish this could go down to 25 MHz and receive AM as well.
108 MHz-136.9875 MHz AM-The reception on this band is great but now partially obsolete because this band has narrowed down to 8.33 kHz steps as opposed to 12.5 kHz steps.
137 MHz-174 MHz FM-I wish the lower portions of this band (137-150) could also do AM because of some military and amateur radio users. It is also partially obsolete for railroad traffic because of the 5 kHz steps as opposed to the new 7.5 kHz steps and Nexedge.
380 MHz-512 MHz FM-The 380-420 “Feds and Military” portion is mostly obsolete on this scanner because most of the traffic there is either digital or trunked or both. But that wasn’t as much the case from 2008 to 2013 when this scanner was on the market. Also, this band goes in 12.5 kHz steps which made it partially obsolete in 2018.

5 Pre-Programmed Service Searches-This feature originated on the Radio Shack Pro-82/Pro-2018/Pro-2054 and was carried down to their successor models, the Pro-404 being the direct descendant of the Pro-82.

These service searches are accessed by dedicated keys for each one:
A key with a ship icon indicating VHF Marine.
A key with a flame icon indicating Public Safety.
A key with an airplane icon indicating Civil Aviation.
A key with an antenna indicating Amateur Radio Operators.
A key with a cloud and lightning bolt indicating Weather Band.

I think there should also be a key with a $ icon to indicate Business Band, a key with an eagle icon to indicate Federal Government and Military, and, of course, a key with a RR crossing icon to indicate Railroad.

Fun fact, the original ancestor of Pro-404 is the Radio Shack Pro-32 from 1987, which was the first handheld [Radio Shack] scanner to have 200 Memory Channels and the same frequency coverage.

I get that many scanner listeners want to hear Public Safety and Government communications but typically a premium scanner is required to do so. However, with a Radio Shack Pro-404 and any of its current successors, one can still hear things like many local business and retail operations (very interesting stuff, especially on the itinerant business frequencies), fire and EMS dispatch calls ( very similar to what is heard on Emergency! and Chicago Fire, and is still overwhelmingly in the clear. In real life, the Chicago Fire Department’s dispatch calls are encrypted but Los Angeles County Fire Departments are still in the clear!) almost all civilian aircraft traffic, Amateur Radio operators in FM mode on 70 centimeters, 2 meters, 6 meters, and some of the 10 meters bands (this is quite interesting at Ham Fests.) Civil aviation is also available and that is where this scanner performs best! Then there are my two favorites: Railroad and Marine. I’ve been defaulting more to Marine in recent years because not only are the days of railroad traffic in the clear numbered but there’s also the advent of Positive Train Control which may do away with railroad voice communications on the 160-161 MHz band altogether. Whereas VHF Marine will still be in the clear for years maybe even decades to come.

If it were between 2008 and 2013 and there was no demonic assignment on my first Radio Shack Pro-404, I could give it a solid four out of five stars simply because there are no additional dedicated searches and the scanner itself isn’t as compact as its competitor Uniden’s counterparts from the same era. The second one I purchased works very well even in 2022 and while it isn’t my main scanner, I still have some use for it, at least as a backup.

I guess this, therefore, concludes my review of the Radio Shack Pro-404 Handheld Scanner.

I hope that you, the reader, have been informed, enlightened, and maybe even entertained.

May God richly bless you as He has blessed me!

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A Review of the Radio Shack 12-795 Multiband Radio Receiver

So, in order to satisfy all involved parties, I hereby declare that I do not own the featured image on this page and I give credit to whomever credit is due. I cropped it out of the Radio Shack Catalog.

I had truly been fascinated by radio electronics since toddlerhood. However, my fascination became very strong at the age of fourteen and a half, in the Summer of 2001.

In the Spring of 2004, at age seventeen, I discovered the Radio Shack 12-795, which is a higher-end multi-band radio receiver.

Though I greatly wanted one, I could not justify the brand new price of $99.99+tax and even when it went on clearance, I still had other financial consumer priorities. Around that time that I wanted one, I was hoping to live in Schriever, Louisiana when I grew up and use that radio to tune in to Air Traffic and Railroad Traffic amongst other things. Now I do live in Schriever and keep reading because I also now own one of these radios.

I found one in fairly decent condition on eBay earlier this year and that is what this piece will be a review thereof.

I was able to secure the funds for one of these. It was second-hand and not in the best of condition. There are indeed a few scratches and one of the handles is broken, but receiver performance is up to par. It takes a few seconds to start up but once everything is ready, it pulls in most signals exceptionally well.

Below is a list of the RF bands it is capable of receiving:
Medium Wave AM Band 530 kHz-1710 kHz
FM Broadcast Band 88 MHz-108 MHz
Shortwave World Band 1 4 MHz-6 MHz
Shortwave World Band 2 7 MHz-12MHz
Class D Citizen’s Band 26.96 MHz-27.4 MHz
VHF TV Band 1 59 MHz-88 MHz (Channels 2-6)
VHF TV Band 2 178 MHz-216.5 MHz (Channels 7-13)

The two VHF television bands are now obsolete and I wish they would be repurposed for something else, especially since real estate in the radio spectrum is a very hot commodity these days.

On Airband, performance is more sensitive than that of a handheld scanner and maybe even some base scanners!

I haven’t used it much for the VHF High Band, although I would one day like to take it with me when watching boats since it could probably pull in several VHF Marine channels at the same time. A squelch circuit would have been very appropriate for this, but I digress.

Class D Citizen’s Band is questionable since I am a few feet from the main highway with lots of truck traffic and I barely hear anything on there. I’m not ready to completely write off CB receiving performance as of yet, because for two reasons: 1) I live inside a camper which hinders receptions considerably. 2) CB traffic even from truckers isn’t what it used to be.

Medium Wave AM performs very well, dare I say almost as well as my GE Superadio 3! It even has a turnable purpose-built antenna for finding the direction of the broadcast signal.

I was able to tune in FM broadcast and some signals came in better than on the stereo system that came preinstalled in my camper!

On shortwave, AKA world band is where this radio is a real winner, albeit this model only gets the lower portions of that band. Even though like Class D CB, shortwave broadcasting is on the decline, I can get a fairly decent amount of shortwave broadcasts and they come booming in nicely. For that reason, I keep this radio on my table (as my recent YouTube videos suggest) so I can listen in on Christian but also foreign and fringe broadcasts.

Weather Band comes in very nicely even though I am approximately 24 miles from the transmitter I listen to (KIH23.)

Other features include:
A microphone jack for use as a portable public address system.

A selectable Automatic Frequency Control circuit for pulling in those weaker FM stations.

A Fine Tuning knob in addition to the main tuning knob.

An External Antenna Jack.

A Tone Control Knob.

A Signal and Battery Power Meter.

It can be run on 120 Volt 50/60 Hz AC mains, DC vehicle power, or 4 D sized batteries.

The dimensions are:
14.6 inches (372 mm) wide 10.2 inches (260 mm) tall and 5.2 inches (132 mm) thick

There is a telescopic rod antenna for FM, Shortwave, and VHF Air and High Band reception.

As previously mentioned there is also a turnable antenna for AM reception which can be used for signal direction finding or just for better reception.

I think this device would have performed well on a boat, or out in the field, at least back in the day. However, in 2022 I am still finding a good bit of use for it and I don’t regret my purchase. I mean I waited eighteen years before owning one.

If it were 1999-2004, I would give it a 4.5 out of 5 stars and I am taking off half a point because of the high price it had back then because it would have cost between $152.18 and $172.55 +tax in 2022 dollars.

I would also give it a 4.5 out of 5 stars in 2022 because I wish it would have been constructed of more sturdy materials like its predecessor model was. There’s also the lack of a squelch circuit which can make listening between two-way transmissions very annoying to those around me.

However, as for audio quality, numerous features, and tuning sensitivity, this radio is a solid performer.

I guess this, therefore, concludes my review of the Radio Shack 12-795 Multiband Receiver.

I hope that you, the reader, have been informed, enlightened, and maybe even entertained.

May God richly bless you!

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A Review of the Uniden BC125AT Handheld Scanner Radio

Just to make sure we’re all on the same wavelength and properly tuned in, let me declare that I am not the owner of the featured image on this page. Here I give all credit whereupon credit is due.

I have known the existence of scanner radios since the Summer of 2001. I purchased my first scanner radio in September of 2002 and since have owned many, including duplicates.

Very few of my scanners are capable of tuning in the Military Aircraft band, mostly because such scanners are cost-prohibitive, especially for someone receiving disability benefits.

However, I had an increasing interest in tuning in said band, especially when I found out that I will be taking a road trip this Fall.

The usual scanners in my possession that are capable of tuning in the Military Aircraft band are either not portable (Realistic/Radio Shack Pro-2004) or too expensive to be taken out and about (Radio Shack Pro-106.)

By the way, when traveling out and about, I usually use an entry-level second-hand scanner, so if it gets lost or stolen, it won’t be severe of a financial blow.

Still, since the road trip entails traveling through the D. C. area, I would like to hear some military air traffic, but I couldn’t justify taking my Radio Shack Pro-106.

Meet the Uniden BC125AT, a mid-grade handheld scanner that is capable of tuning in the Military Aircraft band in addition to many other neat features. And that scanner is what this blog piece will be a review thereof.

I had wanted one of these since at least the mid-2010s, but I had other expenses during most of that time. I had owned two Uniden BC75XLTs and several second-hand Uniden BC72XLTs and one Uniden SR30C. These are what I would normally EDC and I use them primarily for listening to Railroad and Marine traffic but when that gets slow or isn’t available, Fire Dispatch Calls and Civil Air traffic. None of these are capable of picking up Military Air Traffic, though, much to my disappointment.

So, I had a little extra money in late March of 2022 and ordered a Uniden BC125AT brand new and at a significant discount. However, communications with the seller and the entire logistics aspect was a living nightmare.

When it finally came in mid-April 2022, I was thoroughly impressed, not just by the capability of receiving Military Air Traffic, but also by many other neat and useful features which I will discuss shortly. I had almost forgotten about the nightmare it was to get it delivered.

After unboxing, taking it home, and programming it, I set it to scan and was thoroughly impressed by the speed, audio quality, and sensitivity.

I also appreciate the fact that it will automatically discover whether a signal is AM or FM, something usually reserved for higher-end scanners, not mid-grade and entry level.

Close Call runs in the background by default, and I didn’t turn it off, because it is indeed an interesting feature. For those who don’t know Close Call, Spectrum Sweeper and Signal Stalker are all similar features on scanners that are designed to detect nearby transmissions, especially on frequencies that aren’t listed.

As per my current setup, I plan to use this scanner, especially when traveling, but also keep a Uniden BC72XLT in a special slot of my car, especially for railroad and marine listening. I also have a Uniden BC92XLT in my living room cabinet to take out while walking. I have other scanners as well, some as old as me (35 at the time of this piece) but still working!

I do plan on at least a few road trips this year and these trips will be near military bases so I cannot wait to hear all that is to be heard.

The friend with whom I go on these trips usually goes out to eat or do other things on the town, but, my ritual is to wash my face and shave as soon as I enter the motel room and listen to the radio (AM/FM) while shaving. Then, once I am settled in, I use the scanner in Search mode to hear all that I can hear.

I plan to use this to monitor Military Air Traffic while on the road, as well. Uniden makes decent scanning equipment so I don’t think I will be disappointed.

Uniden had this to say, about this scanner:

“Listen in and stay informed with the Uniden BC125AT Compact Bearcat® Handheld Scanner. This sophisticated scanner with 500 alpha-tagged channels boasts a convenient compact design and loads of features. Close Call RF capture technology instantly tunes to signals from nearby transmitters and the Do Not Disturb Mode prevents Close Call checks during a transmission. With this Bearcat scanner, you can listen to military and civilian air bands. You can also get important weather and safety alerts.”

Below are some features and technical specifications of the Uniden BC125AT (taken from Uniden’s Website) and my commentary following:

Listen to Over 40,000 Frequencies The Bearcat BC125AT handheld scanner gives you direct access to over 40,000 frequencies. You can listen to both civilian and military bands, including police, ambulance, fire, weather, marine, aircraft, railroad, civil air, amateur radio services, and racing.-While not digital nor capable of 700/800 MHz, this covers everything I wish to here and more.
Search More Efficiently with 500 Alpha-Tagged Channels Finding the channel you want to listen to is easy, with 500 channels divided into 10 storage banks. Organize your channels by department, location, area of interest, or any other way you prefer. Alpha Tagging lets you assign names to your channels, so you can keep track of who you are listening to.-The Alpha Tagging is convenient for those who cannot remember what frequencies are used by whom. Storage banks allow frequencies pertaining to a certain interest to be grouped together.
Lightweight, Portable Design Take this Bearcat handheld radio scanner with you on the road, or on outings. It packs plenty of features in a lightweight, portable design. The orange backlight display is easy to read, even in low light conditions.-Perfect for travel and EDC use. I’m glad scanners are now portable, compact and dare I say even concealable.
Stay Safe and Informed with Weather Scan Stay safe and informed with easy scans of NOAA weather channels. The weather scanning feature makes it easy to track storms and changing weather conditions. You can also activate Weather Alert mode to receive severe weather warnings.-This could be useful if severe weather was to pop up and one isn’t carrying a Weather Radio.
Pre-Sets for Popular Channels Get started listening right away with convenient pre-sets for the most popular searches. Frequencies are preset in ten separate Police, Fire/Emergency, Ham, Marine, Railroad, Civil Air, Military Air, CB Radio, FRS/GMRS/MURS, and Racing search bands. This makes it easy to find channels that interest you.-This feature is truly a God-send, especially when wanting to tune in frequencies of a certain interest and not knowing what is active in a given area.
Here is the frequency range and typical users:

25.0000 to 27.9950 MHz-Class D Citizen’s Band and Free Band.
28.0000 to 54.0000 MHz-10 Meter Amateur Radio, VHF Low Band and 6 Meter Amateur Radio.
108.0000 to 136.9916 MHz-Civillian Aviation Band.
137.0000 to 174.0000 MHz-Military Land Mobile, 2 Meter Amateur Radio, VHF High Band and Federal Government.
225.0000 to 380.0000 MHz-Military Aviation Band.
400.0000 to 512.0000 MHz-Federal Government, 70 Cm Amateur Radio, UHF Standard Band, UHF T-Band.

This is indeed a great scanner and I can’t wait to use it to its full potential. My one complaint is that I wish scanners were built to military standards for ruggedness and water resistance, but likely wicked people in high places don’t want such products to be made. And I will gladly retract that statement if I can be unequivocally proven otherwise.

I know it is made in Vietnam and their scanners can be hit or miss, but so far it has performed very well.

Since I have only had it a few weeks and it has served me well thus forth, I will give it a five out of five stars.

I guess this, therefore, concludes my review of the Uniden BC125AT. I hope that you, the reader, have been informed, enlightened, and maybe even entertained. May God richly bless you!

Back to “Product Reviews”

Second Morning Together-The New Generation Gap

Zachary woke up on his futon and looked at his G-Shock. It indicated 9:38 AM.

He and Tiffany were very tired from all they had done the previous day.

He walked to the bathroom and relieved his bladder, washing his hands afterward. Zachary then walked to his bedroom where he saw Tiffany fast asleep. He watched her with admiration and then planted a kiss on her forehead.

He sat quietly and began to take notes in a composition book for his latest story. He drew his inspiration from the strong feelings he had for Tiffany and couldn’t wait to show them to her. He wrote continuously for almost a half-hour when he heard Tiffany waking up.

She walked into the living room and greeted him.

Zachary hugged her tightly as they sweetly exchanged kisses. Zachary held her even closer to him until she said, “Not any tighter, Zack, or I’ll pee on both of us.”

Zachary immediately let go, then patted her buttocks.

Tiffany continued, “Let me use the bathroom, then we can pick up where we left off.”

They exchanged one more kiss, then Tiffany pranced to the bathroom as Zachary watched her panty-covered buttocks jiggle and her thick curvy hips swivel with great admiration and considerable lust. She closed the door behind her then pulled her panty down and sat on the toilet until her bladder was empty. She then wiped her private parts, washed her hands, and walked out of the bathroom. She walked back into Zachary’s bedroom and donned her blue jeans, then went to Zachary.

He was standing in the kitchen when Tiffany came up to him, kissed him, and then asked, “Did you miss me?”

Zachary gave her several kisses in return and replied, “Terribly.”

“I missed you too, Zack, but I know we need to honor God with our relationship.”

“Indeed we must,” Zachary replied, then continued, “Are you hungry?”

Tiffany nodded.

Zachary then said, “Well I can make us some more biscuits with raspberry preserves or I can make us some instant oatmeal.”

“Instant oatmeal sounds good.”

“How do you like it, sweetheart?”

“When my parents made it they only used water and salt.”

“Well, I heat mine up in the water, then I add milk, brown sugar, raisins, and a little cinnamon.”

“Oh, that sounds so much better than how my parents made it, but I think you have an ulterior motive-you want to make sure my butt stays nice and big, don’t you?!”

Zachary blushed and said, “Well you’re partially correct: I do indeed think your fanny is very lovely. However, I want you to have a decent-tasting breakfast as well, sweetheart. And just know that your fanny could grow or shrink, but as long as your heart stays big, I would still want you!”

“I am falling for you head over heels, Zack!”

“I feel just the same about you, Tiffany.”

Their faces then met as they rubbed noses until Tiffany’s stomach began to rumble. Zachary bent down and kissed her belly then said, “Let’s get you some nourishment.”

Tiffany nodded and giggled.

Zachary then began to prepare their breakfast, placing some dried oatmeal in a large bowl adding water, then putting it in the microwave oven for about two and a half minutes.

They clung to each other with great affection, lost in each other’s gaze as the oatmeal was cooking.

All too soon, they heard the beep, indicating that the oatmeal was finished. Zachary then poured some milk onto it, then added the brown sugar, raisins, and cinnamon, stirring it thoroughly afterward.

He then told Tiffany, “Finish off the milk so it doesn’t go bad.”

Tiffany kissed Zachary then smacked his buttocks as she poured the remaining milk into a cup and drank it.

Zachary then halved the oatmeal mixture into a portion for him and a portion for Tiffany in their bowls. He then said grace, “Heavenly Father, we thank you for this wonderful meal and we thank you for all that you have blessed us with. Please keep us together come what may and draw us ever closer to you. We ask that you bless this food for the nourishment of our bodies for your service and glory. In Jesus’ Name, we make these prayers, Amen.”

They began to eat the hot cereal, to which Tiffany said, “Oh my gosh, this is amazing, bae!”

“Thank you, sweetheart! It brings me a world of joy watching you eat it.”

“Do you think I look weird when I eat?”

“I think you’re really cute when you eat or do anything else, for that matter!”

“I know I found someone wonderful.”

“And I found someone equally wonderful.”

They continued eating until all the prepared oatmeal was gone.

Tiffany then asked, “Do you think you could read your stories to me?”

“I was hoping you would ask!” Zachary replied.

“I saw you writing when I woke up and I definitely want to know what you’re writing about.”

“Well, I was drawing upon my feelings for you as my inspiration, so I hope and pray that these stories bring you as much joy to read as they brought me to write them.”

“I’m sure your stories will, bae. Now read to me!”

“Very well, sweetheart!”

Zachary then retracted the mattress of the futon, then he and Tiffany curled up and he read to her. She stared at him with much longing, smiling from ear to ear and hanging on to his every word.

There were plenty of moments where they exchanged passionate kisses and sweet caresses but kept it just a slight degree away from actual sin.

Tiffany finally said, “I am falling for you like never before and I only pray that you feel the same way about me, Zack!”

Zachary looked deeply into her eyes, then gave her an unforgettable kiss as he said, “Indeed I am and I thank God for sending you to me. I want you by my side forever!”

They embraced with strong affection, sharing many more kisses as Zachary continued to read to Tiffany until they were both getting hungry. Zachary looked at his G-Shock which indicated Noon Fifty Six.

He then asked Tiffany, “Would you like some lunch?”

“Sure. What do you have?”

“Some sliced oven-roasted turkey breasts on some wheat bread. I also have mayonnaise and mustard, if you like.”

“I think I’ll put extra mayo on my sandwich. Do you want to know why?”

Zachary nodded.

Tiffany continued, “So my butt stays nice and big for you!” As she rubbed her aforementioned body part on Zachary.

They then embraced and their tongues began to wrestle.

“If we proceed any further, it will be a sin,” Zachary said.

Tiffany replied, “You’re right Zack, let’s eat to give us an escape route from the sin.

With that, they each made a turkey breast sandwich and then ate in happiness.

Back to “The New Generation Gap”

Pay Day Part Two-The New Generation Gap

Zachary put his Cobalt in gear and headed to Target as he prayed, “Heavenly Father, thank you for all that you have blessed me with today and every day. Thank you especially for sending Tiffany into my life and please allow us to stay together. Lord I now ask that you grant me traveling grace wherever I must go. Please help me to line my life up totally with Your Word and to honor and glorify You in all that I do. In Jesus’ Name, I make these requests to You, Amen, and thank You, Lord.”

Zachary then drove in silence to Target, in hopes to purchase a Wenger SwissGear backpack. He was laser-focused on purchasing one, not only because it was well made, but also because he felt that the Swiss Cross emblem that is shown on those products would be an excellent form of witness wear.

In time, he arrived at Target and made a beeline for the luggage section.

He carefully examined each backpack that interested him until finally settling for one selling for $49.99+tax. It was black red and grey, fabricated very well, and seemed to fit the bill perfectly. Zachary grabbed it and then headed immediately to check out where he completed his purchase.

He then walked to his Cobalt and entered on the driver’s side, placing his newly purchased backpack on the back passenger seat. He then sat down, put his car in gear, and prayed once again, “Dear Heavenly, thank you for blessing me with this new backpack and of course all that you have blessed me with throughout my life. Thank you, especially for Tiffany and please keep us together. Please also allow us to honor you with our relationship and our lives. Now Lord I ask you to grant me safe travels and allow me to complete the remainder of my tasks and have a wonderful evening with Tiffany later. In Jesus’ Name, I pray, Amen.”

Zachary then drove to his apartment, parked, and walked up the stairs to his unit. He unlocked the door, then began placing some of his everyday items in that backpack, such as his Victorinox Tinker Swiss Army Knife, Several composition books, his Asus Eee PC netbook with charger, some writing instruments, a Mini Maglite flashlight for backup to his Fenix E21 and his Midland HH50B Weather Radio. Zachary felt better prepared now and had been desiring to get into the habit of everyday carry. He had seen the ideas on several forums, but seeing Tiffany with her Wenger SwissGear messenger bag was the ultimate catalyst.

After organizing his new backpack to his liking, Zachary then began to set up his newly acquired computer.

He began to pray, “Dear Heavenly Father, I thank You for blessing me with this computer. I thank You for all else that you blessed me with throughout my life. I realize that this machine may need some work done, but I ask that you give me the wisdom and knowledge required to get it working. Please guide my hands and my mind, Gracious Lord. In Jesus’ Name, I make this request, Amen.”

Zachary started the CPU and connected it to his monitor keyboard and mouse then turned it on. He quickly realized that it needed an operating system, so he decided to install Ubuntu 12.04 which he had downloaded and burned to CD a few days in preparation for this. The installation went smoothly and soon he had the PC running like a brand new machine. He then began to transfer all of his writings, music, pictures, and videos to the new computer which took some time. Finally, he logged onto eBay and ordered a Fenix E11 personal-sized flashlight for Tiffany to keep in her messenger bag. It would also compliment the Fenix E12 that he EDCed.

After all, was finished, Zachary looked at the time on his G-Shock and saw that it was now quarter to five, so he washed himself up, shaved, and donned a black pair of dress pants and an evergreen workshirt, then called Tiffany.

“Hey, you!” She answered with happiness.

“Sweetheart, I was calling to tell you that I have completed all my tasks of the day. So I now wish to take you out to dinner. Would you prefer an Italian Buffet or a Chinese Buffet? Or would you want something different than those?”

“An Italian buffet sounds amazing. Actually, I’ve never been to an Italian buffet, so let’s go there!”

“Awesome, sweetheart. I was hoping you would say that.”

Tiffany then asked, “Are you driving right now?”

“No, I am still in my apartment.”

“Good. I don’t want you talking or texting and driving. I want you to be safe.”

“I promise you, sweetheart, I shall not talk or text while driving. But, if it’s all right with you, I’ll head your way.”

“Okay, bae. I’ll get ready.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too, bae.”

Zachary and Tiffany then ended the call and Zachary walked out of his unit and locked the door behind him. He walked down to his parking spot and then entered his Cobalt on the driver’s side. Zachary then fired up then the engine and put it in gear as he prayed, “Heavenly Father, thank you for all that You have done for me. Thank You for Your love, your grace, and your mercy. Of course, thank you for Tiffany, and please keep us together, but don’t let us idolize each other. Lord, please grant me safe travels as I go to pick her up, and please watch over us all evening. In Jesus’ Name, I pray, Amen.”

Zachary drove in silence until he pulled up at Mrs. Judith’s house. He parked in the driveway then stepped out and walked to the front door and rang the bell.

Mrs. Judith answered, “Well hello again, Zack.” She paused, then continued, “Tiffany is still getting ready, but just sit in the living room and make yourself at home.”

“Yes ma’am,” Zachary replied.

“What are your plans with Tiffany this evening?”

“I want to take out and eat some Italian food and then purchase her some art supplies.”

“Wonderful. And I think that eating Italian cuisine will put Tiffany in the mood to be creative since there are so many famous artists from Italy.”

“She tells me how her parents used to burn her paintings, simply because they wanted her to have what they thought was a real job.” Mrs. Judith paused then continued, “I know my late husband never got me pregnant, but I would have never been so cruel to any child of mine.”

“How did you meet your husband if you don’t mind me asking?”

“Well like Tiffany I was a fat girl and many kids teased me. Shortly after I turned eleven and there was this sweet but shy eight-year-old boy who moved into my neighborhood. He was the only one who would play with me. But we had to go play together in secret because, at the time, boys and girls weren’t allowed to play together. We just secretly met every day over the years and our feelings for each other became stronger and stronger. So we decided we would get married as soon as he was legally able. I loved him and I know he loved me. We were married in 1949 and soon after learned that China had acquired a weapon of mass destruction so, we decided to start going to church, and from there we surrendered our hearts and lives to Christ. Then in 1967, he was drafted. He didn’t want to leave me and go but knew that the Bible required us to comply with the orders of our government. I remember the night before he reported to duty-it was the most romantic moment of my life and my most cherished memory of him. Because in 1968 he was killed in a helicopter crash in Vietnam.” Tears then filled Mrs. Judith’s eyes.

Zachary was at a loss for words.

What broke the sadness was Tiffany came walking out of the hallway dressed in an evergreen blouse and a black dress skirt that went just below her knees.

Zachary looked at her and said, “Good Lord, sweetheart, aren’t you beautiful?!”

Tiffany giggled and said, “Thanks bae. I am just happy to be in some new clothes now.”

They subsequently embraced each other with sweet affection.

“Are you ready to go eat?”

“Yes. I am hungry.”

“Well let’s go and you can eat until your heart is content.”

“Let’s go!” Tiffany said with happiness.

“Y’all have fun and be good,” Mrs. Judith said.

“Pray for us,” Zachary said.

“Yes, please do,” Tiffany added in.

“I sure will,” Mrs. Judith replied.

With that, Zachary and Tiffany walked to the Cobalt, the Zachary opened the passenger door for Tiffany, to which she stepped him and kissed him multiple times with passion.

Zachary then entered on the driver’s side started his engine and then put it in gear as he prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, as always we thank You for all that You have done for us. We especially thank You for putting us together and fervently request that we are never torn apart. Likewise, we pray that not only do you draw us closer together, but you draw us even closer to you. Please grant us safe travels and be with us everywhere we go tonight. We make these prayers in Jesus’ Name, Amen, and thank You, Lord.”

“You pray so beautifully, Zack.

“Thank you, Tiffany, as you know I am expressing to God what is on my heart.”

“I especially love how you continuously pray for God to keep us together.”

“Well, right now that is the greatest desire of my heart.”

“I love you so much, bae!”

“I love you too, sweetheart.”

Zachary and Tiffany then held hands as they drove to town and then to the Italian Buffet restaurant.

Zachary parked his Cobalt, then stepped out of the driver’s side and walked over to the passenger side, and opened the door for Tiffany.

She stepped out and kissed him. They embraced and then their faces met as they rubbed noses and fired many kisses at each other until a bitter middle-aged woman threatened to call the police on them.

Humbly they walked into the restaurant where Zachary paid and included a tip. They were then given a booth.

Zachary and Tiffany then served themselves each a plate of food.

Tiffany served herself some spaghetti and meatballs, a garden salad, a few slices of various kinds of pizza, and some breadsticks. Zachary served himself a penne chicken Alfredo pasta, also a garden salad, and some Zuppa Tuscana.

When they filled their plates, Zachary and Tiffany sat down and said grace, “Heavenly Father, we thank You so much for this wonderful food we are about to receive. We thank You for our time together and we thank You for putting us together. Let nothing come between us. Please help us to honor and glorify You with our lives and our relationship and please bless this food for the nourishment of our bodies to Your service and Glory. In Jesus’ Name we make these prayers, Amen.”

They began eating.

Tiffany was quite hungry and she was wolfing down her meal.

Zachary also ate considerably fast, but he watched Tiffany with admiration.

“I’m sorry that I eat like a pig, Zack.”

“I think you’re so cute when you eat, sweetheart.”

“I know what you’re doing, you just want my butt to get bigger!”

“Bigger or smaller or anything in between I would still want you.”

“And I would still want you too, Zack. You’re so sweet!”

“I love you!”

“I love you too.”

They soon finished their first plates.

“By all means, go back for seconds, sweetheart. In fact, try this Zuppa Tuscana, it’s wonderful!”

“Okay bae.” Tiffany said with a wide smile.

Tiffany then scooped some penne Chicken Alfredo Pasta and some Zuppa Tuscana along with some cheese ravioli. Zachary spooked some spaghetti and meatballs, pizza, and breadsticks. Happily, they ate.

“Wow, Zack, this Zuppa Tuscana is amazing.”

“I’m glad you like it. This spaghetti and meatballs are so simple, yet so perfect. It would even compete with mine.”

“Honestly, I like yours better, though Zack.”

“Thank you, sweetheart, that means a lot to me!”

Tiffany blew Zachary a kiss then they finished their second plate.

“Would you like a third plate?” Zachary asked.

“If I do, let it be dessert. I’m getting full.” Tiffany said as she held her stomach.

Zachary discretely bent over and kissed Tiffany’s belly as he said, “You’re so beautiful!”

Tiffany kissed Zack on top of his head and told him, “You’re quite sexy yourself!”

They then got up for dessert.

They each took a cup of Swiss Mocha, some chocolate swirl ice cream, and some oatmeal spice cookies.

Happily, they sat down and finished their meal, then left.

Zachary walked Tiffany to his Cobalt and he opened the passenger door for her, to which she kissed him and stepped in.

He then entered on the driver’s side and started his engine, put it in gear, and prayed, “Heavenly Father, we thank You for such a lovely meal and we thank You for all the blessings upon our lives. Please keep us together and protect us from all who wish to cause harm. Please also grant us safe travels and bring us ever closer to each other and You. We make these prayers in Jesus’ Name, Amen.”

Zachary then said, “Would you like to go get your art supplies?”

“Sure,” Tiffany replied.

“Where do we buy them?”

“At that store in the mall where we met.”

“Then let’s go!”

Zachary and Tiffany drove to the mall and parked.

He then stepped out and opened the passenger door for Tiffany to which she kissed him.

They then walked to the art store.

“Get whatever you want or need, I should have enough money.”

“Okay bae,” Tiffany said as she kissed him yet again.

Tiffany grabbed some pencils, brushes, paint, canvas boards, a sketch pad, and an easel.

Zachary then paid and they left the store.

“Before we get in your car, bae, I have to potty, like really badly,” Tiffany said.

“As do I,” Zachary replied.

So they walked to the bathrooms and then relieved themselves.

Afterward, they walked to Zachary’s Cobalt, to which he opened the passenger door for Tiffany and she kissed him. He then placed Tiffany’s art supplies in his trunk then locked it.

Zachary stepped in on the driver’s side, put his car in gear, and then prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for all the blessings you have given to us. Thank you for giving me the ability to supply Tiffany with what she needs to pursue her art career. Please allow and compel her to create some art that honors You and gives You glory. Also please keep us together and protect us from all attacks, both carnal and spiritual. and please grant us safe travels as I bring Tiffany home. In Jesus’ Name, I make these prayers, Amen and thank You, Lord.”

“I’m getting sleepy, Zack. I think I will go to bed as soon as I get in.”

“May I tuck you in and give you good night kisses?”

“Of course. In fact, you better!”

“I love you so much, sweetheart!”

“I love you too, bae!”

Zachary and Tiffany then drove to Mrs. Judith’s house holding hands the entire way.

Upon arrival, Zachary parked in the driveway, then stepped out the driver’s side and opened the passenger door for Tiffany, to which she lovingly kissed him. He then removed the art supplies from the trunk and carried them in.

They then walked to the front door and rang the bell.

Mrs. Judith answered and let them in.

“I’ll be going right to bed,” Tiffany said in a sleepy voice.

“I would like to set Tiffany’s art supplies down for her,” Zachary added in.

Mrs. Judith nodded.

Zachary and Tiffany walked to the bedroom.

Tiffany let her skirt fall to the floor, revealing her lavender panties. She then took off her blouse, revealing a red sports brassiere.

Zachary beheld her with a mixture of admiration and lust. He then planted kisses all over her as he caressed her love handles, then her lower back, then her buttocks.

Tiffany giggled sweetly as she fired several kisses back at him then climbed into bed as Zack tucked her in and covered her gently.

They shared several more kisses and then those three little words.

Zachary then left and closed the bedroom door behind him.

Mrs. Judith was waiting in the living room, to which he told her, “Good night.”

“Good night, young man. Be careful.”

Zachary exited the front door and Mrs. Judith locked it.

He then walked to his Cobalt and entered. He started the engine and then put it in gear, then took the road as he prayed, “Thank you Heavenly Father for Tiffany. I love her so much, so please keep us together. Let us always honor You in all of our ways and draw ever closer to You. Please give me safe travels as I head back home. In Jesus’ Name, I make these prayers, Amen.

In silence, Zachary drove to his apartment. He parked in his assigned spot, walked up the stairs, and then entered his unit.

Subsequently, he locked the door, and then texted Tiffany, “I safely arrived at home, sweetheart. I love you.”

Seconds later she replied, “Thank God! I love you too, bae!”

Zachary then took off his going-out clothes and went straight to bed.

Back to “The New Generation Gap”

Pay Day Part One-The New Generation Gap

Zachary woke up, alone.

Tiffany had gone to stay with Mrs. Judith Brezinski so that they would not be tempted to a foul God’s commands. They both knew that this was for the best, even though they missed each other terribly.

After taking everything in, Zachary checked his bank account and saw that the $1,024 he received each month from SSDI was deposited.

With that, he showered, shaved, and brushed his teeth. Afterward, he dressed, then left his apartment locking the door behind him.

He started his Cobalt and drove to the bank where he had a $206 money order printed out for his rent payment. Immediately he filled it out, then left the bank. He also withdrew some cash so Tiffany could buy some second-hand clothing when he picked her up to go thrifting.

Zachary drove straight to the apartment complex office and slipped the money order in the mail slot.

He then drove to the mall and to the AT&T store where he added funds to his Go Phone account and also purchased a Samsung A187 Quick Messaging phone on clearance and a $25 plan for Tiffany, and then had it activated.

After completing his transactions, he drove to the electric cooperative office, then the waterworks, and paid his respective monthly bills.

Finally, Zack called Mrs. Judith to which she answered

“Hello?”

“Hey, Mrs. Judy, this is Zack. May I talk to Tiffany?”

“Sure thing, young man. She just finished breakfast.”

Mrs. Judith then handed her phone to Tiffany as she said, “Your beau wants to talk to you.”

Tiffany answered the phone, “Hey bae.”

“Hey. I purchased you a phone along with a plan and I would be honored to take you thrifting so you can have some nice clothes.”

“Oh, thank you, Zack! That is so sweet of you.”

“It’s the least I could do.”

“When will you be coming over?”

“I’m on my way now.”

“Okay, I’ll get ready now so I don’t take too long.”

“Don’t rush yourself though, sweetheart.”

“Are you driving right now?”

“Yes.”

“Then please focus on driving so you don’t get hurt.”

“All right, will do.”

“I love you, bae.”

“I love you too, sweetheart, and I’ll be there in a few minutes.”

Zachary and Tiffany hung up.

Zachary drove carefully to Mrs. Judith’s house where Tiffany was getting ready.

He parked in the driveway then walked to the door and rang the bell.

Mrs. Judith answered, “Tiffany is still getting ready, but you can make yourself at home.”

“Thank you,” Zachary replied as he sat down on the couch.

Mrs. Judith was flipping between cable news channels on her television set. Zachary watched with her.

She eventually spoke, “Tiffany is crazy about you, Zack. So I hope you have only good intentions with her.”

“Yes, ma’am I definitely do. I had been petitioning The Good Lord to send me someone to love for quite some time and I am immensely thankful to Him that He sent Tiffany my way. I love her so much!”

“I don’t mind taking her in, because she helps me around the house, plus my doing so is preventing you and her from sinning. It is very admirable that you don’t want to defile your relationship with her. Most people your age would even consider the such.”

“Well, I am a God-fearing man. And I fear Him enough to consider that if we don’t honor Him with our relationship, He will not bless our relationship therefore I could lose her. I don’t ever want that to happen!”

“If you feel that way, then by all means get to know her more, but I think she is wife material and I know that you are husband material as well.”

“Thank you, Mrs. Judy!”

“Of course, young man.”

They went back to watching cable news channels until Tiffany stepped out of the bathroom.

She embraced Zachary with strong affections.

“As always, you’re so beautiful, sweetheart.”

“Thanks bae. You make me feel special.”

Zachary reached into his shopping bag and handed it as he said, “This is your new phone. It was the nicest one I could afford at the moment, especially since I want to buy you other gifts.”

“It’s cute, Zack. Thank you!”

“You get two hundred fifty voice minutes and unlimited texting, each month, so you can keep in touch with me and others, but only give your number to those whom you trust.”

Tiffany placed the phone in her jean pocket, then grabbed her messenger bag and said, “Well, I definitely need some clothes and you said there’s a thrift store a few towns over, right.”

“Yes. Each article of clothing is only twenty-five cents.”

“Awesome.”

“That should purchase you a whole new wardrobe.”

“Then let’s go. I’ve been wearing the same clothes since Tuesday.”

“Y’all be careful and be good,” Mrs. Judith said.

With that, Zachary and Tiffany walked out the front door and to the Cobalt, where Zachary opened the passenger door for Tiffany. She kissed him, then kissed him again, saying, “The first kiss is because I missed you all night and I didn’t want to kiss you in front of Mrs. Judy. The second kiss is because you’re such a gentleman, Zack!”

“I love you, sweetheart!” Zachary said as he blushed.

“I love you too, bae!” Tiffany replied while smiling from ear to ear.

Zachary then entered on the driver’s side started his engine then prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for sending Tiffany into my life and I thank you for blessing me and meeting my needs, even my wants. Please grant us safe travels and allow Tiffany to find some nice clothes as we go thrifting today. Please protect us from all who wish to do harm and draw us closer to You and each other. In Jesus’ Name I make these prayers, Amen and thank You Lord.”

Zachary backed out of Mrs. Judith’s driveway, then onto the highway as they headed northeast.

“I know the drive takes a while, sweetheart, but I think it will be worth it.”

“That’s fine bae it’s more than fine. It means we get to spend more time together,” Tiffany said as she held Zachary’s hand.

“I missed not being able to cuddle with you last night.”

“I missed you too, but Mrs. Judy was nice and she had nothing but good things to say about you.”

Zachary blushed.

“I can see what she means, though. I think it’s obvious to everyone around you, Zack!” Tiffany continued.

“Thank you, sweetheart. I know I want you by my side forever, and if that means us staying under different roofs in order to have God’s blessing, then I am willing to do just that.”

“I know it will be hard, bae. Because I don’t like being apart from you.”

“I don’t like being apart from you either, but let’s look at it as offering our members as a living sacrifice. After all, Jesus Christ died for us so we should live for Him.”

“I know, bae. And God tells me that because we want to honor Him, He will honor us.”

“I am ever thankful that He sent you into my life Tiffany.”

“I am too. When I bumped into you at the mall, I was so embarrassed because I am a big girl and I knocked you down.”

“Yes, the fall hurt, but when I looked up at you and saw your beautiful face, the pain ceased that very moment.”

“I was expecting you to sue me.”

“Never. Anyway, I wouldn’t have had a case. My back was already damaged.”

“I guess it’s because my parents are always so obsessed with money.”

“Even if you knocked me down intentionally, I wouldn’t be offended.”

“Why, so I could sit on you?”

Zachary blushed and nodded.

Tiffany giggled.

Zachary then asked, “What part of my body would you sit on?”

Tiffany giggled even more and smirked as she replied, “Hmmm, let me think…I know That cute baby face of yours! It would be underneath my big butt and I would totally own you.”

Zachary then asked with passion, “And what would you wear whilst sitting upon my baby face?”

Tiffany’s smirk grew even more deviant as she said, “Those sexy panties you bought me at the Dollar General! Of course, I would wear them at first, just to tease you, but then I would pull them down so you could use your tongue on me!”

“Oh, sweetheart, my tongue would go for miles upon miles inside your most intimate parts until you flood my face!”

“Ooo, bae, tell me more!” Tiffany said, filled with excitement and lust.

“Very well: I would…”

A truck suddenly pulled out in front of Zachary and Tiffany. Zachary sounded his horn and slammed on his brakes, missing the truck by just a few short feet.

“Thank you, Lord. That was too close for comfort!”

“I feel very convicted about what we were just talking about, Zack.”

“Me as well, Tiffany.”

“Thank God we weren’t hurt.”

“Speaking of God, we need to pray: Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive us of the sinful conversation we just had, and please allow, equip and compel us to do better. Furthermore, Lord, we thank you for sparing us a tremendous deal of harm just now. Please continue to grant us safe travels and keep us together forever. In Jesus’ Name, we petition you, Amen!”

“Yes, Lord, please forgive me for my dirty talk. I love Zack and I am very attracted to him, but help me to not give in to these lusts until I am married to him. In Jesus’ Name, I pray, Amen!”

“Just so you know, sweetheart, God has now forgiven you of your sins and my sins. There is no need to confess to a priest or anything like that. Just humbly admit to God what you did and ask Him to help you do better henceforth.”

“Yes. I do feel as if a huge weight that I had been carrying all my life has been taken off of me.”

They continued driving in peaceful silence and then arrived at the thrift store.

Zachary parked his Cobalt then exited the driver’s side and walked over to the passenger side and opened the door for Tiffany.

She embraced him then kissed him. Soon their tongues were wrestling until an uptight motorist passing by blew his horn at them.

Subsequently, Zachary and Tiffany walked into the thrift store and began to browse around.

Tiffany made a beeline for the plus-sized women’s section and began to grab several tee shirts, blouses, shorts, dress pants, yoga pants, and skirts.

Zachary went to the electronics section and saw a high spec desktop computer that was only a few years old but selling for only $10. Immediately he purchased it.

Tiffany continued shopping for clothes until she had every article in her size that she liked.

They then checked out and were handed a large bag with all the clothing.

Zachary placed all their purchases in his trunk, then opened the passenger door for Tiffany, to which she pelted his face with many loving kisses. They embraced for just a moment, then Zachary walked to the driver’s side and entered.

“Thank you bae for buying me all those clothes and of course, the phone.”

“There’s some more I plan to purchase you, especially since I was able to get a decent computer to write with for cheap. I will get you whatever art supplies your heart desires.”

“You’re so sweet, Zack and I love you!”

“I love you too and I want you by my side for life.”

“I want that too, bae!”

With that, Zachary put his car in gear, then prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, we thank You for all that You have just blessed us with and we thank You for placing us together and ask that You keep us together. Please grant us a safe trip to wherever else we may go and draw us closer to You. In Jesus’ Name, we make these prayers, Amen.”

Tiffany asked, “Where else did you want to go?”

“I was going to Target to buy a backpack so I can carry some of my stuff with me. I saw your messenger bag and realized that I should have something like that as well.”

“If it’s all right, can you drop me off at Mrs. Judy’s? I would like to change my clothes.”

“Of course sweetheart. And later this evening, if you want, I can take you to dinner and buy you some art supplies.”

“I would really like that, bae. I’m so thankful that God put us together.”

“Me as well, sweetheart.”

Zachary and Tiffany held hands until they arrived at Mrs. Judith’s house.

Then Zachary parked his Cobalt in the driveway, exited the driver’s side, and opened the passenger door for Tiffany, to which she passionately kissed him. He then opened the trunk and brought the bag with Tiffany’s clothes to the door.

Tiffany rang the doorbell and Mrs. Judith greeted them.

“Zack bought me a whole bunch of clothes,” Tiffany said, then continued, “Can you help me store them?”

“Of course, Tiffany,” She then looked at Zachary and said, “That was very sweet of you, Zack.”

“It was the least I could do, after all, I am in love with her!” Zachary said with confidence.

“And I am in love with him.”

“I have to run a few more errands, sweetheart, but later this evening, I will take you out for dinner and purchase you some art supplies.”

“I can’t wait, bae!”

Zachary and Tiffany walked to the Cobalt, where they embraced and shared a few sweet kisses and those three words.

Zachary then entered the driver’s side and drove to complete his errands…

Back to “The New Generation Gap”

A Hallelujah Celebration-The New Generation Gap

Several church members had arrived and were readying the fellowship hall for the Alternative to Halloween celebration. It was known as the “Hallelujah Celebration.” Several men were manning the barbecue pits just outside the fellowship hall where they were grilling hamburgers and hot dogs. Some ladies were in the kitchen of the fellowship hall baking cakes and cookies. One lady was preparing some homemade chili.

There were several children running around with parents keeping their eyes on them.

There was youth sitting around a table and playing with their tablets.

Young adults were sitting at another table with their laptops. There was a young married couple and another equally young engaged couple. Zachary held Tiffany’s hand and walked her over to the table of the young adults, introducing her to them. First, he looked at the young married couple and said “Anthony and Kandice,” paused, then looked at the engaged couple and continued, “Damian and Juniper, this is my girlfriend, Tiffany Taylor.”

“Well hello, Tiffany,” Kandice said, then continued, “Zachary is such a sweet guy and he has been praying for quite a while that God will send him someone to love. I’m sure he will make you very happy.”

“He definitely does make me happy.”

Anthony then asked, semi-jokingly “Are you sure you want to be with him?”

“Yes. I am wholeheartedly sure. I’ve never met anyone like him!” Tiffany replied with confidence.

“Y’all do make a very cute couple,” Juniper added in.

“Thank you!” Tiffany said as she blushed.

“Yes, now I know there is someone for everyone after all,” Damian concluded.

Anthony looked at Damian and said, “So, with that being said, when are you and Juniper going to tie the knot?”

“Really, Anthony?” Kandice said.

Juniper replied, “When we can find a minister who will perform the ceremony without making us sign a marriage license.”

“Y’all wrong for that!” Anthony remarked.

“Well, it’s none of your business anyway, Anthony! You think that because you screwed up your life, everyone else’s life should also be screwed up too.”

Anthony replied back, “I’m glad my life was messed up because it made me realize my need for Jesus. You obviously need Him as well, whether you like it or not.”

Tiffany became very uneasy and began to show a look of nervousness.

Zachary hugged her and whispered in her ear, “I apologize for what you just saw sweetheart. Sadly even in a wholesome church, there is the potential for conflict to still arise if we are not careful.”

Kandice added in, “Excuse my husband. He means well but he puts everything out the wrong way. I hope you would still want to come to our church.”

“Yes. I would.” Tiffany said, then continued, “I recently came to Christ and I need to be in church. So, since Zachary goes here and Pastor Timmy is so nice, I still want to come here.”

“What do you do for fun?” Kandice asked.

“I’m an aspiring artist,” Tiffany replied.

“Did you tell that to Pastor Timmy? He’s been looking for someone to paint some Biblical scenes around the church.”

“Yes. He said he would hire me to do it.”

“That’s awesome. I work in the nursery a lot and I cannot wait to see what you will paint for it.”

“You’re really nice, Kandice. I hope we can be friends.”

“Of course, we can. Would you like my phone number?”

“My phone is turned off at the moment and will be off indefinitely. I ran away from my abusive parents and my phone service is in their name.”

Zachary then said to Tiffany, “I intend to purchase a new phone for you this Friday. I had reconciled my budget and I have more than enough to get you a decent model and make your monthly payment as well.”

“How old are you, because if you’re not yet eighteen, you can get Zack in a lot of trouble.”

“I’m nineteen and will be twenty this April.”

“Where are you staying?” Kandice asked.

“With Zack, but I was told an older widow at the church might take me in, at least until Zack and I could marry.”

“Yes, that’s Mrs. Judy. She’s such a sweet lady.”

“Why can’t you stay with your parents?” Anthony asked.

“Because they beat me and they burn my paintings. One time my dad burned my paintings because they depicted a young couple on a picnic and so much in love.”

“If your paintings are anything like the stuff that Zack writes, I can’t say I blame him.”

Zachary grew irritated and asked, “What exactly is wrong with my writing?”

“You know exactly what is wrong with it and I refuse to discuss this at church.”

“Anthony, don’t start that drama again.” Kandice sharply barked.

Tiffany looked at Zachary and said, “Bae, your stories are beautiful. I know the message that you’re conveying through them and it is one of the reasons why I am falling for you so much! And just so you know, it’s not the only reason!”

“Thank you, sweetheart! What you said means the world, the moon, and the stars to me! Furthermore, you do remind me of the good female characters in the stories I write. That’s likely the reason why I was so captivated by you the moment we met. And just know that I am falling equally for you! “

“Y’all are so sweet!” Juniper added in.

Pastor Timmy then stood in front of everyone with a microphone in hand and began to speak, “I want to welcome everyone to our Hallelujah Celebration, especially Miss Tiffany Taylor. I am well pleased to announce that she has put her trust in Jesus Christ earlier today and she has now passed from death to life! We have some gifts for her. Everyone now please bow your heads and join me in prayer,” Everyone bowed and Pastor Timmy continued, “Dear Heavenly Father we ask that you bless tonight’s gathering and all the people here. We thank you for the time to fellowship with the Saints of God instead of doing what the world is doing at this very moment. We thank you for the food that we are about to eat and ask that you blessed all who prepared it and bless it for the nourishment of our bodies for Your service and glory! In Jesus’ Name, we make these prayers to You. Amen and Thank You, Lord!” Pastor Timmy finally said, “Ladies and children eat first, then the men.”

Tiffany, then asked Kandice, “Can you come with me while I make my plate?”

Kandice replied, “Sure thing, Tiffany.”

They both stood in the food line.

Tiffany continued, “Thanks. I feel awkward serving myself because of the weight I struggle with.”

“I struggle with my weight too, but I know they won’t judge me in church.”

“My dad always made comments about my weight and it made me feel awful.”

“Well, in case you didn’t know, Zachary always liked bigger ladies. I know I am married, but I thought he was so sweet when he said how much he wanted to be with a bigger lady.”

“Why he never asked you then?”

“Because he respects my marriage, even though I’ll admit it’s not the best. But don’t worry it’s more than that. I’ve never seen him look at me or anyone else the way he looks at you. He’s crazy about you and he is really sweet, so I hope you only have good intentions with him.”

“Wow! I’m glad you told me that because I am just as crazy about him. He’s cute as can be. He’s sweet. And he’s very generous with his affections towards me. He just makes me so happy and I know I just met him, but I can’t wait to marry him!”

“That’s wonderful. I will pray for you and Zack because I believe y’all are meant to be!”

“Thank you, Kandice! You’re a true friend.”

“Don’t let my husband intimidate you. He gets so zealous at times, but he was once so worldly that he could never make Heaven, now he’s so heavenly-minded that he’s no earthly good.”

Kandice and Tiffany served their plates and then went to sit down. Juniper wasn’t far behind them.

Afterward, Zachary, Anthony, and, Damian all served themselves.

They all sat at the table and ate.

The children and youth later put on a performance while everyone else watched.

At the conclusion of the Hallelujah Celebration, Pastor Timmy met with Zachary and Tiffany.

He spoke, “I’m sorry that I was so busy this evening will call Mrs. Judy tomorrow and see if she will be willing to take you in Tiffany but I am sure she will.” He then looked at Zachary and said, “It is admirable that you want to honor God with your relationship and as long as you continue, He will honor you as well.”

Zachary then said, “Can you please pray over us that we don’t give in to any temptations tonight? I know it is not God’s ideal, but it is better than her being with her parents.”

“Most certainly, let’s hold hands,” Pastor Timmy said, then continued, “Heavenly Father, we know it isn’t your ideal that Zachary and Tiffany are spending the night under the same roof tonight, but we ask that you give them the grace not to give in to their fleshly desires tonight. Please enable and compel them to present their members as living sacrifices and to forgo any sinful behavior between them tonight. Please bless their relationship and allow it to continue. We pray this in Jesus’ Name, Amen.”

Pastor Timmy then hugged both of them and presented Tiffany with a gift basket.

“We will be here Sunday, Pastor Timmy!” Zachary said.

“I’m looking forward to seeing both of you,” Pastor Timmy replied.

Zachary and Tiffany then walked to the Cobalt. Zachary opened the passenger door for Tiffany, to which she kissed him and stepped in.

Zachary then entered on the driver’s side.

He started his engine, the prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, please grant us safe as travels, and just as Pastor Timmy also petitioned you please give us the grace to not give in to our fleshly desires, to present our members as living sacrifices and to forgo any sinful behavior tonight. Please keep us together and compel us to treat each other with kindness loyalty fidelity and reverence. In Jesus’ Name, we pray, Amen!”

Zachary then drove home.

Tiffany said, “My body wants to snuggle with you all night long, but I don’t think it would be right.”

Zachary replied, “Then you take my bed and I’ll take my futon.”

“You’re such a gentleman Zack.”

“You’re making me blush.”

“I am tired, so I’ll go right to sleep. We did plenty today and I am a big girl.”

“That is probably an escape route to prevent us from sinning.”

“Wow. You’re probably right.”

Zachary and Tiffany pulled into the parking spot then Zachary stepped out and opened the passenger door for Tiffany. She kissed him then they walked up to his unit, locking the door behind them.

Zachary extended out the bedding portion of his futon then Tiffany walked to the bedroom.

“Can you at least tuck me in, bae?”

“Of course, sweetheart.”

Zachary and Tiffany stood by the bed as they exchanged several hugs and kisses. Then Tiffany climbed into the bed and Zachary planted, even more, kisses on her face.

She smiled up at Zachary and said, “I thank God for you, Zack.”

“Likewise, I thank God for you as well Tiffany. I pray that he keeps us together forever.”

“That is my prayer as well!”

They kissed once more and then Zachary retired to the futon in his living room.

Back to “The New Generation Gap”

Tiffany’s Conversion-The New Generation Gap

Tiffany stepped out of the bathroom and was ready to go.

Zachary had just finished up taking notes for his latest story when she stepped out.

“Good Lord, Tiffany, you’re beautiful!”

“Thanks, Zack. Hearing you say that makes me feel better since I have been wearing the same tee-shirt and jeans for the past few days.”

“No matter what you wear, you would still be beautiful!”

Tiffany sweetly kissed Zachary and then asked, “Do you need to get ready at all?”

“Honestly, all I need to do is scrub myself in the washbasin and shave.”

“Okay. Go ahead and do that. I feel a strong need to go to church with you this evening and not just because there is a party tonight.”

Zachary nodded, then went to wash up and shave.

Tiffany sat on the futon and waited.

Zachary came out, fresh and clean-shaven.

“Your baby face is so cute, Zack!” Tiffany said with affection.

“Thank you, sweetheart. Most see it and think I am younger than what I actually am and they don’t take me seriously.”

“Well there is one thing I want to do with your face, but will have to wait until we are married.”

“What is that?”

Tiffany giggled and said, “Sit on it!”

“Oh, Tiffany, that would bring me immense happiness, but once you get up off of my face, I am going to lay you like there is no tomorrow!”

“That’s the whole idea, bae!” Tiffany said giggling even more.

“I wish we were married now, but we must needs get to church before we give in to our urges and provoke the chastening rod of God.”

“You’re right. Let’s go”

“We will arrive about half an hour early, but there is a pressing matter that you and I need to talk with my pastor about. You need to settle a certain account with God Almighty. Everyone does, whether they admit it or not. I settled my account with God a little over six years and as a result, I am saved eternally. I desire that for you as well!”

“I want that too. I realize that catholicism is phony and I also know that I am a sinner and there is a hell that is for sinners. I don’t want to go there.”

“Then let us go speak with my pastor at once.”

“Lead the way.”

With that, Zachary and Tiffany walked out of the front door, with Zachary locking it behind them. They then walked down the steps to the Cobalt, where Zachary opened the passenger door for Tiffany and she stepped in, kissing him. Zachary then entered on the driver’s side. They fastened their seatbelts, and Zachary started his engine.

Subsequently, he prayed, “Dear Heavenly Father, I ask that you grant us safe travels wherever we may go this evening. I also ask that you keep Tiffany and me together for life and that we honor, revere, and cherish each other. Compel us to honor you with our relationship, not only because we want you to bless it, but also because it is what You desire. Please also allow my pastor to present Your Precious Gospel to Tiffany and equally allow her to submit and surrender to it. Lord may we both love You above all and as we grow closer to you, bring us closer together likewise. In Jesus’ Name, I present these petitions, amen!”

Zachary then put his Cobalt in gear and back out of his parking spot.

“I always love hearing you pray, Zack,” Tiffany said.

“Thank you, sweetheart. I hope I accurately set an example of what a Christ-follower is like and that you become one as well.”

“I definitely want Jesus. Even though I know catholicism is phony, I know that Jesus is real and I want Him in my life.”

“Well, we are but a mere few hundred feet away from my church. My pastor is better at presenting The Gospel than I am.”

There was a peaceful silence as Zachary pulled into the church parking lot.

He saw Pastor Timmy’s vintage mustang parked there, so he, parked next to it, then stepped out of his Cobalt, then walked around, and opened the passenger door for Tiffany. She kissed him and stepped out then they locked the doors and entered the church.

A motion sensor made a ringing sound alerting Pastor Timmy that there were people there to see him.

He walked out of his office, down the corridor, and saw Zachary and Tiffany.

He greeted them, “Good to see you, Zachary. And I see you have a lovely young lady with you.” He looked at Tiffany and asked, “What is your name?”

“Tiffany Taylor.”

“And who are you to Zachary?”

“I’m his girlfriend.”

Pastor Timmy smiled and then said, “Well that is wonderful. I have been praying for quite a while that The Good Lord would send a special someone to Zachary.”

He then looked at Zachary and said, “I know the party is not for about a half-hour, so what brings y’all here?”

Tiffany looked at Zachary and said, “I’m nervous, so you tell him.”

“Tiffany is interested in getting it right with The Lord and I know that you are better at presenting the Gospel than I ever will be,” Zachary replied.

Pastor Timmy looked at Tiffany and said, “There is nothing to be nervous about, but I do want to hear it directly from you that you are indeed interested in getting it right with God.”

Tiffany then opened up and said, “I know catholicism is phony. I witnessed so much corruption in attending catholic school all my life, plus my parents are both catholic and they act horribly. I met Zack at the mall yesterday and then there was a tornado. He shielded my body with his. I started to recite the rosary, but the storm only got worse. Zack then prayed out loud and he prayed in Jesus’ Name that the storm stifle and moments later it did. Therefore, while I now know that catholicism is phony, I equally know that Jesus is real and I want Him in my life. I see what Zack has and I want it too.”

Pastor Timmy looked at Zachary and said, “There was a rumor going around about a young man’s prayers stopping that tornado at the mall. I didn’t realize it was you. Good job, I am proud of you in The Lord!”

Zachary smiled and blushed slightly.

Pastor Timmy then looked at Tiffany and said, “In order to come to Jesus and have Him in your life, you must first realize and acknowledge to God that you are a sinner and have offended Him and, therefore, deserve to go to hell for all eternity.”

Tiffany nodded.

Pastor Timmy continued, “Gospel means ‘Good News’ because there is some very Good News indeed to your condition: You don’t have to go to hell at all. God Almighty sacrificed His Son Jesus Christ on behalf of all humanity. He knew that all of our sins must be dealt with and severely dealt with. We are made in His image and He loves us, more so than can ever be fathomed. So His Son, Jesus Christ is God come in the flesh and took our punishment on Himself that we may be eternally reconciled to God the Father. What would take us eternity in hell to pay for, took Him three hours on that awful cross and three days in the grave. But then God raised Him from the dead and He is forever victorious over sin death and hell. Despite what the catholic church teaches, there is absolutely no way for anyone to earn the right to go to Heaven. We must simply put all of our trust in Jesus Christ and follow Him.” Pastor Timmy then asked Tiffany, “Do you agree with anything I am telling you?”

“Yes sir. I agree with all of it!” Tiffany replied with great sobriety, then asked, “How do I receive Jesus into my life?”

“Well, you already agree with and believe what has been presented to you. Now I want you to, in your own words, earnestly pray to God and tell him that you know you have sinned against Him and that you deserve hell, but you now know that Jesus took your punishment and the debt you owe is paid in full. Then ask Jesus to save you from all your sins and to rule your life from this point forward. Finally, ask God to adopt you as his child. He surely will if you are indeed sincere. Then praise Him and conclude your prayer in Jesus’ Name. If you are at a loss for words, I can guide you further.”

Tiffany began to pray, with tears rolling down her face, “Lord I believe all that was said to me just now. I am completely aware that I have offended You and I am sorry. Thank you Jesus for taking my punishment and paying for my sins. I do want You to rule my life from this point forward and help me to live for You from now on. Please do come into my life and save me from my sins. God, I do ask You to adopt me as Your child and I make this prayer in Jesus’ Name, amen!”

Pastor Timmy then said, “Congratulations little sister! I believe you have passed from death to life.”

Tiffany then said, “I started staying with Zack. We didn’t have sex but we are living together and I now feel this is wrong. But my parents are abusive and I have nowhere else to go.”

Pastor Timmy said, “I’ll see if I can get you to stay with one of the widows, at least until you and Zachary are wed, assuming y’all would want to be wed.”

“I definitely would want to marry him. No one has ever been so sweet to me.” Tiffany said.

Pastor Timmy looked at Zachary and asked, “What do you think, Zachary?”

“I think she is absolutely beautiful and so sweet. And I have been praying to The Lord that He sends me someone to love, as you know. I also have standards but she meets them perfectly. So, yes I do eventually want to marry her. It’s just we only met yesterday, so I want to make sure she is right for me and I am right for her. In reality, though, I believe she is the one. I just don’t want others to think we’ve moved too fast.”

Tiffany looked at Zachary with pure happiness and admiration.

Pastor Timmy then asked Tiffany, “I believe God has given you certain gifts and He wants you to use them for His Glory. What do you do for enjoyment?”

Tiffany replied, “I always wanted to be an artist. I love to draw and paint but my parents always tried to discourage my creativity. They would frequently burn my paintings because they want me to get a ‘real job.'”

Pastor Timmy smiled and said, “I know the Lord sent you to Zachary and this church for a reason. I’ve been wanting to hire someone to paint several murals in the church with scenes from the Bible. Would you be up to it?”

Tiffany replied, “I would be honored. In fact, my dream job is painting murals for public places.”

“Awesome. Then get with me this Sunday and we will arrange it so you can get started possibly as early as next week.” Pastor Timmy then looked at Zachary and said, “I haven’t forgotten about making you the church website administrator, I know you are gifted with writing and computers.”

Tiffany then asked, “Are you sure there is someone who would take me in? If it wasn’t a sin, I would just stay with Zack, but I don’t want God to punish us. I don’t want to stay with my parents either because they are abusive, physically and verbally.”

Pastor Timmy replied, “We have a woman whose husband was killed in Vietnam and she never had kids with him nor did she remarry. She is now getting old and could use someone to help her around the house. She will be cooking for the party tonight so I can talk to her then.” He looked at his Swatch wristwatch and then said, “Now it’s almost time for the party to begin, so y’all enjoy yourselves.”

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Zachary and Tiffany sat on the futon and alternated between soap operas and tabloid talk shows. Because it was a fair and mild Autumn day, most of the television channels were coming in on Zachary’s television legibly.

They kept on watching until Tiffany asked, “What time do we need to be at the church tonight?”

“Between half-past five and six,” Zachary replied.

“What time is it now?” Tiffany asked.

Zachary glanced at his G-Shock and replied, “One-forty-eight.”

“At three o’clock or so, I would like to take a bath to freshen up, if that’s all right.”

“Of course, sweetheart. And as if you have to even ask. I know you’re a lady and you desire to be fresh. I sincerely apologize for not being able to immediately get you a more feminine soap, shampoo, deodorant, and other items you need. But I promise that I shall get you those, in fact, I plan to the moment I am paid this Friday and Target opens its doors.”

“It’s okay, Zack. I know you have a very good heart and you will take care of me, in the best way you can. Honestly, I’d rather be with you and not always have the grooming products of my choice instead of being with my parents under their total control and oppression.”

“Thank you for your patience and understanding, Tiffany. I promise that I will do my utmost and see to it that you will not regret your choices. I plan to pay you back in every way possible.”

Tiffany looked at Zachary with passion, landed several kisses on his face as she rubbed his hairy chest, and said, “I wish you could pay me back right now!” She paused then said, “But it would be a sin.”

Zachary held Tiffany as she lay on his chest and he played with her long curly hair and spoke, lovingly, “That is just one of the many ways I intend to pay you back, but only after we are wed. The other ways I intend to carry out more sooner and perpetually.”

“I know you will, Zack.” She paused, then sweetly smiled, looked at Zachary with puppy dogs eyes, and asked, “When we are married, what will you be willing to do, I mean besides plain intercourse?”

“What do you have in mind?”

Tiffany blushed and then asked, “Are you sure you want to know?”

Zachary kissed her and replied, “I certainly do. After all, it will prepare us better for our wedding night.”

Tiffany slightly giggled and spoke, “Well, I had a friend and she said how she sits on her boyfriend’s face and he pleasures her with his tongue. I don’t know if I would actually sit on your face, but the thought of you pleasuring me with your tongue brings out all sorts of wild passions in me.” She then blushed, and said, “Oh my gosh I can’t believe I just told you that and you probably now think I am a slut.” Tiffany then buried her face into the cushion on the futon.”

Zachary rubbed Tiffany’s lower back and gently patted her buttocks as he said, “You are by no means, whatsoever a slut. You are a lady and I am filled with pure joy that you are my lady. Furthermore, there is absolutely nothing wrong with those desires you have. And just so you know, I would be greatly honored by performing cunnilingus on you as I see it as an act of great reverence and powerful love.”

Tiffany then rested herself on Zachary’s arms as he repeatedly kissed her.

She then spoke, “I always thought that men hate going down on women and they only did so so there could be peace and harmony in the relationship. We were also taught in catholic school that oral sex was a mortal sin, even in marriage, because it doesn’t result in conception.”

Zachary smiled and said, “Maybe some guys are like that, but I’m not. I tell you the truth, not only do I see it as an act of reverence and love towards you, I would cherish every moment of it and after I am finished pleasuring you with my tongue, I would be so immensely aroused that I would passionately make love to you. And just so you know, any safe and consensual sex act between a husband and wife is wholly permissible by God Almighty. The catholic church teaches otherwise because wicked people in their high places want to keep the adherents to catholicism in all sorts of bondage.”

“Well, I feel as if some of my burdens have been lifted.” She paused, then asked in distress, “But, what if I squirt and spray all over you?”

“Even better so. My passions would be even more strongly provoked resulting in us experiencing days and nights of endless pleasure! And not only that, I have read quite frequently that a woman’s orgasmic fluids help prevent cancer in men when ingesting them. So you will potentially be keeping me alive if you squirt and spray on me!”

“Now I know I have found the right one. As far as I can see, we are compatible in every way. I only wish we were married at this very moment, but I know it will be worth the wait.” Tiffany paused then said, “However, I think I will go bathe right now instead of at three o’clock, only to prevent me from coming on to you and us being punished by God.”

“Enjoy your bath, sweetheart. I’ll be waiting here in the living room. In these past moments, you have inspired me to write so much that I cannot wait to transcribe into text and subsequently present it to you!”

“I know it will be beautiful,” Tiffany said as she gave Zachary a strong kiss, then pranced into the bathroom. First, she used the toilet, then sat in the bathtub and drew the water as she took a relaxing bath.

Zachary wrote in his composition book until it was time for him to get ready for the event at church.

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